Spiritual Journey of self-discovery in the Magical universe: When I arrived, realised I never left:only my the views transformed the Universe

So far I have seen –come to understand why it is so difficult is to transform from one ‘’state’’ into another as is : being poor=live in conditions which offers simple things: food, roof over the head, clothing and of course some extras which is really not needed but pleasurable to have: minimal.

Into a state=level of living wealth, riches.

Being poor.. poverty have different levels which depends of course what we consider poor—poverty level means to us.

Example: I have a lovely apartment, nicely furnished, have some beautiful art work, expansive jewelry, fine china, sterling cutlery etc yet if I look at ‘’having-ness’’ what is I consider when it comes to possessions here on this Planet than I am being “poor’’ on poverty level.

Because to me riches –wealth means here is ‘’’’unlimited havingness’’’’, whatever is desired and at that level the body is operating under.

But as an Entity I am the richest Wheaties Entity in this whole Universe and I don’t doubt this for one second and my wealth and power is in the form of knowledge.

Riches or experiencing poverty these concepts are nothing more than HAVING-ness and that is the fact!!! They are on equal level.

And I am here writing about ‘’having’’-ness.

So all my posts here about Lotto, winning or losing, why we do or we can’t is simply depends on ‘’having’’-ness.

Below is my most recent realization from today’s session:

‘’’Given up riches because life was easier without.. being rich bought complications… continual entanglements dangers= unaccepted dangers were always present.. but hidden behind things I owned. What I owned had their own lifecycles and by owning things I had to deal with what they presented: what they were in connection with!So giving up was the answer to eliminate constant troubles because simple life offered fewer complications.’’’’

Hehehe… of course this is a big fat lie a bloody lie I have swallowed -went into agreement with,  accepted some clever suppressive persons reality in order to belong:  which I really call well thought out propaganda because when we move into =accepted poverty with that we have assigned power-control and we placed ourselves into level of being total affect.

But on the other hand being rich- have wealth is on the same level but viewing that level from where we don’t own much looks so desirable nerveless it is still Bank.

Having billions or millions owning is not the problem, and not the problem not owning being poor either, but the problem is what we believe these conditions means to us, and that is what causes our ARCB’s problems.. ETC..

Things are just things; they are totally meaningless until we consider that they have value, importance: meanings.

Far as I know, and truly believe that Knowledge is the only valuable thing exist in this Universe and I am talking of knowledge which is from ‘’cognitions’’ because cognitions are unaltered and regardless how many any person had so far these cognitions are powerful and they become the foundation to future activities in this universe.

If those persons who have had sessions-auditing but they have discontinued IF these persons would have realized, truly understood how valuable the realizations are which come from sessions, these persons would never ever given up having them, including LRH – and those thousands of auditors out there and plus many many who have done the Solo Course to become a solo auditor!

But would be doing the same as I have and few others I know who have put aside the so called life-living in order free self from altered realities than there would be Thousands of Blogs same as mine where solo auditors would be sharing their adventures!

I know why it is so tough to understand what ‘’cognitions’’ are and what is their value –power.. because till persons are sitting in altered reality from that viewpoint no one can understand anything more outside of those deceptions.

I was told by those persons who search the Internet for Ex scientology sights… I was told that there is no other Blogs on the Internet like mine where the solo auditor in this case Elizabeth=me shares her adventures- cognitions from sessions ….how very sad! only one blog!

When I started out I could never imagine not even in my wildest where the adventure will take me, I would not understood it anyways even if would seen the whole Path I covered so far.

PS; how I see it, scientology haven’t failed, LRH  haven’t failed.. failure is when on individual gives up… don’t follow through  and they justify their own failure and go into blame , that they failed because!!!!!! hehehe no one can makes us fail  only self can do that.






When we started to believe, when we went into agreement that there is a superior being who created all and oversees all and most powerful: and  we too were created by this superior being: In that moment we have given up all our abilities, which means to create freely, our Free Will: no more postulating for self, no more intending and definitely that handy Magic Wand which was sooooo useful to conjure up whatever we desired had to be burned!

In other words: we nailed down our own coffin while being inside it hehehe that act was our last Free Will!


From than on downhill we went all the way till we hit bottom : believing that Death is real LOL.. the Entity cant sink lower on the TS. than that !!!!

meanwhile we set in this helpless position  we created implants, Valances etc to be somebody in order to become able, to be creative and powerful again but we never could regain our  Free Will, because the true power was assigned already and we never could regain  what we have given away because we have not realized by being servant, believing in that created image  we have also given away responsibility BUT WE GAINED BLAME!!!!! hehehe  and what a poor exchange we made….

🙂 God almighty????? 🙂 🙂 🙂  Please lets be serious here! hehehe, thank god for auditing which works !!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 and we all can confront our mistakes and regain our abilities PLUS the understanding the reasons why we have done what we done in the first place.


Sexual act to create bodies and to have pleasure?

That was not the reason why bodies were created and have become so popular But the main reason for their creation was and still is to keep and hold the Entity in steady –stable condition — to have location!

While the body is in good working order, functioning provides frequency –vibration which is the Glue itself holding the Entity to that body=its vibration.

Below is part of todays session which started out as ‘’looking at walking’’ moving… I had so far many sessions for the same reasons and each session’s realization brings further understanding why the hell we are so attached to such a poorly designed robot: which constantly needs our attention, almost 24 hours a day! What a piece of junk!

moving slowly… measured movements ….coordinated group movements…as in walking… running… being kept at relatively same spacing.

become ”normal” accepted and anything out of the accepted range is called extraordinary as with athletes who have accomplished through long hard practice to move the body at faster space than regular.

it would cause confusion if we would be moving the body at different speed!!!

only machinery like autos, bikes, airplanes are allowed -built to me move bodies at faster speed… that is acceptable by all. it is normal way to do things.!WE REFUSE TO MOVE FASTER   we keep in place with others.. WOW   old folks move slow therefore all old folk pose to move behave -walk the same way!

Difficult almost impossible to break out of the established system,

we are holding onto ”weight” masses of energy which we have established for self as anchors long ways back to stabilize self into present location.. this means we still identify  with these masses of energy.. of course we have deceived self and these lies have become our stable universe and these same lies are our stops…our boundaries.. our prison walls.IT HAS BECOME VERY IMPORTANT TO REMAIN IN SAME LOCATION ”at all times” in the vicinity of the body, since bodies are the most valuable thing we ever had and have… hehehe… 🙂 we just cant live without the bloody things! 🙂

PS: I have a post in this blog about sex… creation of bodies which were used as food. LOL.. for the same reasons, same way as ”people here eat meat”’ cows-pigs sheep etc, in other times meat bodies [human] were processed  and transported  to be consumed as delicacy!  sexual feelings were given as to stimulate the desire to capsulate  — to reproduce! Here you go you studs… who believe that sex is on the top of the TS. and the cows do everything in their power to attract that stud! sexy clothing, make-up, perfume hairdo,  and into the male valance the sex -act the thought of it enters every few second!





true story.


The myth has it and it has been told, has been repeated many times by those Entities who are still part of the ever flowing starlight indigo universe.

There was an evil Witch whose jealous nature was the foundation of misery- wretchedness that darkness was needed in order to balance out the creative forces in the Universe: and this Witch was evil as evil can be, wicked to the core and of course powerful beyond understanding….

Hate, jealousy, greed, destruction distrust was her manner, her ways and what she hated most of all when creations of other beings were better and more beautiful than hers: jealous rage ruled her universe and all she wanted to do to destroy everything in the universe which was created by others.

She wanted to be the best and wanted to be the most important: the paramount creator: So she decided to do something incredibly spectacular, something which never had been seen before in the whole Universe.

She believed if she can do something spectacular with that she will demonstrate that she is the supreme powerful being and having her creation admired by everyone she will be the victor and with that will win everybody over to her side than everyone will be her slave forever: with this thoughts she created a new side to her personality: must control.

So time flowed and over the eons the Witch ranted and raged in her frustration because she have designed countless traps, deceptions to catch every body’s attention but not one of those trickeries were beautiful enough to hold those admirers- followers spellbound fascinated forever and that is she really wanted more than anything, that was her sole aim.

As she beheld on as those astounding creations appeared all-around her and not one of them were hers and in her fury the Witch filled with jealous hate burning hot, she snatched two stars out of the Heavens and crushed them with her mighty hands [which were invisible of course] and hurled those kaleidoscopic shimmering lights: the sparkles sailed across the velvety indigo space, up in great arch and fell toward into the infinite distance.

The universe become still, hushed as all looked at this great wonder as the shimmering light bridged glowing in myriad of colors now arched over the Universe from one end to the other.

The Rainbow was born.

The legend has it that one end of the Rainbow ended an Earth and the other end still is in the Spiritual Universe. All the unsuspecting Entities who were looking for new adventures have stepped on and walked fallowing the brilliant trails the magical stardust of the Great Rainbow Bridge are all captured by the evil Witch when they reach Earth and with that they all have become under her spell and her slave forever.

By now over the eons there are many innocent beings walked across the Rainbow Bridge, including Fairy folk, the Gnomes: all the Souls who are now live in in different variety of forms here on Earth many

The evil spell “is” as the legend say: when one crosses over and steps off the Rainbow and touches the ground of the Earth with that one forgets the past, forgets it forever because the evil Witch gives a body for that Soul and that shape-valance becomes the prison forever and a day for that being.

There is gold at the end of the Rainbow an Earth, but looking for gold also the part of the evil Witches spell, since the gold is the “importance and values” and having believing in those considerations holds that person in prison on Earth.

But also whispered by the Ones who still live among the stars, that one day the spell will be broken by the one who dared to step back on that Rainbow Bridge and walk back into the Spiritual Universe and by doing that “WALK” of enlightenment gained by confrontation the evil Witches spell will be broken forever.

The stars glimmer brightly they beckon and they light that Rainbow Bridge all the way home…………….. to walk back into the Infinite is the greatest adventure surpasses all previous adventures any Entity ever had and I am here waiting for you, urging you on to step on the bridge and walk!
There are many views what the Universe is about, what is the Bank and the above is a one of the many views I have about the Universe.

PS: the wicked witch is alive and well, she lives in Coquitlam, has a body but she is still evil have the great need to control, to be the only one. Our track has been intertwined and I had to have lots of sessions in order to free self from all the spell I was under.

Hehehe of course there isn’t any blame for reasons who has done what and why  because what we find at the end is nothing more than the understanding that we are playing  a game of illusions.



Without the aid of hands.

My very first recall while being in sessions when I moved on object from distance while having a body and this incident was 2600 years back and that body was my first human body  on this planet.

I moved on object by intention and the object was distant from the body, few hundred feet away. The fun part was I did not know where the item went, and at the moment I can’t recall either.

To me this is an important gain in understanding because now I have my own evidence that it can be done.

if you care to read more details go to comment.


I have seen the top of the head which was open and where the brain usually is in a human body had on most intricate element which could be called in our language as: computer.

This ‘’control center’’ contained many different systems which were in rows and rows and each system was covered separately, had shinny alloy housing which was steel blue in color.

I had a very clear picture of this control system.

Also understood its working and experienced when it was shut off in order to disconnect the robot – to stop it functioning and I also experienced when this system was short-circuited ‘’fried’’ with strong electricity which has fried all connection and the robot become dead.

So was the belief for the Entity!!!= WAS ELIMINATED FROM THE GAME!

When the System was ‘’fried’’’ become dead— no longer supplied information the Entity=Me believed that I have lost all knowledge which is in fact not true but what I have known before was covered over, suppressed by that strong mass of electric-shock.

What happens when the Entity is looking for information which was housed in that computer now can’t recall it because now blocked off with that electric-shock.

I believe when a human have massive brain damage, that happens when something triggers off that incident on the Track when the Robots computer was short-circuited: the robot no longer functioned –was dead.

Information on which the robot was operating on was just implanted info. and nothing more, the robot had no Free Will, same goes for humans.

Nothing new ever happens on this planet, everything originates from some other place long ways back.

I been working on to have better ‘’recall’’ and have gained grounds but I know there is much to be learned but each realization brings new understanding.

By the way, I almost forgotten to mention when one is operating mostly with information which is from the Robotic-mind that person is inclined to be computer— machinery know-how and these persons are not much into art.

By having a MIND… Thinking with brain has eliminated most of our abilities, like: free will. Period.

I recalled in this session that ‘’singing’’ that act was not included when I was controlled by that system.

Before I started sessions, way back in early 70’s my so called ‘’singing voice’’ can be best described as none existent, a crow has better voice than I had then BUT I had many sessions on sounds, voices, communications  and by now I do have beautiful singing voice,  the most remarkable that the voice is on wide range: deep trembling sounds to high notes. Of course the understanding also is that we do not sing but we become the sound itself.

The tech. works on every level, on any subject!



Do not mean what everybody believes in: I am levitating because the body is off the ground, unattached and floating freely.

IT SIMPLY MEAN: we can levitate on object!

We are Entities who are not made of something and because of this condition=no condition we are intangible and this intangibility which makes us Infinite and as infinite we do not have a location.

So when we are talking of levitation we are talking of on ability which can move objects at will in this case the body of some kind we are so heavily attached self to.

The Entity who can levitate the body he believes that body is self than in fact should be able to levitate- move- floats any other objects.

When on the Track the Entity-person only could levitate the body by than the Entity lost too most abilities:

I believe the ‘’idea’’ the belief that we can levitate comes from the Track when the bodies we attached self to were not pulled down and held to a solid ground by gravity but still could freely float.

I have recalled more than one incident where that is what I experienced: but than in those recalls the bodies did not have legs either!  Why have legs when we don’t really need them?

Also levitation of the body, the belief it can be done is certainly heavily suppressed –blocked off because the fear that we might drift away and can’t get back to our usual game-life.

In previous sessions I have located hundreds of incidents in which we made it certain that we as a body were solidly anchored this given us the belief that we are permanent!

I also posted about levitation more than one write-up in the blog.

My problem is that by now I know all these beliefs are not real, just illusions but I have sessions because I want to understand why I assumed in the first place what I known and seen is real: The real part is the lie.

PS: ownership to items- possessions is ferociously protected, there are laws established for that purpose! Laws say ‘’don’t touch-move that item because if you do you will be severely punished!’’

These Laws  dribbled down from the Track to stop LEVITATION- moving objects because when we still had that ability we were not concerned  who’s property we moved and by doing so we have interrupted games people played  by stealing levitating things away from them, or other from us hehehe… and we did not like that at all.

Those who continued the practice had to do it on the sly same as now the thief work covertly.

So to regain the ability to levitate objects again, we would need to eliminate thousands of negative and their counterpart which holds the negative in place: the positive considerations –belief on the same subjects and related items. Huge undertaking which would bring fantastic results in the form of understanding.

PS: PS:::: recall as now: there were times when we still could levitate objects but we no longer done it consciously… and objects around us would be floating.

The problem was that we believed we were hunted and ghost were doing that to us HEHEHE now this have scared us very badly if we lived in the society where ghost were made to be something scary, monsters, evil etc.

Also when we done the levitation unconsciously… not knowing we were the cause, this could drive us into so called madness, believing  something was wrong with us, that we were possessed  by evil, the demon himself.

There are many very heavy negative beliefs why we stopped this ability.









Hi there!!! Truly great to hear from you!

I had sessions on ‘’brain’’ what its function is and I also have confronted the so called ‘’mind’’ so these two item as I have known them are no longer have effects on anything I do or know.

We operate outside of the body at all times, but I do not say that the connection to the body don’t affects us, the body long as it works supplies with constant energy-frequencies=stimulation.

Yes, These items: emptiness- void- blankness- vacuum can be confronted but keep it in mind their affected every experience we ever had and continue to have.

They are present till all experiences are as-ised because their presence is the very blocks which stops the Entity from having total recall.

Example: Dementia, Alzheimer’s, can’t recall, don’t remember, forgotten etc..happens because the person is in that incident; of nothingness=Standing wave.

We have used these Items thousands of different ways

By giving examples will help to understand how the use of these concepts affects us.

Imagine a curtain and this curtain front of you are made of matter which you can only see as blankness— void—vacuum or empty-ness… this curtain has no pattern, don’t contain pictures -concepts, has no meaning yet same as any other thing it has meanings and it is energy.

This Curtain is a STANDING WAVE!!! Therefore when the Entity-Person see it or gotten stuck to it, held back by it can’t see, experience anything other than ‘’emptiness’’.

Example: when you are told to visualize on apple, in that moment you can see that apple.

Same goes for emptiness –void– blank-ness. When these items because they are that were implanted and not just implanted but we used them as something to hide behind as we would use a curtain, wall, or divider.

When the emptiness was used to protect self, we projected nothingness-void and the enemy or lover: whoever they were we did not wanted them find us could only see what was indented to be seen by us: nothingness, hehehe the curtain –screen, wall was placed between us!

Good magic trick: now you see me and now you don’t, because I don’t want you too!

Radar is used these days to scramble images…

Other occasions where we were captured by on enemy our memories-experiences were erased because that knowledge we had or used were the fret to them and what was erased were replaced with that blank empty energy mass which was looked like void did not have considerations, valances etc.


BUT everything was still there as before! Which we did not realized that time or the enemy was aware of this Fact either!!

I also did something fun in session: I went hunting for items, secrets which were hidden away by being covered up by ‘’nothingness’’ hehehe.. I was totally blown away what I have found-recovered and once upon the time I believed had value….

Brian my dear, now what do happen when the Entity has nothing? Believes that? That places that Entity out to the pasture, into space because has been eliminated from the game!!!!!

But by having sessions on these items which are the same as any other item, by confrontation the realizations come that usually these concepts are nothing more than dust in your eyes, and when this dust, curtain= its meaning why they were used in the first place is erased or understood the person than can continue with sessions and the most important fact that after eraser the awareness is expanded, and not just a little bit!. My so called recall has increased thousands fold by now!

When Gautama hit the so called enlightenment stage when he no longer could advance, he simply hit this curtain and with that he was stopped.

When the person as Gautama is stuck in these kind of items than these person are keyed out of the regular bank and of course their realities-understandings become very different since the rules-regulations of the old no longer affects these persons.

But this State is not the end of the line, but Dead End because the limitlessness of the universe and no one can say: I have attained whatever LOL… I know it all…. This is it; I am on the top of the hip!

At that moment the Entity locked self into a Standing wave, in other words: Up the creek and no paddles.

I call these items major traps because when the Entity is front of this thing is simply stopped and can only remain in that nothingness as Gautama did, or go back to earlier activities.

Also these items are used even these days to block out pain, example drugs can re-stimulate this curtain and the person will not feel that pain.

Also when something dramatic happens to the person and the person zips into Unconscious-ness: means moved into this protective place where nothing can reach him, can cause upsets –pain of etc.. and this person feel safe there till that fret goes away.

This is the reason talking to the person who is in ‘’unconscious state’’ helps because the entity – slowly gets keyed back into consciousness-awareness, reconnects into the familiar bank-life he had before.

Since the first time I had sessions on these Items as I said my so called ‘’memory’’ of things improved, but here is something which you might find interesting: we used the same concepts over the eons thousands and thousands of different ways and because for this reason we just can’t erase all these items in one session but they have to be confronted as they come up.

Most fascinating subject, I have given here more examples since there are lots of new visitors to the blog and not every one has read all my post as you have. 🙂

Are you thinking having sessions on these items?




Manual for Departing- Leaving the Body in other words going exterior!

We were not stupid when we invented the idea of having ‘’bodies’’ objects in order to have stable firm steady permanent location to operate from. With that we invented time-duration, identity etc..

But we also knew these objects- bodies had to have steady supply frequencies because we knew the very vibration of the objects were the cause —-the very glue which kept us attached to that object-body and soon as the vibration has stopped we become free, lose, unattached and that could happen in the most inconvenient moment and cause problems because we lost our place in the game of life: we were out! Free-floating.

SO, we had to invent objects- bodies which were set up so its steady balanced frequencies were maintained and to achieve this had to be fueled: therefore the present time’ eating – putting food into the machines to keep it alive-to have steady supply of frequency.

But of course this method only worked for soft bodies as we have now and before these we had many other variety bodies which were used under different conditions.

Example; the meat body could not survive in 1000 degree cold of heat or in other place where bugs ruled hehehe, there the body was covered with thick layer of secretion to protect from suckers, or other place  the body held so much electricity that anything come close to it got automatically zapped! Self-protection in order to survive.

I been in place where wrinkles were in fashion and more wrinkles the body had that indicated how capable the person was, how beautiful was, and gained importance, here the folds of the heavy doubled over wrinkled skin hanged to the grounds, on the arms the skin hanged like  the sleeves on the Chinese robes of the Emperor. We have grown skin as we grow height here!

Come to think of it old walruses have folded skins, but there on that planet by the time we reached ‘’old age’’ the body looked cone shaped, the so called head on the top of the cone disappeared among the many folds which spread on the ground.

And we wonder why we get wrinkled, look like old crumpled bags? LOL.. Old age – growing old meant that the body’s frequency slowly lessened and the body turned into stone like matter at the end when the vibration stopped, the Entity become free again: this happens here also.

The Entity could not intend to move that heavy mass without the so called life giving energy which is nothing more the electrical energy –power, same as here now.

I had that body and let me tell you it was not easy to confront the so called death because in the first place I haven’t had the clue what was happening: slowly turning into stone! That happened because I have identified myself with matter, I believed I was that thing  till I parted from it, than I knew I was Infinite! Only ignorance, not understanding what is happening can cause the belief that we die. [ same goes for when the person believes that auditing caused the almost death, those who believe such are full of shit because that can’t happen.]

So working –improving the working of the bodies continued and every planet did their own, same as Microsoft, apple, etc computer companies working on their invention: building a better Mouse Trap from which they can’t free self from.

The bodies had to have imbedded control systems which were run automatically so the Entity did not have to think about and by having automatically running system the Entity was free doing whatever.

On the track when the Entity bought gotten a new model usually had a good understanding how that machine worked because those times Manual come with the body, same as now with your computer, or washers and dryers.

So the owners=we have known what to accept and how long the machine we use will work before its stops and then we can move on: be free from those conditions, the very reasons we wanted to be in for that period.

All these information is lost-forgotten by now but the bodies still have automatic system and that system shuts off when it meant to in the first place.

You can ask what is the ‘’first place’’ means?

The strongest, the most powerful incident the Entity-person has on the Track regarding machinery and when this machine was made to stop and of course the Entity believed that time h/s was that machine and because that machine no longer worked the Entity have died.

of course the Manuals contained the information how to stop the machines-body because we knew than if we don’t know how to than we are trapped  in that matter and we were not that stupid those times to let things like that to happen!

So we set the ‘’timer’’, how long we wanted to stay accordingly our game strategy and it was a good system because we could have stable space, time, and we were in control, we could leave and be fee, move on after the game was over.

These days for the meat body a powerful constriction of the muscle called heart do the same trick or head on collision, overdose on any product will do the same.

I have confronted by now countless thousands of different so called ‘’death’’ incidents by doing so I freed self from bodies… More I seen, confronted more certain positive I become: death, to die is impossible; no matter how we want to we can’t kill self-off as Entities.

By the way there is no such on activity is as ‘’dropping dead’’ or ‘’died’’, that is total misconception because if that would not be on false impression and we really could die than NO ONE COULD EVER RECALL THAT THEY LIVED before –HAD A BODY IN DIFFERENT TIME- LOCATIONs: and those recollections are the very proof that death don’t exist and we just move on.

PS: we are always exterior and that is the reason going exterior is impossible: those who are working on this: going exterior thing, in fact just want their ability regained where they can put their attention freely on different locations-subjects and gain understanding what is happening on that location.  That is not going exterior but simply shifting awareness from subject to subject.

To be able to do that the Entity needs to regain freedom from the Bank and have control.

Those who believe and spread the rumors that they have almost died or others have died because of auditing…. well… drama sells, but if that would be true I should not be here and writing should I be? 🙂 but should be dead as a door nail!

No one have recalled more incidents-items than I on this planet and some of them were truly killers hehehe… so i know from experiences what I am writing here and yes these incidents were killer, but always killers of matter! not the Entity, never the Entity.


why Identities’ are so important and why we have identified with everything while being here in this huge mass of energy which we call Universe.

We have identified with  every kind of thing imaginable: being light, body, boulder, cloud, dragon, emperors love to identify being a dragon, on the empresses are represented by beautiful birds, name it we have been something and when we are without  being something than that state is called Ghostly State, Spiritual State and that means the Entity- Spirit- Theta is not associated with  beingness- being a mass-body of some kind.

We use things: being a body etc.. to be anchored by and this is the reason ”bodies” are surrounded  by spirits at all times,  these spirits LRH called BT’s and the groups are Clusters: these spirits are same as we are just in their state they don’t have identity like birth certificate!

Without being anchored to something we feel last, we are aimlessly floating in the Universe but when we attach self to something even if it is only a cloud, or a bird, fish in the sea, or become that lightning  bold for few second, with that we have gained identity, we are something, somebody!

Of course this condition only exists because we believe things have value, and beingness is important, a great havingness!

When those things which we believe have value, importance, the must have, must do, must own, has to become some one all those things are confronted and their meanings vanish- erased therefore  they no longer control the Entity, but the Entity regains the control.

To attach self, to be anchored to anything is simply creating experience- existence  location, span  of time plus gaining loads of ARCB’s, problems for self because the things we attach self after all are just matter hehehe and  from the moment on the Entity is looking for solutions to get out of that problems which only happened because the Entity identified with matter. And always the Entity looks for solution in the same manner: get more what caused the problem, ARCB’s in the first place!

The main reason to have sessions is to rehabilitate the Entity to Native State and in this state the Entity no longer have the need to attach self to things, to have identity and regain the understanding how one can operate in the Universe as on Infinite.




I cannot say how many sessions I have had over the years for the very reason to improve the memory, to recall, to remember easier: I looked for the reasons what and who made forgot what I have known before and not only this life but all others I have had. [ I believed I had!]

I found hundreds of incidents which were specifically designed to erase the memory of everything I have known. Those ‘’erasers- or nullifiers of incidents not only have erased those experiences what they were intended to do, but kept on working, remained operational till these days.

Of course from those sessions I have had immense gains and these gains enhanced ability to recall past incidents but my so called memory still not what I believe can be.

To me just don’t make sense not to remember the languages I have spoken in my earlier life, which was not to long back were my English was fluent, so was my German, and beside those I spoke 3 other languages and here I am struggling with two! To me this don’t make sense at all because in that life when I was in my 70’s and was learning new language!

But I get to the point: on countless occasion when I want to recall something I draw ‘’blank-nothing’’ which can be described as on ‘’empty canvas’’ or wall” so for that reason I have confronted ‘’nothingness, blackness, invisibility, emptiness, vacuum’’ as in space etc and everything related to those items-incidents and found out there are no such things but I already written about those items, the post are in the blog

Here I am tonight, I watched an old German movie with English subtitle and I understood  some of the words, and I felt frustrated why I can’t understand more or all what they were saying because I drawn blank again when I wanted to recall- remember the German language I known and  the cognition come: EVERY TIME I DRAW BLANK WHEN I WANT TO REMEMBER SOMETHIMNG BECAUSE THE “”BLANK-ness, THE NOTHINGNESS IS THE “ITEM’’ WHICH IS REPLACING WHAT I WANT TO RECALL!!!!!

It works like this, Example:

Want to remember something but instead the information, the picture or sounds only blank -ness appears.

This blank ness is on implant and of course it was installed, forced condition but was also used to eliminate what we no longer wanted to be bothered with.

This ‘’blank-ness’’ become a double edged sword but by now just goes on, works automatically.

Some of you might ask a question: if we are just viewing everything from on exterior point as Entities watching life as a rolling movie than why we need to remember, recall what we viewed before?

The answer is simple: to understand why we think, believe we can or can’t do somethings. Example: I believed I spoke German now I believe I can’t!

Now That I have found that mysterious blank-ness, can I instantly speak German, Italian or French? NOOOOOO, but I am determined to find more answers.!!!!!

By the way: blankness is also called ‘’unconsciousness’’ and by performing lobotomy, or other kind of shock treatments even use of drugs causes ‘’blank-ness’’ in the wanting to recall. Even so called energy of some food products causes blankness because those masses of energy have stronger vibrations- frequencies than the item we want to recall and they simply overwhelm-suppress -block out.

By the way over the years I had been sent Email from some person inquiring if I am interested in dating, getting married, or to become partner.

Since I just received again on proposition: I thank those who believe I would make on ideal partner, on addition to their life, I am honored but no thank you: I left those activities behind in 1996 and I haven’t ‘’dated’’ or wanted to date since then.

I am not a partner material, I been there did all that more than once but the reason for those activities have been erased.

Thank You again:) but I do have total- boundless affinity and that affinity is ever-present and all included therefore I don’t need a body in the vicinity  or to know some identities in order to feel love.



I want to share my happiness with you all.

This post is part of which I posted 3 years back and the reason I pulled it back because something happened today which I will write at the end of this post.

In one of my recall: way back in 74 while being audited in Dianetics that session I never forgotten, because that recall was so profound and perfect in every way.

Even now recalling and reliving that incident filled my senses with wonder and beauty and magic, till this day that memory held me captive, with its magical quality.

Perhaps so, because it was the first time I have experienced as recall having mock-up body in ethereal state: not being solid in form and I believe that was my first encounter in session were the reality level which I was at that time, was so very different.

And in that session the door opened up into my real universe which till than was forgotten: the spiritual universe which contained no solid forms.

I was floated  close to the ground in  open market place,  it was a bright beautifully sunny day and I knew than my body mock-up was not solid as the one I use now and in order to have a noticeable appearance I had a hooded once piece garment covering the semitransparent body which too was just a mock-up.

The market was held in the large clearing in the tropical forest, the lush circle of  greenery surrounded  this dell and  intermingling of fragrances  of the damp earth, myriads of flowers and the sun ripen fruits were pure delight and pleasure to the senses.

On the ground in long rows were piled high, with fruits, vegetables in every shape and color, they looked like jewels in the sun.

As I walked about, in my reality I glided, floated  above and over the ground and  I touched  experienced every fruit’s energy on my search , while doing that I have  gorged all the senses but I was still looking for a singular element.

By the way I did not have to touch any of these fruits; hands were not needed because  I  simply experienced each individually as I put my attention an them.

Suddenly my attention focused on one fruit and all others were forgotten: The melon like fruit I have spotted was pale golden in color and both ends had a touch of lime green, had glassy smooth surface and on oval shape and It was virtually translucent and from the center emanated pink radiance of bright energy.

Picked up the fruit had it levitate of course and cradled the magnificent creation in of my so called transparent  hands and  total happiness washed over me as I experienced  and have become one with the fruit’s energy, its vibration was the perfect match of my own.

I bent my head over the fruit and I deeply inhaled its fragrance, I have become one with the fruit its energy and with that experience my bodies’ energy balance was returned.

With that action I have accomplished the act of eating!  That how I have eaten when solid food was not required yet, when solid food is put into solid body that act pushed us down on the tone scale!

How could I ever forget a recall like that?

Here is what has happened today. But first thing first: about 6 weeks back I totally changed what I eat, I have given up wheat…. If you care to go listen to a video which I found on Netflix ‘’What’s with Wheat” shocking information, my hairs stood up!

I also given up tea and coffee but the last few days I madly craved coffee but I resisted. The craving would not go way and I figured what the hell if I go and buy my usual Arabic grind and drinking one cup won’t kill me off. I was just about drooling as I trotted toward the store and headed to the coffee section.

I picked up the package I smelled the coffee and that was it.

I had the coffee, I experienced what I craved for, the solidity was not needed but only the energy. The desire, the craving have vanished.

Is this a big win????? To me this is huge because now I have a positive proof that we only experience vibrations- frequencies. But I did not needed this proof because I trust the knowledge I have gained through realizations  just fun to have!

Now I can ‘’drink’’ my coffee and still have it. Cheap cup!

Now only if I could do this and not feeding the body, but I don’t know where I am heading so that too can happen.

By the way I have noticed that I often use words which are totally out of content example instead mock –up I use muck-up LOL. The joke is on me so I hope you guys enjoy the mistakes I make, has entertainment value so has my grammar, you can say now: what grammar? Right you are!

As I said I am not the brightest star in the universe only in the Crab Nebula.. my home base.

When I have sudden realization coming out of the blue that realization can hit me like a ton of brick and I just sit here my mouth open stunned into gaga land and beside the new realization the thought I have ‘’I am such on idiot for not realizing this before and it is so simple!! Mind bogglingly simple and this thought never ever entered in my mind since been on the learning path.

BY now I have looked at postulate, intentions, willpower in every form of ideas, beliefs, how they work or why they don’t  but never ever entered in my ‘’mind’’ that PRAYERS are postulates-intentions which are put out into the Universe to someone else to cause to whom we have assigned power!

That is what they are, prayers when asking to let or not to let something happen with that prayer in place the Entity has assigned power to GOD and now begs – pleads – implores- appeals to that imaginary thing to make something happen which the SELF no longer can do! WOW..

The Entity really hit rock bottom degraded self so low and this is the outcome: the dreadful conditions self is in that made up another Entity call it god, and assigned power to this illusion IN HOPE THAT THIS ENTITY NOW CAN DO WHAT SELF NO LONGER ABLE TO DO!

I am now going to celebrating for eliminating one more item which has been part of occlusion =that idiotic thing I called once upon as Elizabeth

by having a delightful cup of tea with a touch of buckwheat honey.

The 3 day heatwave is over and the forest front of the windows look quiet- serene in the rain.

By the way hehehe I wonder how many prayers are being said each day on planet Earth and how many out of these billions are directed toward winning the lotto hehehe.. asking god for help and offering their first born for exchange?

We cant even imagine how many times we have prayed over the Eons for something to happen or  asked ”god” not to let  that something happen and all those prayers are still intact..  in control.

I don’t have to write here where those who pray are on the Tone S.  and I am not saying  we are better off, but those who so ”in with god”, believe that they are better off than we who do not believe in such  crap.  LOL… their belief add  to their burden at the present time.

We all have the ”god thing” in our realities [ not me, not any more]  and those who have it sooner or later have to erase that heavy load of shit and finally take responsibility for self and get out of blame and the begging mode.

I am definitely having fun!


Guide-direction on: How to go Exterior.

As I have explained in my earlier post ‘’ in space ‘’ the body being in the bath tub where the water temperature was warmer than the body and the body was free floating with this I eliminated the sensations I usually felt, and the weight too of course were gone. So I only felt warmth, the body was gone.

Blocking out all the light in total darkness, with that I have eliminated the automatic use of the ‘’eye’’ also seeing- looking at things and with that went the all considerations that I am someplace: the very belief I am on location.

Now, by eliminating all sensations including having weight and no I longer were on location that means I was not on Earth, Earth no longer existed, I did not have a body –shape, therefore the only place I could experience is Space- Universe!

This is experience I had is the evidence the very proof:  only our own believes makes things appear real and soon as we get rid of what we believe in than those conditions change instantly.

This is the reason why cognitions are so powerful.

When we ‘’see- look’’ with the ‘’eyes’’ this action holds the Entity to that picture-location and with that the Entity is accepting what the ‘’eyes see’’ is existing PLUS adds all the considerations has about that picture than add sensations-feelings and that makes that picture real. Sounds like cooking, adding ingredients: in this case the outcome is the belief we ‘’live-have a life!

But in fact what the Entity sees-looking at a Movie and the same times the Entity identifies- believes the movie is seen with the ‘’eyes’’ is real because all that added stuff  is a simple illusion: all of it and here is a BOMB: the reason intention, postulating don’t work because when viewing a movie we the observer –looker can’t change the outcome of that movie no matter how we would like to do!

We can postulate –pray, intend, use a magic wand, do spells, do sacrifices by burning carcasses on the barbeques, offer the first born to the gods, curse the Satan, whatever: but we can’t change the outcome of that movie we are watching. HEHEHE.

At so called ‘’death of the body’’ for the Entity that movie has ended and that is the reason Entity feels lost- misplaced no longer connected, cant communicate etc.. because the connection to the illusion-movie is no longer there, NOW THE ENTITY IS EXTERIOR, disconnected because no longer perceives with the ‘’eyes’’ and no pictures with that the thoughts to drop away consideration Entity had about those pictures : I see this or that, yes its true, has value, bad evil etc.  NO pictures… no bank with that the reason for their existence too vanished.

When all that is gone the Entity becomes free and definitely that is life and not death!

LET ME GIVE YOU ON EXAMPLE ABOUT PICTURES: when are given by someone a photograph of which they so highly think of, represents something really precious –valuable to them: happy moment etc… we all see a flat picture, images holding up glass of something, but we do not know anything, about that event we haven’t added our own beliefs to this picture so the picture don’t have much meaning.

I am really gotten off the original topic! But this is how things are.

SO back to subject ‘’movie’’ and how that working in connection why intention-postulates don’t work:


But the 6000 hours in session were not wasted, on the contrary: Wins –cognitions –understanding poured and since the ‘’true power is knowledge’’ with those extra thousands of cognitions I have gained become a much richer=powerful Entity.

I hardly ever mention Power but I should since I have had hundreds of sessions in order to discover its true nature.

We can only go exterior, get away from , having different by eliminations of the very illusions that we are in: we are something, feel this or that.

PS: please keep in mind when I have done the bath room thing I already have eliminated every beliefs I ever had about Earth and most of my beliefs what the body is with that I am no longer stuck in the belief that I am a body or I am here on Earth.

I do not have a body therefore I don’t have a location. 🙂



Great Session I was free floating in the Universe Here is the session: I am very interested knowing about darkness since so far I have had many sessions exploring what is, and I have found we have far greater amount of activities in the so called darkness than in light.

In fact as I experience it, in darkness one lives as truly a spiritual out in the universe without the body and all the trimming which goes with it, which is MEST. I have had sessions under all condition including getting drunk [purposely] I could hardly stand and I was close to passing out, 4 nights in the row in order to have a firsthand experience under the altered condition caused by alcohol and trust me that is the right time to audit out those effects. The fallowing days of course I had to confront different stimulation the hang over effects, you see I don’t drink at all and those sessions were the blast…. Huge wins. So you can see, I do anything to have a session.

Yesterday I got into the bath tub of hot water, but first closed off and barred out all light from the bath room. In pitch dark I was floating.

You see, while in the so called dark and the water temperature same as the body I lose all the senses about the body and I just go, leave all believes sensations behind  and I can see space, the stars, comets as they whizzing by so I started the session not just to see the show but to have more reality on why we keep away, and why we are limiting ourselves “living” in the light.[ oh, I know why, but one gains in each session different side to that reality come in form of cognitions] The cognitions rolled in  by hundreds but they too vanished by now.

What I have seen is what happens what are the activities in ‘’space’’.

First I “seen” the billions of stars and as I let go of everything while the body stays in the hot bath safely, I start to see the flashes of lights, rolling gas masses, I believe one was the Milky Way, [ not very big at all] I see funnels of energy as they speed and their speed pulls in other particles, comets whizzing by and one of them with huge flash  was exploding, some of the others just disappeared burned up from the friction.

I have seen whirling huge masses, colored energy of wide-ranging formation, and magnificence splendor in action.

One emerald green apparition was like: from a pinpoint of nothing fanned in cone shape a brilliant translucent green and as it died away the sparkles which must have been huge has turned deep ruby red and they were countless in numbers, have become asteroids and have disappeared in the depth of darkness.

Of course everything was in colors. There were continual movements, fast and all-out. I just can’t write down all of them, some stayed with me because of their striking coloring some because their unique shapes.

One was on incredible sight; it held me in awe: A gas formation of a cobra:  the formation of the neck extended vertically and the head was in horizontal position and from the two fangs poured out-down energy the color of hot lava and was forming puddle front of the cobra than this mass of hot energy was moving started to spin sluggishly, as I was looking at this phenomenon I was wondering what was  occurring, of course when one asks a question one gets on answer. I was witnessing the birth of the planet as it was forming out of different particles.

Also seeing the apparition of the cobra shape re-confirmed that knowledge that nothing new here on this planet every shape every item here has their origin some other place. As I was experiencing this vastness, where the activities are fast and the fury of the moving energy is immense, here on Earth where “time” is in existence, or just believed exists nothing really happens in one hour, but the water cools off, the skin gets wrinkly by soaking too long, but the joy of being free stayed with me!!!





Only light -brightness as in daylight or artificially illuminated space can contain pictures- images – WHICH THE EYES ARE ABLE TO SEE..TAKE A PHOTOGRAPH OF and therefore the Entity=person feels the connections to these images and feel the stimulation from these images which of course gives the impression being alive.

The Entity at all times have the need for light,[ made to believe in order to stay with MEST]  to be in the light and when darkness comes the Entity in fact becomes inactive: all stimulation stops because the darkness don’t contain pictures not the kind which could be seen with the eyes!!!

No pictures, no experiencing that is what any person is made to believe.

Of course the artificially created light-brightness now changes the experiences… can prolong the experiences and with that the lengthen stimulation.

THE ENTITY IS ANCHORED BY THE LIGHT-BRIGHNESS [which is nothing more than vibrating mass of energy] and HELD IN SPACE and is STUCK TO THE IMAGES BUT IN THE DARK-space THE ENTITY NO LONGER MOORED, HAVE FIXED POSITION, no pictures and therefore ‘’fear’’ sets in, fear of no longer being-having those images and without them there is no life: of course that is a fat lie.

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’FEAR ONLY EXISTS BECAUSE THE CONSIDERATION IS THAT SOMETHING IS VALUABLE: THEREFORE THE FEELING OF FEAR IS THAT VALUABLE MIGHT VANISH and that is the only reason Fear exists: Being kept alive!!!!!!’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’

EXAMPLE: on inmate when in the prison can be given the most severe punishments which is Solitary Confinement in a absolutely dark cell being alone: while in the cell the Entity ‘’can’t see pictures’’ can’t communicate, consequently loses all connections to the BANK=life which would be the stimulations- vibrations of those energy=pictures, he than loses the concept of time-space- being fixed-moored into location which of course only exist because we are seeing-looking with the ‘’eyes’’.

So the prison-person misses ‘’life’’ LOL.. LOL… no longer has ‘’life’’ which never happened it in the first place.

That is the major punishment for a human is to be eliminated, no longer belonging to the group, not acknowledged that: yes you are alive and being here!

BUT the only reason that prisoner lost his life-pictures because he believed he had it in the first place.

When the prisoner come out of the darkness- he has to re-orient himself= re anchor self into location-society=group same ways as we do after each waking: we are going over what has to be done this new day and we reconnect to where we are by recalling earlier pictures-incidents from day before and we continue in daylight till the dark period the night takes away the pictures-incidents again.

The fact is darkness don’t contain the same kind of pictures as light can contain because the pictures which are ”seen by the eyes” were made artificially, they are part of the implanted material. Implanted material can only exist in light because it is made of different shades of light.

When darkness is confronted explored in sessions than the Entity finds totally different realities about what ‘’darkness’’ is as I have.

Darkness is not empty and it is not dark not one bit… this space is our true element where we are really home, where we are definitely free.

So fearing the darkness simply means dreading the loss of matter, really fearing being without MEST, without having identity- valances.

PS: OF COURSE THE ENTITY STILL HAVE ALL THEIR BELIEFS-CONSIDERATIONS, the darkness can’t take that away but minus picture, forms shapes.


after all the Bank is made up from lies!

Interesting LIE –alteration of facts.

We believe, made to believe that we get old, we age, well the reason for that is of course to think that there is time… and with that we establish ‘’’’’ continuum ’’’’’ and we also add another lie that we are solid form! Plus we add location, than numbers in as in calendar years LOL…plus we have birth certificate and of course we have agreement with billions of others who believe in the same lie: that yes !!! there is such a thing as ageing, getting old!

Hehehe… but by now most of the ex -scientologist are over 60 and into their 80’s if the body did not crocked by now they are all old prunes.

My body is 77 and consequently looking a bit worn LOL.. but here is my point and this is a fact: when we look into the mirror we don’t really believe that image is us, that we are like that because we haven’t changed –feel different when we were so called ‘’young’’, when the body looked ‘’young’’.

I have to admit even than I did not felt comfortable with the image I have seen, and somehow I felt it was not me, I was not like that at all!

This awareness that the image what the eyes see in the mirror do not match with how we feel alone is the proof, the evidence that we are not that image, that body and proves we are Infinites!

Billions who feel this way when hit that ‘’old age’’ level cannot be wrong!

Well, I personally don’t age or feel age, or think-believe that I am  on old prune because I know I am Infinite, but so far I found this topic of old-aging a very interesting subject which is nothing more that big pile of undiluted shit, a huge lie.

We are not bodies, we never were, and never will be.

The sight wont let me copy the video but you can go to YouTube and  pull  it up on your computer GOLDEN RATIO  https://youtu.be/86JzfN3wW_c

  I started to listen to Golden Ratio again… this was my 4th go… the first time made me feel very happy, really keyed out and I as I listened I have understood the reason why this frequency is working. AND IT IS affective, VERY POWERFULL!

  Listening the 2nd time the affect was very little, the 3rd time was nothing, I did not notice changes of any kind and I was understatedly disappointed and the 4th time I stopped the video, I did not wanted to listen anymore because I haven’t understood how these frequencies work.

  That was few days back and last night I decided I will listen to it again and after listening [25 minutes] first time there was no change, and I put it back to the starting point after it finished running and this time I started to see lots pictures from different incidents from the Track and a WORD come to me  ” programed”’ that I was programmed and with this understanding I felt on immense blowdown, it was huge.

 I went into session and the ‘’program’’ I found self in turned out to be THE HEAVIEST PROGRAM I EVER BEEN IN WHICH IS THE HUMAN PROGRAM and LRH named this Program: BANK.

As the session went on I have seen –understood many different things which I haven’t seen before about this Program and the cognitions come rapidly.

 The session continued through the end the 3rd 25 minutes and restarted the 4rd time but I ended the session after 9 minutes into the audio with VGIs, great cognitions.

 I still have after this huge session the same understanding as I had before that here is no way out of this Program unless every thought-consideration=concepts this Program-Bank contains is confronted individually in the same order as it was received – experienced and this is the only way out.

This Program is so well constructed that every avenue which the person believes will lead out in fact takes the person right back into the Program-Bank and I call these avenues dead end roads =Traps.

The prof of this is the fact that those individuals and not only those who have been audited but regular persons recalled that they lived here had many other lives on this Planet, this means they were pulled back into the Bank and death of the body has not let the Entity out of the Programs grip.

 I believe this The Golden Ratio and in this case has nothing to do with numbers but it have pure sounds-vibrations on the lightest-highest level which do reprogram the human brainwaves which is set on the very low-heavy level frequency AND THIS LOW LEVEL IS THE LEVEL ON WHICH THE BANK=PROGRAM IS BASED ON, BEING HELD IN PLACE!!!!

The frequency is like glue hold the entity in place.

 The frequency of the brain which supplies the Entity with constant vibration and this is the sensation of being alive and this low vibrating mass of energy is what holds the Bank in place.

 The brains frequency is the major block which keeps the person in the Program.

 By listening to the Golden Ratios frequency, not only once or twice but on regular intervals bring changes into any persons life because the low heavy frequency of anyone’s personal space will slowly or fast [depends how solidly the person is being stuck in the low-heavy vibration ] will dissolve: or will be affected to some extent and with that the awareness will open up the negative stimuluses-impacts of the Bank-Program will loosen some of its grip and more positive outlook will come.

The Golden ratio’s frequency is a happy –happy frequency, full of life it is the OT level, it is the Life-force  on everything is based on and not on the human level and please believe me not one of you in reality is a Human, that term: being a human just describes the condition the Entity is gotten into and can’t get out.

This frequency can be seen but not with the ”Eyes”, it looks like crushed diamonds swirling in the light.

We are Entities, intangible and Infinite.


By the way the reason why after listening to the video brings noticeable change because the listeners level of awareness is moved –changed-affected by the different vibrations.

BUT THIS IS WHAT I BECOME AWARE OF and PLEASE DO UNDERSTAND THIS: by listening to the same sound from the Golden Ratio over and over do not bring the same keyed out sensation as it did the first time that do not mean the sounds haven’t been reaching- changing your own vibration level BUT IT MEANS THAT YOU HAVE already MOVED INTO THIS NEW LEVEL OF FREQUENCY!!!

But to remain on this level the person must continue, and the changes will be noticeable in your life.

I do not recommend any other form of Golden Ratio vides-sounds because I haven’t listened to others and please don’t listen to anything with subliminal messages because those videos not only contain the so called ‘’positive messages’’ what that person put onto those videos but listening to them you are implanted with that persons reality- personality in other words you get the whole package!!!!

And we already have plenty on our plate –we don’t need to increase our load.

PS: keep it in mind this Universe we operate in is nothing more than pure energy and our own space has its very own frequency and this frequency is like a the markings on the thumb, which is totally unique there isn’t one like it.

The bodies thump print can’t be altered but we can alter our own field of energy with that our awareness and our way of thinking by having sessions and would help when we listen to this frequency regularly. Will not bring overnight changes but will help a lot.

PS..PS..PS… By listening to these frequency can only cause KEYED OUT STATE and nothing more, only sessions-erasers can cause permanent state.!



Report on me listening to OM-ing and other related videos.

About week back the wind blown into my space some videos, someone sent them and at first I totally rejected these but soon as I realized I was ‘’rejecting’’ that meant I had a ‘’re-stimulation’’ objections because being in the church once upon the time and then it would have been a NO-NO!

So I started to listen in order to confront my own reasons for resisting and why not since I have so far looked at everything else I could dig up!

It seems these videos come to me because they needed to be understood by me how they work and why they work.

This was the first: https://youtu.be/zx0TLEs0wMs

Soon as the sounds started so have the mental images pictures in vivid full colors and dimensions WOW, the first few were showing body in holographic image and the repair to the body parts was done by holographic image of a hand. Very interesting to watch a holographic hand doing repair to a holographic image of the body, and it was done in on instant and so was my understanding what was happening.

I have written before that everything ever created was made first in holographic image, including planet Earth and these images which can’t be seen by the eyes are the blueprints and this of course makes lot of sense.

Can’t build something without a having a plan first example the Meridian lines on the body is part of the design but that was not the first creation, the basic but added later by us in different times-different part of the track and  because we kept every experience we ever had over the eons these myriad collected junk still in use! We are totally in the dark about the facts what we have done to ourselves by not able to let go.

By now the body contains great variety of body part collected from different places over the eons. Our bodies is like an old car which has been repaired many occasions and the old original parts were replaced by cheaper not so good parts which don’t work so well as the original.

Hehehe.. in other words our bodies are made from parts which were collected from junk yards of our own making.

Back to the videos.

As I listened and the pictures poured in from the Track and I started to have session and from then on I listened to more tapes and I realized these frequencies from the taped awoke different times on the track when these frequencies were used, were the incidents originated.

First I only listened the above kind which were made by musicians and contained no suggestions—words or pictures from the people who created these videos.


Then I went and to listen Dr Nipun Aggarwal’s videos which are very pleasant to listen to and the visual effects are nice but I realized there is a problem arising to listen to the chants Om’s of those videos which were made by humans… human sounds because these videos created by Aggarwal contain the track which IS HIDEN but nerveless still there of those Monks who are doing the chants and of course every word these videos by the good Doctor has meanings and these meanings too are originated not by the listener but again from the Monks past Trak.

So, by listening to videos made by chanting of Monks with that the listener ACCEPTS THE REALITIES, THE BELIEFS OF THESE MONKS and WITH THAT GIVES UP ‘’SELF” AND BECOMES THOSE MONKs..=Cluster of Entities!


The person accepts the Valances those Monk are in and that is heavy duty shit, because we have enough already on our own, never mind getting a new implant, we don’t need more!

I also realized that there is definitely a benefit to listen to these tapes but they are, the results they bring is not the answer to find ‘’spirituality’’ that never will happen but the listener is moved from the unwanted picture- which the person is experiencing to a different level: into a different frequencies which contain less bothersome emotions-aches-pains… disturbing thoughts etc.

If one believes we are experiencing only a moment than just think what OM-ing –meditation has to do with spirituality? Not a bloody thing, OM-ing, Meditation is just that a different way of life, Example: A person stand by the stove in a restaurant and cooks, a gardener gardens tends the plants, the manicurist do nails, hair etc.. I have sessions… SOOOOOO…..OM-ing is what that person do , how he passes the his time…. And that is not better than the gambles life or police mans life, just simply different. WHAT IS OR IS NOT BETTER IS PURELY A BELIEF AND NOTHING MORE!

Also noticed that the tape from Doctor, created by the sounds chanting from the Monks did not turn on mental image pictures and by noticing this I realized to listening to Chanting –OM-ing by humans the results were not for my benefit because by now I definitely don’t want or need a valance and definitely not from those Monks who walk in ignorance of what is the Universe about and how we created this universe for ourself!

On the other hand listening to the pure sounds made by instruments brought changes which were very noticeable… LOL… so much so that I got blown out.

My personal ‘’space’’ is very clean.. minus of heavy frequencies, in fact so clean and that is the reason I am aware of the smallest vibrations-experiences enters and by listening to these tapes well, blown-moved me out of my regular space where the activity of ‘’sleep’’ till existed [ not much]  suddenly I found myself without the slightest desire of ‘’sleep’’ altogether since ‘’sleep’’ that is needed, wanted and can’t live without is purely a human belief. The Videos frequencies replaced my own!

Here I was without warning on very different vibration level where activity of ‘‘sleep’’ did not existed and I haven’t had the slightest desire or need to go to bed and being wide awake at 3-4 am but when I gotten into this state immediately had to have sessions because I felt suddenly deeply depressed, felt panic because I could not go to sleep and had to handle my strongly imbedded beliefs that I need to sleep, I must sleep because if I can’t go back to sleep I will get ill, or even die!!

LOL… now that was a heavy re-stimulation because to me death- to die that concept no longer in affect-exists. The sessions brought good results and the depression vanished and I continued listening to more tapes without sleep. By now I sleep few hours and that is enough.

I also watched a short tape on chakras, the explanation for their function and I also watched a video on Kundalini and as I knew from understanding this information what these images do that I was right because I knew from the realizations I have had from sessions that we do not need those believes to function  because those frequencies strictly part of the bodies vibration.

I am not the body and let say the chakra which pose to control communication is closed  than the person has problem with communication, THAT IS TOTALLY WRONG ASSUMPTION because I as on Entity can communicate and my communication is not depending on the body how it work or don’t but on me as on Entity and I can really can communicate on any level!

And the Entity don’t need the heart chakra to be open to love and in fact the Entity don’t need chakras to associate self with abilities.

AS I SEE IT THESE SUGGESTION FROM VIDEOS actually are the MUST that we need to get those chakras aligned and the kundalini to move in the right direction etc.. is in fact PUSHING THE PERSON NOT INTO SPIRITUALITY BUT  BACK TO THE BODY,  TO BE THE BODY AGAIN. Traps within traps.

In these videos there are packed-contain nothing more than ‘’symbols’’ which are not better than laws-regulations on average person have in their daily life and have to follow, these symbols in these videos are not better, they are just different.

The OM-ing monks, persons who finally trough meditation removed them self from level which they believed is not theirs-don’t want it, cant have it etc.. as –‘’living a life of a human’’ well, they have moved into a different part of the implanted crap which suggests freedom, wellbeing and spiritual attainment.

All those beliefs ‘’’ freedom, wellbeing and spiritual attainment’’

are just well thought out traps which keeps the Entity within the power of the human implants.

The ‘’human implant in whole’’ contains every reality- beliefs on all levels which exist in the ‘’mind’’ in thought form. The ‘’mind’’ is the implant station itself which continually supplies the ‘’thoughts’’.

Please keep it in mind this is after all a prison planet, and if those who believe they can chant themselves to a spiritual level-freedom IF THAT WOULD BE THE CASE than those guys would not have to chant-meditate 30-40-50-60-70 years till the body stops working but their chanting would transport them out of this prison fast.

Ohhh.. You say: they are transported mentally!! Really? They are still with that body and still in this prison they are just having different experiences within the walls of the prison.

By the way there are many form of prisons and the ‘’body’’ is one of those forms.

I will listen to few more videos which are not done by monks but have pure musical frequencies because I want to know what will I experience, what kind of incidents will they bring in, which they will of course.

We don’t operate on these high level of vibration here on Earth, the reason for because the human vibration has contain low-heavy slow frequencies’ that is the must have in order to keep us here hehehe as prisoners.

Of course I will have sessions on these newly unearthed experiences knowing all I need is a session to get me out of this universe and by confronting the OM-Meditation I am one step closer.

In sessions all rules, laws, symbols fall away and by having allows the Entity to experience freedom!

Love this stuff!

PS: i know someone who has been practicing this eastern stuff for many years, by their considerations he has reached ”high level” but the problem is this person don’t have the clue where he is, what he is experiencing because the text which he studies don’t contain information more than that person who has written those books he is reading -have studied has experienced. That is not enough information for understanding what is outside of being a human.

He knows what past life means but in essence  don’t know what that experience is, and by now i am positive he has experienced many earlier life incidents therefore much confusion in his space and this person feels  his own words ”being fucked up” because knowledge, the meanings of those realizations which we get at the end of the sessions are missing for him.

He is truly confused and at the same time he is brilliant, and brilliantly massed up and  his behavior some occasion is on the borderline of madness till he finds his footing again-reconnects to old values-beliefs.

Some thinks scientology massed up people… far from it, by being on this planet that alone is enough.

I cannot possible recall just how many times I have changed the ‘’diet’’ what I have consumed over these 43 years.

All I can say has to be dozens of times because as I erased items in session I was no longer stimulated by those things which were connected to those items or were in those items and I no longer desired to have that taste or energy vibration. LOL and by now I have erase hell of a lot of reasons for living-eating and in general the need to experience!

Example, I used to love chocolate and now I never crave it or eat it of course, few occasion I bought it as a ‘’treat’’ but I simply did not like the taste any more. Same goes for meat of course, and I used to love fish but now these days that too is off the menu… or just rarely eaten.

I had many sessions on different foods: eggs, wheat, potato, sugar, etc..etc.. and in these sessions I learned what affects I had from those energies these food stuff contained and how these energy-vibrations have affected me as on Entity.

Every ‘’item’’ has its own vibration and when 2 items are combined and eaten that has again a different vibration.

Just imagine what masses of different vibration any Entity is hit-bombarded, experiencing when eaten a normal sandwich which contains: wheat, salt, sugar, oils of some kind, yeast, preservatives than again different oils in the mayonnaise, eggs, vinegar, more preservatives, than the ‘’meat’’.

The meat-salami =cold cuts=ham is loaded with antibiotics, preservatives, more sugar +++++ different chemicals and I have feeling I left out a few items.

My point is as I progressed I become more and more sensitive=become aware of  these kinds of vibrations and I had to confront them or simply I no longer desired to have those experiences. Even after confronting them I did not like them any more; the reasons vanished why I desired- wanted them in the first place!

I had to give up wheat and dairy products altogether, because they caused inflammations to the whole system,  the product are tasty poisons.

Fine Arabic coffee or tea made with good quality lose leafed tea which I use to love lost its flavor altogether. Now I drink sliced ginger in hot water sweetened with a bit of buckwheat honey and a touch of berry sugar, taste wonderful so is the morning porridge made from gluten free oath with milk made from almonds or cashews. Fruit –veggies I eat as main course and there are other alternatives to wheat I use to make muffins, pancakes, buckwheat pancakes are heavenly!

The ‘’food’’ experience, the regular ways to eat in my reality causes lots of heavy experiences since their frequencies are too heavy-slow and these low vibrations do pull in-similar frequencies which manifest them self in different form of illnesses.

I found in session the reasons why we eat food, they were introduced to change from one way to ‘’feel’’ into have different feel, be different and that still stands.

But by now ‘’eating’’ has taken a totally different level and this level cause overwhelm: so much so Example: falling asleep after eating a meal, have migraines eating pizza=cheese, passing out from too much sugar-alcohol etc.. etc… etc..

I do not say I am the heathiest and I don’t believe there is such a person on this planet who is ‘’healthy’’ that is impossible because the inherited scrambled DNA and its results each Entity experiences by being connected to the body and feeding of the bodies vibrations.

But this is my reality.

PS: being ill, feeling sick from some foods is NOT A NONCONFRONT as LRH said.. simply those vibrations causes that affect…. not everything which we experience and cant stand or like is because we cant confront or we can,   no…  the problem is WE HAVE CONFRONTED WITH THAT WE EXPERIENCED and that experience was bad! There are millions of additives in every form of realities-beliefs which were created when experienced to make the experiencer feel bad.. after all  who wants to make a prisoner to feel good? hehehe this is a prison planet.

Evil no matter how sugar coated is still remains evil.

By the way having more sessions =cognitions bring–cause different level in awareness, example: some years back coffee with sugar cream tasted heavenly, than as time passed i noticed the buttery taste so I left out the cream or meal.. than sugar was omitted i have replaced it with maple syrup than I become aware of the burnt taste to the beans and I wondered why I am having this experience? The fragrances was the only thing I still enjoyed but that did not give me reason to continue drinking that liquid. I almost forget to mention that I have noticed the burnt unpleasant taste in my mouth at waking, the coffee has affected- penetrated every cell of the body.





I just found a most remarkable reason for getting old.

By now I had hundreds of session related to aging –being old etc… and found hundreds of different incidents in different times when becoming old-looking wrinkled was on optimum achievement. This of course has puzzled me greatly, why anyone wants to look old?

The attain the aged long lived LOOK was very important and we forced our self [ body] to look aged-timeworn.

I went back to this subject over and over because I was really curious: ‘’why we wanted so frantically to look old?’’ [hehehe and in this society here on Earth the opposite what is wanted!] yet we =our body get old wrinkled like prune, and in fact slowly falls apart.

Today’s session yielded the answer which to me means the truth, the basic-basic reason we invented aging of the body and associated our-self with age=having time.

The cognition is: being longer in body brought steady stable stimulation, and these stimulations stabilized us, kept us in place given on illusion being permanent!!! Plus we were continually acknowledged by others: yes you are here, you are living and we all agree to this fact!

Hehehe until of course your death certificate is signed than you are out: no more!

You see, our problem was early on the track that we were not

‘’ grounded ’’ therefore our attention pulled us all over the Universe and because of not having stability we did not have continuum =established lifestyle.

By forcing the ‘’body’’ remain in place and by adding the illusions that is old and with that illusion in place we made ourselves believe we were stable permanent in other word=we lived, we existed, we were real!

Now that is the biggest most humongous lie we ever fabricated with that in place trapped plastered ourselves into the body and of course we do everything in our power to make that body live longer.

Just look around you and do some assessment-evaluation, no matter what you do is for the body, in order to keep the body.

No one really wants to be very young because youth that state is not stable, this means haven’t piled up enough heavy masses to hold them in place permanently, crib death happens often because the Entity have not been grounded and the Entities attention is pulled away by something more interesting than the ‘’mothers’’ energy level-vibration.


I have my daily sessions…. Please note ‘’sessions’’ based on whatever comes up, hits me=stimulates.

So this way always everything handled-confronted and I have to admit I could not imagine the days-time to pass here and not devote that ‘’time’’ being in sessions.

Few days back I stumbled on an incident which was on ‘’implant’’ and this was my first implant and the content of this thing made me introverted- reclusive solitary person and this has affected my existence as a ‘’Being’’ ever since and that is a very very long time-existence in this universe.

This implant was the foundation of my personality and by blowing- erasing this mass of energy has completely dislodged- freed me from that basic and since than I am still greatly disoriented.

So much so, that I have to stop and look at things and sort of search for the reason what I wanted to do, example: opening up the computer I look at it and for a few second I wonder what I am to do next, in the kitchen, I pick up the glass and wonder what is the reason for I have it in my hand. That questioning is about a second or so but it is there with everything I want to do.

Waking up in the morning and trying to connect to the location where  I am by collecting the meanings of the objects-furniture around me-and the body of course.

This morning was something else, the first thought I had: looking around: where am I ?

The interesting part is me standing front of the closed door and wondering what is happening and why it don’t open since it pose to and with the lights.. turning them off I am surprised that my ”intention” haven’t been working and I have to use the body-hand to turn the switch off!.

Soon as I had that realization I have known by the eraser of that basic implant which was the main mass has opened the door to on unknown universe LOL… is it ever, like a rung being pulled from underneath me, I even have on impression I wobble when I walk don’t feel the legs touching the ground.

I am disoriented, at loss but I am continuing with the sessions and will handle all the new things-sensations-considerations. 🙂

PS: I believe I moved into a state where everything was caused by intention… I just opened the door and getting the taste but the intention still not working… that means I still have lot of confronting to do:  and I will dig with full speed… hehehe I should have a steam shovel… 🙂




On understanding hit home about ‘’havingness’’ because if in my belief everything has equal value than having something that concept has equal value as ‘’not having’’ … this sounds a bit puzzling but it is not.

Let me explain how I see this… by not having something and this is just an example and nothing more: a race horse that means I don’t want to have that race horse and that is the reason I don’t have it, and BY NOT HAVING IT IS MY HAVINGNESS..

Another example: let’s say: by not having pimple on tip of the nose IS HAVINGNESS IT SELF.

The ‘’having’’ is not always owning something, being in possession of, but not having means we don’t want it, therefore we don’t own it, have it in our possession and that is the value we cherish: not having, by not having what ever that maybe is more to our survival than having that stuff.

LOL… what a cognitions this is: it nearly spin me in realizing ” by not having’’ is part of my having-ness.

So I be working a lot on why I  don’t want things, why I have made it so difficult for self  having-owing things and that it seems by not having is easy  way out: hehehe nothing to confront, no re-stimulation and that seems is my ”great havingness”.

I never claimed I am smart, brilliant yes, but on occasional dense as a bamboo forest. Good to know that being brilliant 🙂 and being ignorant has equal value 🙂 !




welcoming Entities into my space.

There are many new visitors and I haven’t the clue who they are but identity, valances has no importance and I welcome you into my universe. This blog is a dairy but if you care to comment you are welcome, if not that too is totally fine.

I have daily sessions and what I write is the realizations from these sessions.

I write what I see how I see self and my own universe, what I write here is not the truth for everyone, far from it, please keep it in mind that I am not teaching, definitely not a guru.. They are in my belief ‘’low-lives’’ bottom on the T.S. full of shit, self-importance and they are pushing their own illusions on others as the truth! Which is nothing more than implanted crap and never have freed any one yet, including them self. I bet they are in that same mode for countless lifetimes spreading manure.

Why I am so hard on gurus ??? because I been there and I know from reality – from recalled incidents how wrong I was and juts how much damage my so called ”spreading the words of truth about spirituality has mislead others.!

I don’t advertise this blog because I believe those who need something from reading these cognitions will find their way here.

But of course silent form of communication is very affective 🙂 spreads faster than speed of light!

here is why i write today.

AGE-TIME… having this belief, what their purpose is.

Having age, having long time, being in one place for long period, become old, ancient like ruins, people over 100.

Giving labeling things like plants example Rose that it has been here on this planet for 35 million years, cats haven’t change 9 million years, that beaten up tree on the side of the cliff is hanging in there for 1000 years, that a plastic bag will be still that piece of plastic in 1000 years from now on, diamonds last forever etc… I could go on and on

Here is a funny one, when I bought a fine handmade Indian wool rug the sales man said about this carpet as a selling point “ madam this carpet will last for 50 years’’

Age, having time, being on location for ages, living in the same location, same house for one life time these: age, having time were dreamed up-created to have the feeling being stable established in one place, to give permanency longevity prolonged existence and solidity.

But all these concepts are just belief illusions created a make-believe part of the game, havingness, because there is no solidity nothing is solid and this was proved by scientists here hehehe I bet they needed diaper change when they realized this!

It is hard to believe, to get whatever we know, believe in, see with the eyes, touch with hand is on illusion and just this shows how brilliant we are: we out of nothing conjured an incredible Universe filled of magical things and if that is magic than what is?

We are good, very very good and here I am daily confronting concepts-incidents which I thought were real hehehe the joke  my own joke is on me, I have fooled self but I have to admit whatever I have conjured up was fun to have.

So here I am in this lovely room, its large windows are overlooking the forest, through them rays from the sun pours in and over the objects brilliantly emphasize their coloring, I am having coffee and health muffins, the coffee has fabulous aroma which don’t equal the taste hehehe and the muffins well, I have tasted better but what all is here are my short-lived illusions.

I have to admit after confrontation the illusions they vanish and I feel better and the realization I get is not on illusion and which I find very interesting because: the cognitions they don’t hold pictures, they don’t have shapes, or coloring, they are not time related, they don’t have locations and don’t indicate in the direction of personality, yet I know what I gained having them is real, truly real yet are totally unrelated to anything I ever known before. Not to mention their power, that is mindboggling because cognitions since they don’t have mass go through mass, penetrate realities-illusions of the mind.

Hehehe it is easy to penetrate something which wasn’t there in the first place!!!

Now… we see, touch things, feel their weight, sense their temperature therefore we know they are real, but proven fact they are illusions, and here I have something which can’t be seen, can’t be heard or touched, detected in any ways is very real.

About twenty years back a session brought a realization=understanding which really sank in: what seemed real was on illusion and the illusion was real and this proved to be true.




🙂  how I see it.

There are many new visitors and I haven’t the clue who they are but identity, valances has no importance and I welcome you into my universe. This blog is a dairy but if you care to comment you are welcome, if not that too is totally fine.

I have daily sessions and what I write is the realizations from these sessions.

I write what I see how I see self and my own universe, what I write here is not the truth for everyone, far from it, please keep it in mind that I am not teaching, definitely not a guru.. They are in my belief ‘’low-lives’’ bottom of the T.S. full of shit, self-importance and they are pushing their own illusions on others as the truth! Which is nothing more than implanted crap and never have freed any one yet, including them self. I bet they are in that same mode for countless lifetimes!

I don’t advertise this blog because I believe those who need something from reading these cognitions will find their way here.

But of course silent form of communication is very affective J

AGE-TIME… having this belief, what their purpose is.

Having age, having long time, being in one place for long period, become old, ancient like ruins, people over 100.

Giving labeling things like plants example Rose that it has been here on this planet for 35 million years, cats haven’t change 9 million years, that beaten up tree on the side of the cliff is hanging in there for 1000 years, that a plastic bag will be still that piece of plastic in 1000 years from now on, diamonds last forever etc… I could go on and on

Here is a funny one, when I bought a fine handmade Indian wool rug the sales man said about this carpet as a selling point “ madam this carpet will last for 50 years’’

Age, having time, being on location for ages, living in the same location, same house for one life time these: age, having time were dreamed up-created to have the feeling being stable established in one place, to give permanency longevity prolonged existence and solidity.

But all these concepts are just belief illusions created a make-believe part of the game, havingness, because there is no solidity nothing is solid and this was proved by scientists here hehehe I bet they needed diaper change when they realized this!

It is hard to believe, to get whatever we know, believe in, see with the eyes, touch with hand is on illusion and just this shows how brilliant we are: we out of nothing conjured an incredible Universe filled of magical things and if that is magic than what is?

We are good, very very good and here I am daily confronting concepts-incidents which I thought were real hehehe the joke  my own joke is on me, I have fooled self but I have to admit whatever I have conjured up was fun to have.

So here I am in this lovely room, its large windows are overlooking the forest, through them rays from the sun pours in and over the objects brilliantly emphasize their coloring, I am having coffee and health muffins, the coffee has fabulous aroma which don’t equal the taste hehehe and the muffins well, I have tasted better but what all is here are my short-lived illusions.

I have to admit after confrontation of illusions they vanish and I feel better and the realization I get is not on illusion and which I find very interesting: cognitions they don’t hold pictures, they don’t have shapes, or coloring, they are not time related, they don’t have locations and don’t indicate in the direction of personality, yet I know what I gained having them is real, truly real yet  are totally unrelated to anything I ever known before. Not to mention their power, that is mindboggling because cognitions since they don’t have mass go through mass, penetrate realities-illusions of the mind.

Now… we see, touch things, feel their weight, sense their temperature therefore we know they are real, but proven fact they are illusions, and here I have something which can’t be seen, can’t be heard or touched, sensed in any ways is very real.

About twenty years back a session brought a realization in which I seen what seemed real was on illusion and the illusion was real this proved to be true.