Spiritual Journey of self-discovery in the Magical universe: When I arrived, realised I never left:only my the views transformed the Universe

I have realized I reached the end to a subject which I have worked on nearly 2 years.

It has started out that I decided I want to win the lotto and with the money buy a house on Vancouver Island in Victoria in the section called Oak Harbor right on the water overlooking the inlet and the mountains on the other side of the water and that was the original” intention”.

I am including the video of my ‘’house’’ because it is mine, I believe it is mine.

too reset the videos to view the house need to push the semi circle at the bottom of the video on the lefts side-bottom of the pictures facing you.

I have written 3 posts so far on how I was doing on this ‘’subjects’ ‘and by now I long have left behind the idea of winning since that consideration only has so many sides I could have session on.

Winning is not just winning the lotto.. but it is wanting – desiring –needing– to change a condition knowing-believing that the transformation would be bringing a better condition.


THAT IS THE GOAL-OBJECTIVE WHAT WE AIM FOR when we are having sessions, using the Technology to free self from the unwanted beliefs.

But the subject which started out is ‘’wanted to win the lotto’’ has opened into something massive which encompassed –embraced –involved my whole track in this universe.

And of course the ‘’wanting’’ is having ‘’intention to accomplish change conditions ’’.. so because the word is simple do not means simply one item has to be confronted LOL..no, but this simple word is just the cover to a bottomless pit which is our track and that is Infinite!

I also have written about visualization.. Confrontation of dreams, illusions, but of course I haven’t mentioned the hundreds of items-considerations I have separately confronted in sessions.

This morning I have realized that I have finished with this subject once and for all! But I did not feel happy, elated jubilant on this idea, in fact I felt let down.

WOW!!!        Then I also realized that I have:

I have Given in… accepted the condition because can’t change it therefore I no longer fight it  or wanting to work it out… capitulated .. in other words I have thrown in the towel!

Become defeated… accepted this defeat is part of life… inevitable … ohhhh .. Just let it stand –remain as is…. work with it what I have here… make the best of it…


Because force-power which hold everything in place is bigger than me?

I can’t go against it?  Karma is not changeable? Karma is inevitable?

We accept karma as something given by higher authority -power as our inevitable faith… inevitable faith is bank and nothing more.

SO… I am back and the adventure continues… I never give in because giving in is accepting the control: the bank and its power over me. 🙂

”defeat” simply means: something existing which don’t let something happen!

PS: I don’t live poorly.. by all means I don’t, I live in a lovely condo overlooking the forest and why do I wish to change conditions? because I want to… simply want to for the ”doing” of it and knowing I am at causer.! 🙂

PS; I no longer accept any condition as ”normal” simply because  here on this Earth was decided by  ”agreements” that something is normal, or on the ”Track” was decided what should be called normal occurrences – because decisions  never make any condition normal. There are no such a conditions as ”normal” conditions. AND IF WE CANT DO SOMETHING… OUR INTENTION DONT WORK THAN THE REASON IS THAT WE HAVE  ASSIGNED  POWER TO OTHERS OR THINGS-element-stuff in general that those persons or things are better, stronger,  bigger, more important than us.




Cognition ON NUMBERS.

Items can be seen and numbered just how many are there and what the numbers are indicating, and these symbols means the same in any language: example: there are apples in the bowl, because they can be counted, there can’t be make mistake just how many there are, can’t be argued about this number, can’t be denied, disputed, there is no uncertainty when numbers are present: We get agreement!

There is  group of people running, they can be counted, let say there were 4 of them  so same as the above example the number cant be changed because  that would be a lie…

So what numbers doing to our reality is commanding agreements, with that in place the story of that incident: we have seen 4 people running becomes solidified: permanently established and no one can’t change that anymore.

So numbering things brings agreement… example Buddhism has 400 million followers so this huge number really solidify the fact that Buddhism is good true faith because 400 million people cant be wrong!

LOL… LOL.. agreement on anything is agreement on solidity, true thing as in Infinite and what that stands for cant be counted, describes but what can be counted and described plus adding symbols to it+ behavior and that behavior is then regularly PRACTICED!!! is and always masses of energy and those agreements make it totally solid.

So look out… more agreement there are on any subject, which are represented by numbers are indication of solidified masses of energy= pure undiluted bank.

Because numbers don’t lie and I believe that only numbers are not miss duplicated by people, concepts cannot be duplicated because we cant see-know what others feel and about those reality the arguments miss-understandings arises  but ”numbers” do represent solid facts!

it seems Numbers knowing their meaning and how they function sort of ties together to some degree that we as individual have some  reality on each other.

example: I haven’t the clue how your half of the apple taste for you, so that part we can have a big discussion,  but we can totally agree that we both have 1 half apple!

Just think just how solid a concepts have become next time you bite into on apple, or drink a glass of water or take a big lungful of air and you believe that its feels so good, taste good and you  cant live without  that lungful of belief!

All these exist because having agreements on the subject.

new topic… numbers

I never ‘’looked’’ at numbers before as in sessions since ‘’numbers’’ are not my favorite things: these symbols I don’t find fascinating at all, but I admit I should have since ‘’numbers’’ are very much part of, how we ‘’live’’ our life’s here on earth.

It is a mindboggling subject and so far I only peek through the door and seen that here on Earth everyone has a number, everything numbered, everything measured and given an assigned correct number!

WOW.. this is mindboggling to me to find that numbers –being numbered has such a great importance.. so vital.

It seems ‘’ numbers’’ have solidifying effects, they tie things together, they hold things in within that content; example there are 8 basic fragrances; green tea, pepper, spice, violet, damask rose-old rose, chocolate, musk etc.. I forgot the 8th… I used to have a huge rose garden, had 300 roses and out of these 75 was ramblers and climbers.

There are 800 different variety of flees in that group and 20 thousand variety of grasshoppers, 1800  variety of apples so far classified [Big deal…] so the humans love to classify, and put label on everything and that is totally Ok by me this means I don’t have ‘’ charge’’ on this matter.


NOW there is a very good reason for that, sound like number acts as on anchor… huge big rusted old anchor which has been there who know how long and long forgotten.

Well, soon as I discover more on this item, why it was so important to have and to keep, I will write about it if its worthy to mention.


Where are our abilities? Very funny question: they are still at the same place as where we left them, when we have denied we had them by saying we can’t do it, cannot be done, when we assigned powers to others, that others are more powerful than were are, more able, stronger, smarter, born at the right place, to the right parents, when we believed other are more deserving than us and when we believed that others were more important than us!

And when we said and believed that we are just not lucky… the luck is not with us, we never had luck, we never been lucky, we were born under on unlucky star, on unlucky day, when we believed we were cursed, lived in a corrupt age, where a honest person cant make it go right etc.. etc..

And we have seen other how lucky they were, no matter what they have touched turned out alright! and than we have compared self with these people and evaluated self… devaluated self : that yes!!! They were born under the lucky star, they were born with the silver spoon in their mouth therefore they have everything whatever they want and us poor saps we just live on the sideline as observers.

So where are our abilities?

The present time in this age the name-title I believe ‘’ability’’ should be called ‘’LUCK’’….  and you can evaluate for self—summon up just how lucky or unlucky you are  in your present state; the  life cycle  you are in.

Luck, being lucky is not just related to gambling.. or going into new ventures: wanting to make better living but luck is how one’s marriage  is working out or not, how we cope with our daily adventures, how we feel, how is the health of the body, how our dreams has come through, or have they been discarded and let them die? happened because we were not lucky????

Unlucky… simply means ability to make it go right is no longer present.

I have had immense amount of sessions over these years in order to unearth the abilities I have had and I can say all the sessions I had since 73 do addresses  directly or indirectly  this item: ability-luck.

Everything we ever do, have done=experienced are interconnected, each incident, each life we lived exist because others have existed.

I haven’t recovered abilities… not the way I thought they will be when I started out: snap the finger and whatever I want will appear LOL ..  that is not how it works but if it  works that way than I haven’t regained that ‘’ability’’ yet!  But I have learned: nothing is impossible: if we can think of it than it can happen!

SOOOO…. I have said this before how we think what we believe in that is all we have.

If someone wakes up in the morning and thinks: ohhh, not another lousy day.. ohhhh how horrible that job is, I can’t stomach this another day! Well, you got what you asked for, what you believe in and don’t wait for better.

Auditing-confronting works because we can eliminate the unwanted beliefs… and that makes the Tech.. magical, it is the Magic Wand.

soup is hot—the soup is cold…. I can walk through the wall… I cant walk through the wall .

This is a very simple Universe… cant get any simpler: what we believe we have.

Reached the basic-basic

on a very well know State and why that state was created.

There is a reason for everything we do and we have, the state-condition we are in, how we think, what abilities we have or why we haven’t got them anymore.

Poverty being poor has been one of my major projects to confront and of course reasons to understand why I have experienced this state and joined others in this experience.

Not only poverty-being poor-having very little etc.. etc.. but I had to also confront being rich-having everything and this not all but I had to confront more than one universe —This physical so called Solid Universe but I also had to explore the Spiritual universe where we lived –operated without bodies.

I could write books on this subject, there have been hundreds —thousands of reason for each state=consideration=belief to exist plus all the related items I have confronted in order to understand what it means why we are poor or rich.

I finally reached the basic-basic incident and with that the understanding the true reason why the ‘’state of poverty’’ was created and followed by so many.

The Entity who has created this State has truly understood how and what has effected-stimulated us, and how to – curtail-limit and reduce these effects.

This Entity understood and this understanding was very simple, too simple and that simplistic basic reason was to keep the Entity pure, or minimally effected, not to be embroiled – entangled- caught up- ensnared- mixed-up and get confused by masses of energy=possessions but keep it simple: to live simple life, only have what is needed for survival and have nothing more than that.

The rest would count to be extra, not needed or wanted because those extras are the extra baggage which hinders the Entity.

By now unfortunately the  true meaning of this simple state  has been altered and now made out to be punishment because value is placed on matter: more you have more valuable –important you are and when have little than that person is nothing-no one.

Yet priesthood –some other religions still based on the same principal.

I completely agree with this Entities belief because I also know that every thought, belief, agreement-consideration we have is connected to large masses of energies which were one time or another in solid forms  and that these masses of energies= mental images-pictures are what we gotten embroiled –ensnarled by.

If we would have kept our life simple this would not have happened but again we would not attain the knowledge what means is having everything and to experiencing everything.



part of the todays session.


I see a person in ”praying ”position, it seems this praying person trusts good’s power…

Realization:…..WOW….. OH…..total trust in god is ‘’’Total assignment of power .. total delegation of power…handing over power…means total submission ………

TOTAL SUBMISSION- being totally submissive : obedient , docile, meek, dutiful; IS INCRADIBLY POWERFUL ACTION because when give in to on any idea, teachings philosophy, when we accept that dogma as truth and don’t question… no matter what happens , how it affects our life therefore we become less stimulated by our surrounding-life and when total submission occurs that means total di-stimulation .. no longer being on affect…



But  total submission has a huge downside: giving up own awareness-reality-all personal abilities-creativity… but  the main objection is awareness and when giving up everything by becoming totally submissive as follower of any teachings – philosophies -religions.. regardless whatever that maybe.. that person  becomes a robot-slave who carries out the wishes of others.

Examples: we at first when went into Scientology we have not questioned LRH’s teachings.

LOL… and we become totally keyed out of our earlier life and gotten keyed into LRH’s life! How he thought, what he beloved in, with that we become on extension of his and we supplied power: WE ASSIGNED POWER TO HIM!  LOL his ego grown ..we made him a god ..

Those who after leaving the church went into Buddhism… LOL… now that is total submission …giving up everything not questioning and the same times quoting sayings behaving in manner dictated more likely assumed that is how should one behave if one a Buddhist ..WOW PEOPLE … these characters who have embraced that philosophy really hit the bottom… total robotic-none thinking machinery they have become.

Monks-priest is on the same level because they just follow and in my reality that level is lower than the frogs’ bottom.

But  LRH has offered a technology when used freed the user from that robotic-none thinking level…….and that is the fact , so LRH’s work was not all garbage but incredible valuable.

but religions never offered the way out because there is no roads-paths out of that shit, submission to any dogma is assigning power.

HEHEHE same goes when voting for Trump or Clinton! LOL.







Mystery is the most coveted, sought-after, desired, longed for item in this WHOLE UNIVERSE! Regardless what shape, what form or not having a Form like on Entity.

make something mysterious and bingo everyone wants it!

Example: Spirituality this philosophy has always been shrouded in mystery, therefor many entered on a journey to discover for self what this spirituality is?

And because so many has embarked on the journey to find out for that reason is we have that many outcome LOL.. and not one of the founding is true… Spirituality cannot be defined.. Expressed in any way or in any form and symbolism as in all religions definitely does not describe the Universe which holds no shape or form.

Mystery is on the same level as ‘’unknown-not known’’ yet mystery- mysterious items were once and are still tremendously valuable.

After all it has taken us Eons to create mystery to cover up our awareness, our total understanding because when we are viewing something we have total understanding on any subject-object what that may be to the last molecule it contains and why that exist in our space.

My friends we do know everything about this universe but we are so incredibly brilliant that by now we made ourselves believe we know nothing.. LOL… that is the most gargantuan lie we ever conjured up in the history since we are playing: being stupid-ignorant human.


Two people enter into marriage and they sure love each other but as time goes by= particles move= life continues lots of things change and these two people react differently to the daily happenings and sooner or later each notices that the other person is not behaving as they ‘’should’’ LOL.. now that comes a surprise  and each partner thinks and say “ OHHH I DID NOT KNOW S/H WAS LIKE THAT IF I WOULD HAVE KNOW I WOULD NEVER married THAT UGLY SO AND SO!”  of course you have known it but have ignored  the facts … simply because if you would admit than that marriage would never take place.

Mystery is not only built into relationships but it is the backbone in the game of life. LOL… only on idiot, on Entity who is playing being ‘’stupid’’=not know gest body with that gets all the trimming which goes with it and suffers – struggles but secretly loves every second of the game LOL.. everyone is so occupied to change things.. to discover things, to make things better: so much fun…so much drama… and nothing is more DRAMATIC THAN BELIEVING THAT WE DIE!!!!!

Now  who ever invented that ” death’ ‘concept truly deserves the glory because believing that DEATH EXIST that concept has put Spirituality- after life into total mystery which simply means our the true life -existence -creativity -abilities, knowing were forgotten,  sank into mystery… become shrouded  by the veil of ”unknown”.

The Universe exist because we made it into a mystery in other words: into altered reality.

So far I haven’t written much about Entities.

My reason for leaving the church in 82 was because at Flag  the senior C/S ordered me to stop continuing — having solo sessions and did their best to scare me with the IDEA that Entities – Beings are my enemies and they will affect me, cause case problems. [I never agreed to that.]

But that is what they have known in the church that time because till than LRH haven’t  found incidents where spiritual entities were good therefore he had great fear of Entities and  he communicated the same beliefs : we all need to fear Entities.

I just realized something now: that it can be on assumption on my part that the Entity I am communicating with doesn’t have the body:  Just because I can’t see a body with my own bodies eyes that do not mean that Entity don’t have a body ten galaxies away from where my so called body is! In fact I can’t see the Entity either! LOL..I like that!

Relying on that truly incorrect information the church acted as what they have known but acted as they were the  AUTHORITY= know it all- about Entities. [ I don’t blame the church for handling me  that way.]

I did not have- shared than that reality-belief with the church about Bt’s –Clusters =Entities because from the very early on in as 73 I realized I was a spiritual being- on Entity myself, I felt at home with that belief and to me to be surrounded by spiritual beings-Entities brought total delight knowing we were all here, we were never alone..  we shared everything…no one was ever lost, no one has ever died  and to me this knowledge brought great happiness-contentment: I realized finally arrived , was finally at home,  belonged, part of this great Realm and no longer segregated.  [ only my own beliefs made me feel separated.]

I have given countless sessions to Entities since 76 but so far I found less than a dozen who were in fact out to get me, these few were put into my space to destroy and harm-eliminate at all cost  and that was their sole purpose. LOL.. but they too responded to auditing, confronted their own reality and finally become free with that their mission ended.

Poor Entities they were, because they only been given-implanted with one determination to destroy one Entity and that is without a doubt a very poor reason to exist. LOL.. but no one can destroy on Entity! J

What I have found in sessions that all Entities were simply stuck in incidents… that we all are in the same situation, being in the same boat regardless we are connected to the bodies or not. [ as for paddles we have the auditing technology.]

Some years back I realized that not much point giving sessions separately to any one because IF I KNOW OF SOMETHING, IF I FEEL SOMETHING even if it was NOT NECESSARILLY MINE BUT I KNEW ABOUT IT THEREFORE TO THAT EXTANT THAT INCIDENT –feeling understanding –EXPERIENCE WAS exclusively MINE and session was needed to confront the incident.[ I believe here is my responsibility for self-kicked in.]

Matter have location, we Entities-Infinites we don’t have location therefore We as Entities we share sessions, we share cognitions and by knowing that we share, we equally take responsibility- confront our own and same time we all take responsibility for our own case, and  knowing this I can’t hardly blame others for how I feel what I think-believe in.

We as Entities we don’t have same realities, look around you and you know that is the fact…therefore any Entity who are in these sessions have their own reality=version of that incident accordingly how they see-believe and also have their own version of cognition at the end of the session.

This means I don’t have reality on other Entities Universe.. I only know mine and I never known any other.. LOL. that is my having –ness, my Realm- Universe.

Why I write this? Because in well-known blog  written whatever  happens to us is caused by the Entities this includes good things also.

As I see it not only bad happenings can be blamed on others, in this case the Entities… But blame can be put on others causing good things to: blame is blame no matter how we perceive this concept.

When blaming that is assigning power, ability, assigning responsibility: They have it and I don’t, in other words blaming others for existing conditions we are in: regardless what that is.

And in that blog again the writer is saying that Entities helping us, empowering us..

OK… but again the auditor should have sessions why the help is needed: what are the reasons personal power and abilities are missing, how I made self so helpless and weak, and how come other are better than I, more powerful and reasons should be looked for why in the first place I am affected  etc… etc..  there are thousands and thousands of reason there are on our track why we are as we are. And NOT ONE ENTITY CAUSED THE CONDITION WE ARE IN.

Blame is present when the person is still sitting in the Human Cluster= human beliefs,  BUT that is not how it works in the Spiritual Realm: We are responsible: totally responsible for the conditions we are in.

There is no other way.

Example: no one can feel your toothache … same goes for everything else.

Can others influence us with their intention?

LOL… that one only could be judged –assessed come to conclusion of if we would have two experiences and compare these two experiences what would have happen IF we believe that our experience was NOT INTENDED-influenced or yes I did that because I was under influence from others!

Blaming others gotten us into where we are at.

No matter what we experience, that experience is our and it can’t be shared.






I spend lot of time with my older sister who has severe Dementia and I been confronting this very interesting intriguing phenomenon and so far have had many major realizations.. but tonight’s session brought- ended with  fantastic cognition which has tied all previous understanding into a nice neat package. I believe I reached the BASIC on this topic. F/T!

The main reason aged-old people forgets things- no longer remember things BECAUSE WE POSE TO EMPTY OUR MIND before we depart – move off—set out for a new adventure!!!

Just think… even meditation teaches the same…. ‘’in order to attain spiritual enlightenment one must empty self of all earlier beliefs-realities’’

But for the so called forgetfulness the good Doctors have given a names:  Dementia or Alzheimer’s because they believe that not remembering—losing all connections to surroundings is on ‘’illness-sickness’’ because for many Entities who’s body gotten old  have the same or similar symptoms.. But of course the Entities know that the body soon will stop working and they are just getting ready, doing house cleaning=== getting rid of the left over: the bits and pieces of the past life cycle. LOL.. DOING THE CLEAN GET AWAY !!!!!

The good doctors haven’t the clue what spirituality means, that we are Infinite and they don’t know we leave the body after it stops functioning therefore to them any departure while we are with the body from the ‘’normal’ ’human behavior whatever that is: is sickness – illness of the body or the mind.



Why people fear the darkness!

Only light -brightness as in daylight or artificially illuminated space can contain pictures- images – WHICH THE EYES ARE ABLE TO SEE..TAKE A PHOTOGRAPH OF and therefore the Entity=person feels the connections to these images and feel the stimulation from these images which of course gives the impression being alive.

The Entity at all times have the need for light, to be in the light and when darkness comes the Entity in fact becomes inactive: all stimulation stops because the darkness don’t contain pictures not the kind which could be seen with the eyes!!!

No pictures, no experiencing.

Of course the artificially created light-brightness now changes the experiences… can prolong the experiences and with that the lengthen stimulation.

THE ENTITY IS ANCHORED BY THE LIGHT-BRIGHNESS [ which is nothing more than vibrating mass of energy] and HELD IN SPACE and is STUCK TO THE IMAGES BUT IN THE DARK-space THE ENTITY  NO LONGER MOORED, HAVE FIXED POSITION, no pictures and therefore ‘’fear’’ sets in, fear of no longer being-having those images and without them there is no life: of course that is a fat lie.


EXAMPLE: on inmate when in the prison can be given the most severe punishments which is Solitary Confinement in a absolutely dark cell being alone: while in the cell the Entity ‘’can’t see pictures’’ can’t communicate, consequently loses all connections to the BANK=life which would be the stimulations- vibrations of those pictures, he than loses the concept of time-space- being fixed-moored into location which of course only exist because we are seeing-looking with the ‘’eyes’’.

So the prison-person misses ‘’life’’ LOL.. LOL… no longer has ‘’life’’ which never happened it in the first place.

That is the major punishment for a human is to be eliminated, no longer belonging to the group, not acknowledged that: yes you are alive and being here!

The only reason that prisoner lost his life-pictures because he believed he had it.

When the prisoner come out of the darkness- he has to re-orient himself= re anchor self into location-society=group same ways as we do after each waking: we are going over what has to be done that period of time =daylight till the dark period the night takes away the pictures again.

The fact is darkness don’t contain the same pictures kind of pictures as light can have away they never have. When darkness is confronted explored in sessions than the Entity find totally different realities about what ‘’darkness’’ is.

Darkness is not empty and it is not dark not one bit… this space is our true element where we are really home, where we are definitely free.

So fearing the darkness simply means dreading the loss of matter, really fearing being without MEST, without having identity- valances.

PS: OF COURSE THE ENTITY STILL HAVE ALL THEIR BELIEFS-CONSIDERATIONS, the darkness cant take that away.. but minus pictures…

PS: there is a post in this blog in which the explanation for the ”darkness”.



I have just seen a most interesting incident which occurred just before  the Dinosaurs and other living critters were fried.

From tooth ache I moved into this incident where the Dinosaur had toothache but turned out to be something totally different: the Dinosaurs pain was caused by  being hit with a lightning bolt and the searing pain went through his jaws.

What I have seen is that suddenly the terrain become  dark, this darkness was deep inky blue and  this darkness was on electric storm:  abruptly immense lightning bolts filled the air but these huge bolts were flying horizontally close the  surface of the Earth and the electric bolts  were like  humongous living whips sizzling- lashing out hitting and burning up what they touched,  the air glowed iridescent blue when the storm moved off there wasn’t  living thing left on the surface of the Planet… some charred –scorched smoldering  patches of dirt here and there and the higher points of the terrain continued to discharge some of the  collected voltage and this power bolt went wild in the air till they found a target a higher surface of the  planet –hill top or boulder and they hit these targets whit such a force that boulders gotten pulverized , and hills tops sheared off and mountain side were reshaped.

I still see this as it was just now… you see I have just experienced the extinction of the Dinosaurs.

HELLO….or good by?

I just would like you let you know I won’t be writing much in the future.

If you are new to this blog and would like to read my adventures there are over 300 cognition related entries which touches ‘’almost’’ every topic. Well, not really because if I would have written about everything I have seen—have become aware than that would fill many-many volumes and that would have taken me years to write and same amount of time to read.[ time don’t exist]

LRH has talked –written about ‘’altered reality’’:

When the altered believes-realities are as-ised which includes understanding what is ‘’spirituality’’, and life-living it in every stage + death: death is part of life, death can’t happen –occur without the beliefs of having ‘’life’’= being born and of course in this package include the assumptions [ the human beliefs] what is the so called ‘’afterlife’’ or even what space is.

All these beliefs which were learned-read about-being told and the ”thoughts” them self any one has exist because they are altered…

What I have found through the gained realizations =cognitions is so very different from what I have assumed will be when reaching the so called ”other-side-different level-Native State- Spiritual Realm from where I started out in 73 … LOL.. Not disappointing, not at all but astounded in a very good way.

If there are questions you believe I can give on answer to please free to email or send your communication in  the form of comment.

Please keep it in mind what I know now do not make me better or important personage, not at all,  but JUST very-very DIFFERENT in HOW I SEE-PERCEIVE THE UNIVERSE FROM WHAT I HAVE KNOWN BEFORE and this gained knowledge  is not altered but it is the truth=consist of compounded cognitions.

The considerations what is Importance, better etc.. these are beliefs they exist because they are altered and agreed upon beliefs , therefore these concepts no longer apply-exist where I am at.

My so called work, or exploration of the Universe is not over, far from it.

To those of you who are into ‘’exteriorization’’, would like to go out of the body, have news for you… you never been inside the body! 🙂

Believing in something is the trap is self.


Best to you all. Elizabeth.


Being inside, being outside or being some other place.

Because we are not a body therefore we are not energy-  bulk, we are not a form – object that means we don’t have a location, as a result we can’t go anywhere –we can’t exteriorize –we can’t be inside of something or outside of some body-or on object: being  here over or being over there.

When we talk about moving the object in this case ‘’meet body’’ and we say I am going to Vancouver that in fact is only the body which is placed into a car and then relocated by this different form of body which is the car and the meet body is moved to Vancouver and the Entity say’’’ I am here, I have arrived’’.

For the meet body being inside the car do not means that the Entity, the Infinite is inside the car: only has the belief.

We don’t have location only physique- structures have location.. but the body-machine has ‘’eyes’’-instruments which can see [ I already written more than one post what ‘’eyes’’ are and do.] and as the car moves with the meet body inside as it- changes location, the eyes take continual pictures which we as Infinites add the believes –considerations ‘’ I am looking I am seeing the terrain’’, yes: the eyes see, but if you as on Entity has attention not on the terrain in fact you hardly see it, let say your attention is already on  the person you are going to meet, than as on entity you are already experiencing that persons space and hardly notice what the eyes see.

Since you were already with that person you have hardly noticed the terrain and experienced the trip itself when you arrived you would think or say “ the time flew by so fast I hardly noticed anything’’ RIGHT, because you were experiencing different location.

I am losing the point what I have seen in the realization.

WE WANT TO GO EXTERIOR… but because we can’t change location than the person who wants to go exterior and let’s say want to look inside the Oval Office or somebodies mind than the belief is- have to transport self, we have to travel even as Spiritual beings in order to be in different location.

And also the beliefs is that we will ‘’see’’ when we get there the same kind of pictures as the ‘’eyes’’ are taking.

This can’t happen, never will happen because it is impossible to happen.

When the Entity-person can see into distant, observe different location from where the body is, this means that Entity is still able to switch off the instrument-eyes and observe location without their use. That ability we all have.

The Entity haven’t changed location but only changes views and this happen all the time, every time we want to see-be in different places-locations but our trouble is that we wrong believe that  when being on that location without  the body than we should be able to see the same way,  have  same colorful picture of this local as if the body would be there and see the ‘same ways ‘’as eyes do’’ in order to be real…LOL… than we would believe yes, I am really in Buckingham  Palace and I really see what the Queen is having for tea.

It is all about belief, if it is believed that ‘’I am inside the body’’ than that viewpoint-belief is what you as on Infinite experience and believe in, whatever you think -feel what’’ inside’’ means to you: and that meaning-reality is totally personal and therefore different from any other entities and that is your truth.

When the person wants to ’’see’’ into distant location but can’t no matter how desperately wants that experience will not be able because that person has been stuck with understanding-belief that only the ‘’eyes can see’’ perceive and there is no other ways  any one can observe –see anything without this instrument-eyes: Won’t be able to observe anything besides what these eyes see: because that belief will not allow  to have any  other truth.

We have really –really heavy-duty belief in place that ‘’eyes –instrument’’ is that eyes sees and we as Entities can’t perceive without and even when we do something we are made to believe that picture we experience is just a trick of the mind, on illusion hallucination: not real, and it can’t be real.

So the illusion is in fact is what the ‘’eyes’’ see and what we observe; that flash of  flimsy image is the real thing.

As Entities- Infinites when we no longer hindered by our own believes when no longer being stuck in them than the Entity can perceive -observe total images of objects-places regardless of distance- locations and see them not as flat pictures but what they are : holographic images –structures –mock ups of vibrating flowing colorful energy.

But that is not so exciting observe in fact after a while the Entity loses interest looking at this dimensional images of flowing energy [ when seen one , than we seen them all]  but what is fantastic- greatly-interesting  and will remain so, is that when the Entity-Infinite observes this images in the same instant gets the reason why they were created: and that than is the true understanding… unaltered understanding will hit him as cognitions.

I will not say that cognition only counts if the Entity sees holographic images, No… cognitions how they come is different for each of us.

Here you read about my adventures how my universe was created and you have your very own private Universe.. Which was created the same as mine since there is only one form of energy, but you have different understanding how it was formed and why it is as is.  🙂





 I start this as usual: I have had immense amount of sessions on memory-forgetfulness why we have, it why we don’t and why we lose it with age and confronted every other related concepts I could dig up over the years.
I have put up posts on Dementia, Alzheimer’s  and I had great gains-understanding on this subject.
I must mention that ”losing” ones ”memory” as one ages do cause immense stress, upsets, and not remembering is a very inconvenient  thing to experience. By considerations is a bad thing, and people with bad recall=memory are looked down on, like they have some problems, and those who have good recall are believed that they are smarter, or brilliant, better off, because they are superior to others who’s recall is less then theirs! full of shit!
SO…. every person on this planet is doing their very best TO KEEP THE INFORMATION INTACT= NOT TO FORGET A THING BECAUSE IF THEY WOULD DO, LOL…LOL… THAT WOULD MEAN THEY ARE BECOMING “”SENILE”” LOL…LOL… and every person would think of them ””OH poor so and so she/he is losing it! “”and before they know it a room is reserved for them at the old age home!
Seldom anyone has photographic memory on this planet and there are thousands of reason for that… we all remember -can recall things but  there are holes in our recalls and for that there are immerses amount of reasons existing again.
So how we individually recall  is normal to each of us: happens accordingly what kind of stuff we are sitting in.
 If you would go back in this blog and dig up the posts on Dementia and Alzheimer’s   than you will understand why we get into that state at certain age group.
 The implant station don’t want to lose a costumer and in the first place it was forced on believer, on the user=costumer=you, that if you do not remember, or have forgotten something than you should be worrying and do everything in your power to get back to THAT IMPLANT  and we all do just that by making it sure that we keep the memories intact -alive.
Explanation: Your beliefs-thoughts-considerations-agreements what ever you know are implanted-forced on beliefs and it is a control mechanism.
While you are ”aware” of it and by believing it is a fact, the truth, than you cant become aware of different realities of the Universe.
SO YOU MUST REMEMBER AT ALL COST! .. and back you are in that good old BANK. !
comments, questions are welcome, in the blog or privately.. endlesstringofpearls@gmail.com

Magic… where is our ability?

I always say the same “” over the years I had countless sessions’’’’ and I mention a subject.

Today the subject is Magic… I truly had great gains over the years confronting more likely ‘’researching’’ what ‘’magic’’ is how we have done and most of all why we no longer applying this wonderful ability?

While going ‘’up’’ on the Bridge I have fantasised what will be like when I hit that magic level of OT7, shit… that is what I hit and with full force. LOL. But then I want laughing!

By the time I got back to Vancouver from ST Hill I was totally overwhelmed by ARCB’s … no money… no job… no place to live!

Plus I felt soooooo disappointed that I could not ‘’intend’’ to pull in a job-money etc..

My sister has taken me in and soon I found 2 waitressing jobs so money-tips rolled in.

But my disappointments did not vanish and that is when I taken out my wood e-meter and stated solo sessions and slowly I climbed out of the masses of ARCB’s-problems=disappointments galore.

What this has to do with Magic? LOL… A LOT! Because I truly believed that by the time I finish and reach OT7 I will be able to use ‘’magic’’ and my life will be easier!

So than I started to have sessions on this subject but of course other things too had to be handled and I only could as-is a thin-top layer because the understanding what magic is was deeply buried under myriad layer of altered realities which I believed ‘’’wrongly of course were the truth nothing but the truth’’— and let’s leave god out of this!

I never given up on this because I truly believed it can be done and I still do… so every time the occasions were right back to sessions I went with this subject and 25 years back while I lived in Edmonds Washington, I hit the jackpot … and I really knew seen what we could do when having this incredible ability!

But could I do it… of course not!

So more layers were confronted over the years and brilliant cogs-realities poured in but NIL..!!!!!

But of course there were disappointments and feeling loss- being a total failure had to be handled as they surfaced.

So far I never ever given up on any subject and of late I again had sessions and I realised-had cog. that gravity here on this planet is brutal and has a great deal to do with holding down our abilities, these brutal force which we need in order to live in steady –steady environment sort of sucks away our energy.

We constantly battle this gravity force… but of course we are not aware.

But still I knew there had to be more to magic-ability what I haven’t discovered.

And by now I had hundreds of realization which included: we were punished severely if we used magic: some places we were segregated, put into different groups, cut off from regular normal society members, because use of magic was evil, we were effected diseased by evil.. in this universe there were many places the punishment was total annihilation to our person for the smallest fraction use of or even thinking of magic… and please believe me there were devices which could detect different energy levels in each person and anything-anybody who did not have ‘’normal’’ vibration level was zipped to oblivion!

Again few days back I was sort of looking around this plant and wondered why here we don’t have this ability… we have thousands of entertainers ‘’’who do magic tricks’’’ people do believe that magic existing but why we can’t do magic, why our abilities are totally gone?

Bingo!!! Had the realization which is so simple LOL.. all cognitions are simple because they are the truth and truth is not altered reality.

HERE ON THIS PLANET WE ARE IN “”””TOTAL AGREEMANT”””” that we can’t do… we are not able no matter how hard we try… and the TOTAL AGREEMANT is the very item which won’t let magic –wishing –intending allowing that instants appearance= become visible for all to see-have.

The reason is that personal wishing-intending is not allowed for safety reasons and many other planets have the same laws enforced. Personal power is a no no in most established societies because that would disturb – change- alter the foundation the basic energy level of the planets! That is true…


Well, implants contain many safety devices and they are all there to keep the control.

By the way as I said we are operating in two different universe at the same time but of course that is on illusion and in one we are able to do anything, magic is the way of life and in the other universe we believe we cant and that is a total lie!

There aren’t any mysteries in this Universe which sooner or later becomes solved –explained—answered—deciphered in sessions…LOL… and to most cases the explanations-understanding are so simple that leaves one breathless –rolling from laughter.

Slap on the forehead and just blown away I am of the simplicity how these incredible so called mysteries to which science could not find explanations even if they believe they have one that explanation is totally wrong.

I am here talking about Machu Picchu, Stonehenge and the Great Pyramids.

What the ‘’eyes’’ see’’ and what is there in reality is two different thing and scientist who are ‘’looking’’ with ‘’eyes’’ will never find out how those immense boulders were piled up. LOL. LOL…

By the way the greatest creation, the most mind boggling invention was in this Universe: the eyes, how they work… without use of the ‘’eyes’’ how they work-project etc… we would never know and believed we live in solid universe.

The ”eye” seeing with them gives us the illusion of solidity and to these flat pictures we add the beliefs that what we see is real, solid, have weight, color, size, debt and  can be touched or tasted.. eaten  etc… in fact we project on that flat image our own beliefs and that makes it real.

We are simply brilliant because we can make something out of nothing!


The joke is on us.

as a comment,  as my reality on fear… his latest post but David occasionally don’ let my comments through… which is of course right, because after all it is his blog.

I have in this blog cognitions on fear written up as posts.

Hi David…. great post..

my personal experience about FEAR… well, I had many sessions while I was advancing on all levels while in the Church and I had great many wins on elimination of incidents which contained Fear but I could never totally erase that incredible sensation which I now call ”glue” because its holds the beliefs-realities; whatever they may be bunched -glued together for the Human Cluster.

As you know I had continued with the solo sessions after I left the church which was in 76 and till this day I still confront realities of which I have become aware being in this Universe.

About 18 years back I decided to take up on item to confronted what is VALU- IMPORTANT-VITAL and had hundreds of sessions over the next 6-7 months on items what I had considered held ‘’value’’ was for me in my life.

Of course the same time my lists also contained items which I believed had no value, were worthless totally ‘’useless’’ things.

I always had sessions on all items which contained both side: the full spectrum of the incidents, [and everything related] the reason for that because in my reality -belief the reason one exists because the opposite belief too is there: holding it in place.

Example: we can only know what happiness is if we know what being unhappiness feels like to us, means to us, therefore happiness too has to be confronted in session because happiness is held valuable therefore holds that person in that condition: and that is not what true spiritual=Infinite State means.

The sessions [18 years back] taken many months and each days sessions ended with fantastic… life changing cognitions.

Than one day I had a huge blowdown and F/T + realization of course on values and after that for 3 weeks I was just floating about feeling incredible but I occasionally had a nagging sensation which surfaced now and then that “” SOMETHING WAS MISSING FROM MY LIFE!””

I was stumped by this realization since I knew I never felt so fantastic before and what I felt, where I was, remained totally ‘’stable’’ permanent state.

So I pocked around because I really wanted to know -understand what was missing?

It did not take too long and the realization was so enormous that after I could hardly walk for days!

I had lost all sensation feelings, I could not feel the body, I could hear the sound of footsteps but I could not feel the sensations in the legs.



Fear only exist when we have ‘’values’’… we fear to lose, not to have because we believe it is important to our survival.

LOL… that concept, that belief strictly belong to human realities and of course … value-importance exist, can only exist when we believe associate self with matter: when we believe we are something, somebody.

Those sessions 18 back eliminated all the reasons I belied things were valuable and of course   among the many items I had confronted the ‘’body’’ itself the very reasons for believing was valuable for survival, why I have valued it so much PLUS major ‘’items’’ like ”life’’ with all its realities I believed in too was completely confronted.

By elimination of values –importance’s I have As-ised fear itself and that has placed me on different level… outside of the Human realities, I am no longer in the Cluster which is held together by fear of loss.

Without values-importance the so called ‘’life’’ here is nothing more than momentary experience.

After the elimination fear I totally understood what it means is Infinite: without identity and being-ness.



Earth is a prison planet.

The main – primary reason intending ‘’intention’’ making a wish-postulating not coming through, don’t appear, happen out of blue don’t work on this Planet here because this planet is a prison- penitentiary, penal colony Planet.

LRH has mentioned this in his writings and I have come across about dozen incidents in sessions in which I knew the same purpose for this planet to be here.

Earth is a perfect prison where the prisoners own beliefs are their chains shackles=restrains which keep them within the boundaries.

Our power to intend does not work here because if they would than not likely any of the prisoners—inmates would stay for long.

Here to achieve personal or collectively postulated dreams has to be done manually  this means the ‘’intention’’ can only become real if it is shaped- formed – fashioned out of so called solid forms.

I JUST HAD This COGNITION REGARDING THE INEFFECTIVENESS of my desiring-wanting- postulating- my wishes… dreams… to become realities.

I have done much work, tremendous amount of sessions on these topics yet I could not make anything happen here on this Planet by postulating-intention, but in sessions what I have seen, experienced in other places-planets on the track wishing –intentions worked… in fact in many cases that has become a problem that our intentions become reality right off… to much-to soon.

NOW I NEED TO FIND THE REASONS THE CAUSES WHY OUR INTENTIONS_POSTULATES DONT WORK…. of course I have found by now thousands  of them related to other incidents but now I will need to dig  for failed intentions-postulates related to prisons, being captured, held against will.

I know till it happens, till they; intentions-wishes, dreams become real than something is blocking them, which are of course my very own beliefs-desires.

Nothing wrong with the auditing technology: it works… but the problem is that infinite is a unmeasurable amount of time and we lived, had equal amount of lives-experiences.


As I have advanced over the years, from where I viewed the incidents have changed: the location of ”self”  has changed: the beginning years in session I always felt have seen that I was inside the body.

In later years sessions the incidents which I recalled some were inside the body and in other incidents I have seen the body from outside: from the back, from above and of course I seen-been in many different locations and these locations were all over this planet and many other places in the Universe.

Later years, as in the past few years I rarely found incidents in which I was ‘’ inside the body’’ but something new I started to see which I could not understand what it was.

I would see in the incident a mass of energy moving about but usually I felt I was being stuck in some mass-incident and I could not get out, but I knew I did not have the body any more… I knew I was a ‘’spirit’’ a ghost.

SO what was happening than?

In these incidents I felt I was struggling to get out but that did not make sense to me since I knew I no longer had the body, than why I felt I was being stuck and struggling?

I was in session just now and I was running so called ‘’death’’ incident when I already left the body and after that I have seen the funeral of the event, the flowers etc..than I as a Spirit revisited places where I lived before, and even set on the chair I have many occasions and wanted to communicate with people but no one could pick up my presence.

Then I went earlier incident where I was just a ghostly figure but what I have seen is the ball of energy being stuck-struggling and could not get out of that place and this is where I got major blowdown-cognition because I realised I was associating self with that ball of energy-mass:


this small energy mass is the spirit without the body …what I believe, but not in reality!

WOW… I have seen this mass of energy in many incidents but I could never understand what or where this ball of energy come from and what has represented!

In these incidents I no longer observe-see the body but I still see =observe from distance this energy which belongs to me — I identify with and use it as on anchor!!

So this is that mass of energy scientists talk about that its weight about 2 ounces, they have come to this conclusion when weighted the person’s body before and immediately after ‘’death’’= when the body stopped working.



and on everything else imaginable!

On ‘’postulating— visualization” and on every belief I could dig up related to winning-losing-having or not having.

I have clocked 3000 session hours in 20 months on the subject and of course over the years having sessions on other subjects have cleared away many obstacles already so, I can’t say exactly just how many session hours it has taken me to finally ‘’understand’’ the reason when someone wins that huge jackpot, or never can win, or being lucky at everything no matter what adventure is undertaken.

And I totally understand why… what is the reason when some gambles away a fortune in order to win that MAGICAL Pot but never will.

Or a person wins at everything and nothing can stop his luck.. it never runs out.

I have known for a long time that ‘’postulating’’ do not work.. LRH was totally wrong on this topic… LOL… he was not alone on that; being wrong LOL..

No, postulating doesn’t work and it never will on this Planet because there is no FREEWILL here!

Knowing I never will win that pot of gold and that is totally fine with me because I have as-ised all the charge I had on the subjects and on any related items and winning-losing has the same value: none.

So with this I don’t say that it would not be fun winning that pot but what my gains are in value =understanding from realizations which is beyond of human comprehension.[please that is not a putdown because you are not a human but only have realities but those realities-beliefs still don’t make any Infinite a human!]

BUT on the long run in my future those ‘’realizations’’ will make the difference. Because $$$$ that I could not take with me after moving out of this unit-body but the cognitions are mine for infinite!

I don’t know if I will write up the reason why we can’t postulate things into solid form, I might…

PS:: those of you who haven’t read the earlier posts on this subject, the reason I started the sessions on winning because I have seen the video-movie titled ”SECRET” and I thought than… ”sure why not, lets do the postulating and putting up the pictures what I want on the walls and do visualize+ live that believe what I want is already here-live it.

PS; IN MY BELIEF _REALITY IS ON “FREEWILL” : when we have a choice and that choice is not made because stimulation… and that unfortunately don’t happen this part of the Universe where we live to be stimulated.

and we choose accordingly what stimulates us the most.. heaviest.. livens us up..

If you have questions: ask away!






There were times on the Track when we could have anything we could think of in the same instant as we thought of and that was not exciting at all. hehehe… that was not stimulating, was not fun, no challenge in that, no one contested us, no one had to move a muscle to get whatever.

But new games were invented which brought challenges= stimulations=excitement=interest… hehehe.

But those games to become boring after a while and more complicated problems, new complex challenges were invented into the old game to make things more difficult-fun but most of all stimulating!

Example: the video games so many people play today, these games become more and more challenging over the years, more realistic-life like—difficult to win.


But we have ‘’overdone it’’ and now on average person has to work very hard to scrape together what is needed to make ends meet.

Some can’t even do that much… they are on welfare, handout, beg on street corners, they become criminal and they cheat-lie-kill in order to have what once could be theirs by making a simple wish- intend.

It is impossible to estimate how well each individual have blocked off their ability to make something to happen, to make their desire a reality by simple wishing-intending.


Just think: when wished for something instead that wish a nasty incident happened, some catastrophic disaster hit you  out of the blue… HELL and when that has happened over and over.. you would have noticed it and given up the ‘’wishing’’ and stayed with what you were given-allowed to have. IN OTHER WORDS: you were cured permanently!

So…. you were controlled!


Levitating objects- bodies-items.


The principal important grounding- anchor point for the Spirit- Soul-Infinite is the body… that body becomes the permanent  item-home-location-spot –platform and from this location we operate and because we believe-have faith in and we total conviction we are a body therefore we know from experience and agreed upon beliefs that only the body: use of body parts=hands can move things.

I have had hundreds of sessions on the above topic and no I still cant levitate things but I believe we can but only after all beliefs-agreements which we made over the ions are eliminated.

If we know something, like we know what levitation is that means we have seen it… we have done it otherwise we would not know about that subject.


To those I would love to say a few choice words: you only cheated yourself.


unless the person decides to drop out earlier.

This cognition is about ”loss” which is huge part of believing that something is no longer.

As the body ages: The ‘’dreams’’ to accomplish to achieve they all vanish.

Old age, being in that State gives the person incredible feeling of LOSS.

Aging that time span is one continual loss…. the person is forced to give up things.. give away.. not being able to continue.. not allowed to have..things don’t work: the body breaks down.

The person reaching for something but it is no longer there..

The person’s life empties slowly and everything as once it was vanishes and the person now fills replace that void with memories of the past and illnesses.. because illnesses are ‘’having’’ something ”strong sensations” to hang onto to experience  and that something regardless how bad is still better than not having anything, plus in that State there is a growing fear- dread of the yet to come: death-oblivion.

I have a sister in the nursing home and I been watching her ”ageing” -having dementia, she is only 2 years older than me but we live in a totally different Universe.. she is on old Human and I am on Infinite.



I have written few post in the past 19 months about sessions where I was confronting the subjects : winning the lotto.

Well just to give on idea just how much time was spent is session on this item in all these months and EVERY DAY is about 3000 hours possibly more since some sessions were 8-10 hour long.

By now for me confronting any question and locating the item takes seconds or I get instantaneous answers. This means I have covered incredible amount of territory: beliefs-agreements, hidden –supressed items, ARCB’s O/W’s not only mine but others beings too which LRH calls BT’s and Clusters but I call them Ghosts –Infinites.

When I started out with the ‘’’belief’’’ that yes I can win by pure postulating and I was very positive… had total confidence that I will win that Jackpot.

Of course I bought lotto ticket every weeks and I looked forward the day when the draw was. Nothing… nothing…so I have taken my ‘’ disappointments’’ into sessions and there I was daily confronting: my losses, needs wants, must haves etc..

The COGNITIONS POURED IN and by getting them I realised that by having ‘’these’’ reason in place why I haven’t won, kept me not winning and I could not have possibly win that Jackpot because these ‘’counter –postulates’’ totally over-ridden my feeble –weak present time want-desire to win.

For the fact : old mock-ups – postulates on the Track are far superior in power what a person here can mock- up-postulate= believe that it can happen: we are powerless here in comparison what we had before.

Weeks, months rolled by and still haven’t won that POT at the end of the Rainbow… LOL.. back to sessions daily I went.

But in fact I was winning daily and I knew it because those daily realizations brought immense understanding that winning and losing is in fact not only part of our daily life we lead but it is in fact our way life!

As the sessions continued some days much as 10 hours well I was flying and each week because the draw did not have the numbers of my ticket I crashed and was hehehe wounded! More fuel for having sessions.

I never give up, I won’t because I know from experience that by eliminating what need to be eliminated we can have different outcome: EXAMPLE: I have posted the outcome, what I have done after the sever car collision I had and brain-damage, how I pulled out of that one.

So I continued buying those tickets and I still haven’t won that pot but by now I had sessions in which every facet of life’s activity was examined, take apart and over these months and years having sessions the same ‘’realizations’’ were confirmed become totally driven home that what we believe is what we have and no more.

‘’’’ And our surroundings, our way of life represent is in fact the mirror image of our belief.’’’’

BUT HERE IS THE CATCH: what we believe is not a solid – rock-hard— or touchable by hands or can be bitten into, or put on the scale and weighted.

Our believes are intangible but some of them can be translated into a more solid form: EXAMPLE: on artist has a vision and he paints that image onto the canvas or sculpts into a form or some kind of clothing .. cake.. flower bed etc..

But winning the jackpot well, how can anyone sculpt that into any shape or form?

Cant… we just can visualize what we would do with the money but those images remain just images even if we know the house existing is on the market for sale and the car has been made etc.. etc.. no matter what we want is in a solid shape and we have the ticket HEHEHE… well… let me tell you, by now I have run out of considerations how to make that winning a solid reality.

So far I can’t… but I have won that jackpot in the theta universe, I have everything what I wanted but not in solid form.

This I have difficulty to explain here…. when someone is been solo auditing longs as I have and had many-many millions of realizations on every side of life-living-death-having – not having –positive and negative sides to all beliefs the awareness do expands –increases with every realizations and yet, I so far haven’t found the answer how I could pull in the winning pot.

But that do not mean I have failed… NO… on the contrary because by having immense amount of sessions on winning and losing, being ‘’defeated’’ or the desires—the needs—the wants to have, the must and must not— the reasons for wanting the ‘’dreams’’ to come through, or want changes, and believing that something would be better than what I have now, well, all those too had been confronted.

THE FACT… THE REALITY IS… IF I WOULD HAVE PULLED IN THAT JACKPOT ONLY THE LOCATION WOULD CHANGE… ONLY THE SOLID ITEMS WOULD BEDIFFERENT AROUND ME, THE VIEW WOULD BE DIFFERENT from the windows [ at the present location I do have view of the magnificent forest and the tree branches touch the window] BUT ‘’SELF’’ HERE WOULD STILL FEEL THE SAME WAY no matter where the body would reside: HAPPY, CONTENTED and I still would be continuing eating the same heathy foods… do the daily walking etc..

So far confronting these items= ‘’winning—losing’’ and on its expanded form of beliefs-realities I have had on incredible adventure into understanding the competitions- rivalries-duals – matches, games between persons me, machines and me and me challenging self and others PLUSS the Universe it self!  Fact.. it is the fact.:)

These challenges the reasons for the ‘’why’’ we do or ‘’why’’ we don’t and frankly I know if I would not have done this monumental amount of confrontation on these subjects alone I know I would never be free of MEST: winning and losing are the negative and positive elements=beliefs which are holding the MEST INTAC: in place, in permanent position for each individual.

I also found BLOCKS OF IMMENSE VARIATY why we don’t want to win.

You see if our personal “wants -desires- wishes’’’’ would come though, would happen easily that would cause immense chaos –disorder in any system we are in and not only that but ‘’time- continuum’’ would no longer exist.. so years: meaning of years would too be gone too and human race would not be human race any more… LOL…

The instant winning-having does exist and that ability we haven’t lost, we have it as on spiritual being and we can have anything anytime in our own universe.

But we wanted here when having body too that same instant mock-up what we have in our own ‘’ mind’ ’in solid form to appear front of the body but that is blocked off by our own intentions which were formed way back.

BY THE WAY… This Universe is Infinite and exploring-confronting few thousands of beliefs-considerations is not the END of one topic… far from it… only means I only found – become aware that understanding.

Winning at anything gives personal satisfaction that we can accomplish what we set out to do… for me winning means gaining back abilities and with that proving for self that auditing works and by now I really-really know that it works! 🙂

It has been a HELL OF A RIDE so far… I wish you the same.

QUESTIONS? endlesstringofpearls@gmail.com





Is being inside the body.[ having that belief].

Please some of you will say-think that you have been happy many times in your life.

OK, that is a fact .. but every happy moment we have is not because being- feeling the body but experiencing some other things: which is happening outside of the body.

Examples: finally getting something you always wanted, seeing something funny or beautiful which when experienced lifted you out of the body, smelling baking cookies= the fragrance which has given the happy feeling is not the body but the spices.

Why do you think that every person all through their life is at all times continually –relentlessly, ceaselessly pursuing searching for something which will give ‘’pleasure” ?

Why do you think every person is dreaming going exterior to the body, why millions are taking drugs to feel better, why millions get drunk daily to feel better or have coffee or tea: just to feel better?

Why millions meditate or pray or have massage or partake in thousands of other activities LOL: go and gamble.. bet on hundred different things, shop till drop. Billions have sex daily just to feel better, or beat someone till near death, just to feel better!

Simply because having a body is sheer HELL a most wretched-despicable condition the Infinite happen to get stuck in.