Spiritual Journey of self-discovery in the Magical universe: When I arrived, realised I never left:only my the views transformed the Universe

I have edited this post.

This post I published 3 years back but I think it is good to put it up again because David St L. still drumming for costumers [ he has greed, huge ego, that he is smarter than LRH was because he= David and Roger has invented the REAL WORKABLE TECH, which is born out of LRH’s work but totally messed up.] that means he haven’t realized what he is really doing. His awareness is equal to where ‘’ blame’’ is on the TS.  which is lower  than the frags backside!

He claims he has found the solution to all ails which will be handled by his own technology but he haven’t realized yet that his solution apply to self-first and foremost than to some extant to those persons who share the same implant he is sitting in.[ unfortunately LRH believed in the same: that we were all on the same reality level.]

We don’t have-share the same implants and that is obvious, just look around and see the diversity among people and because we don’t share the same beliefs that is the reason we can’t duplicate each other.

Example: if we could share the same apple not one of us would know how that bite tasted for others, even if 2 million said it was sweet, we can’t possibly know what that sweetness tasted for others.

Entities… who are simply Spiritual beings like you and I are and LRH named them BT’s and Clusters.

There is David and his group of Auditors who are continuing implanting these Entities still at present time!

These Beings ..Entities don’t have bodies at the present time but that is only on ‘’uneducated assumption’’, matter fact they could have one but we are not aware of that fact just because the ”eyes” don’t see the bodies that do not mean they don’t have one.

AND THAT IS ALSO ON ASSUMPTION THAT THESE ENTITIES ARE OCLLUDED… being in one incident not necessarily make any one totally occluded-unconscious.

I had sessions same as you in where I was unconscious yet I lived the life as a human LOL.. hehehe not very aware LOL.. please no offence, this here is a Diary !!! I can write anything.

So how do we really know that those Entities we give sessions to are really unaware? WE DONT, AND THAT BELIEF WAS LRH’S OWN REALITY BUT NOT  NECESSAIRLY THE FACT! so we don’t go by that, we just don’t assume and find the real stuff how things are in the cognitions we have.

Assumptions are just that, not based on facts so don’t assume because can’t see something, the eyes what they project is not a reliable and we never know what information are added to those pictures by anyone who sees those images.

All I know that that these Entities  we give session to are suffering from some trauma [ and who isn’t] and they are stuck in that incident  same as we all are and we have the ability by use of the TECH to help these beings by giving them sessions… the Technology is simple- easy to use and the Entities- Ghosts respond well, some have wonderful cognitions and that realization frees them what they were in and now off they go if that is their desire, some just vanish quietly, and some expresses they gratitude for the help and what happens at the end of the session is totally depends on the awareness of the Entity.

Some of these entities want to stay and learn how it was done, the session, but that is again their choice and I never ever interfere with their decisions. Those who want to stay  are given session again in order to understand -to find out if that decision to stay was made by free will or was forced on belief.

When the first time the request was communicated I have to admit has taken me by surprise because I did not realized that could happen, and I felt honored, same times pleased that there are others who want to know -learn the technology.

Than if that Entity still wants to remain in my space is free to do so BUT NOT AS A HELPER, PLAYMATE or COMPANION! These are disgusting ­suggestions. !!!!

These beings-Entities have their own beliefs-realities, they have been in this universe for the long time and they too have track record of their own existence and they are also powerful, knowing Beings and they too know what they want and need to do in order to continue on their own track fulfill their own destiny.

3 years back when I was asked to join this private ”elite’’ group who are giving sessions in order to free self and these Entities the same time from incidents they share.

I was told by one of the group’s leader David – one of the inventer of the altered tech that my expertise working within this group will bring new reality which will help expand whatever the auditors already know: that my knowledge on this field which is new to them is “”extremely valuable”etc..etc.. I have joined and in a day and half I have resigned because after reading the material I understood that this group is running a replica of on implanting material from way back on the track!!

What they do is in session they ”waken the Entities, they bring them into sort of present time, conscious=becoming aware and then they run them through the incident they were stuck in [ good so far] but here comes the bomber the OVERT: than the AUDITORS GIVE THESE FREED ENTITIES THE TOUR OF THIS PLANET AND ASK THEM WHAT THEY WANT TO BE !!!!!!

ASK THEM WHAT THEY WANT TO BE? Are these auditors are totally gone bunkers? Nuts? Out of their mind? GIVE A GUIDED TOUR IN HELL AND ASK WHAT YOU WANT TO BE WHILE  being HERE?

David the leader of this group of implanters and he has been auditing for 40 years and have not realized by now that the reason he is auditing people because those people who pay for their sessions want to free from the realities of this Planet, because these persons want different, want better life, and most of all want to be out of here: had enough being a Human and here is this same auditor directing this Entities back into into slavery, back to being into prison offering these newly freed Entities becoming somebody on this planet.!!!!! WOW.. this is a huge overt. Top of this, he calls these Entities, ””partners helpers and playmates….!!!!!””’

We are here to help to free beings and not to put them into the same slave position which we are in and we need-want to get out.

And furthermore anyone who believes they don’t have abilities them self and they need help should look in session WHY THE HELL THEY HAVE GIVEN UP THEIR OWN POWER-ABILITIES, WHY BECOME HEPLESS WHAT MADE THEM BELIEVE THEY ARE and take responsibility for self in that stupid state they are in and never mind assigning ” helpers” to give a hand.

JUST THINK IMAGINE: what would you do, how would you feel when finally you have regained enough awareness to return and continue whatever your Karma is and you are ready to leave than on ass would say: be my helper, be my playmate… help me!

Me I just would say: fuck off.. get a session and handle your helplessness.

I had many-many sessions on the STATE of being without the body, I call that a Ghostly State, I had sessions on these topics which are very complicated in order to understand why we connect to bodies  in the first place, what made the bodies so valuable-important in our beliefs and what do we do when we don’t have one, also  I wanted to know how we ”live” create as ghostly things.. therefor I collected vast knowledge on this topic and I am pleased to say in comparison we spend very little time with-or being bodies and most of the time we just do what comes natural to do for a intangible Infinite! 🙂



Suppression, it is not what we believe it is.

Suppression can only happen to the person when that person believes that the other person is stronger, better, more important, more valuable  in other words; superior in many ways than self.

When we acknowledge that we have been suppressed, with that we admit we are not equal we don’t have same power-abilities hehehe  not even close to what that so called  ‘’suppressor’’ can do, has.

When we say we are suppressed into some kind of situation with that we admit we are victims.. and being a victim is lower on the Tone S. than the frogs back side.

At the same time we also admit that we can’t take responsibility for our actions, that we are total effect of the other person: yes we are not in good shape, far from being on OT 🙂 whatever that means!

I never felt good about people being labeled as ‘’suppressive’’, when that happened to me at Flag I laughed at the ethics officer and told him ‘’ you got to be kidding me’’ I walked out and never went back.

But  few weeks later they called me and told me they were mistaken.. by then I was soloing every day and I did not need the church, so I told them ‘’ no way..not going to happen, I will not go back’’.

The reason they give me the ‘’suppressive’’ title because I have written up all the out points I have become aware while I was there and I even mentioned their overpriced bad restaurant food, the dirty uniforms the staff wore, the incredible bed linen in the room  full of nasty looking spots: had holes, the broken chair in [my expensive room] which had a spring sticking out through the filthy upholstery, the long waits for sessions, and the attitude of staff, that they were  doing paying public a big favor!

HEHEHE I ended my letter ‘’put this in your pipe and smoke it’’ of course I signed it. I had fun.! I was the victim of bad hotel management!

THEY DARED TO CHARGE $ 34.00 for 2 lamb chops and potato+some veggies!!! and that was in 82 when a 5 star restaurant only charged $ 14-18 for the same but well prepared meal. And they told me I was suppressive? LOL…

PS… I think PS’s were invented for me 🙂 suppression is a belief and we are the victims of our own belief EXAMPLE: I cant pull in that lotto pot therefore I am not at cause of that situation but I am a victim.. so my intention  is not working-none existent on that item and who can I blame? little old me… I can take this much responsibility that I know I am not able to win that pot… therefore my ability is zilch on that matter.  🙂  but by not winning from the very first , 2 years back I stated to chase lotto win, I had immense amount of wins…  therefore I might look like I haven’t got one once of intention in my OT bag but wow I am a true winner! the money is secondary it has no value.


Knowing the future simply means the person-Entity has the ability to view not just one frame of ‘’now’’ the present time but can see the whole chain of that incident.

That means view –being outside of that event and can observe all of it at the same moment: Overviewing the whole event also being aware what part of the event gone and what is coming in: that would be the future.

Well, I always had great interest in this subject and I don’t have to say I had lots of sessions on this topic and every related item I could dig up.

I have notice at earlier part of this life, even before I stated to have sessions I was very good seeing-predicting what was coming so naturally I wanted to increase this ability.

But something happened after some years having regular sessions and I started to see less-and less of the future as I have advanced, than altogether that ability has stopped, no matter how many more sessions I had on this nothing happened. Zilch.

So for years I was questioning what has happened to this fun ability I had but no answer come, TILL TODAY and I laughed and laughed because the Realization was: we only can see the chain of events when the chain is there.

But when all or large part of it has been as-ised… erased- confronted than for that sequence of events from my view point no longer- don’t exist..  all gone therefore the future can’t happen, can’t be seen- viewed,  its gone for me.

So for the Entity who has erased all the implants than only experience of the moment exist.



I have found in today’s session on Item which was exclusively designed-created not to have ‘’dreams-wishes’’ becoming reality but be totally destroyed and replaced by incoming problems which than need to be handled and those personal ‘’dreams-visions-desires’’ slowly submerges have become suppressed by these newly arriving problems.

This Implant same as any other Implants were not made intended as wicked –evil deed but to stop us from overwhelm from the inpouring things and to give us stable established space.

Just think: if everyone ‘’wish’’ would materialize than there would not be planet Earth, hehehe and not likely you would have that body which you claim as yours because someone else ‘’wish’’ desire who has more power than you in this moment would destroy your body or the Planet.

Personal ‘’dreams-wishes-desires’’ were menace to the survival of the group therefore they were not allowed to happen and everything was done by the group agreements to stop the individual from having that ability.

[by now we all have personal space and into this space we are allowed to put anything we want and that is our belonging and is protected by law… but not from thief’s.]

If we wanted to belong into any group, than we had to meet the terms of that group.

I have had hundreds of sessions so far on this item ‘’wish-dreams‘’etc what are they about, how they work, what suppress them and why, yet I still feel I haven’t found all the answers-cognitions yet.

But I believe todays sessions result the cognition have brought major change in understanding.

You can call ‘’wishing-dreaming’’ intention to happen or postulating but that word postulating belonged to LRH and I never felt good about it and to me ‘’dreaming-wishing’’ for something to happen is real, more in line with my way of understanding what IS.




and I love every moment of it!

Sometimes I find my own occlusions … not understanding.. not being aware simply astounding … and finding this of course is brought on by a cognition …but of course till I had this cognition on this item I did not know the extent of my ignorance.

But this is how the cognitions work and this is the purpose of confrontation to get that un-altered fact: the truth and with that the ignorance-stupidity the unknown will vanish and we have the unaltered fact!

Here is what I have learned from LRH and till now I totally agreed with him:

‘’’’EVERY SOLUTION SOONER OR LATER BECOMES A PROBLEM””  and was the fact for me till I had this cognition, few minutes back.


HEHEHE and more of the same, I love cognitions, I live for sessions so I can have these little gems.


Any chosen solution will become a problem and the newly chosen solution for that problem also will turn into a problem and the simple reason for this chain reaction: because the solutions are Bank Related Items and any item=reality-thought- belief-consideration-concept is thousands of time altered realities = that is the Bank= simple beliefs.

And out of the Bank only problems could arise!

Example: marriage- born out of ’’pure love’’[ that is a not the truth, but born out of heavy chemical stimulation] than after a while there are problems… solution-divorce… lonely, miss the sex the companionship: gets married again LOL again problems and divorce .

So my friends don’t accept that solution no matter how fantastic its sounds to continue on the same level as at the beginning… will sour and will croak too and at the end will be buried under a new solution.

Now you have to agree with me that I am brilliant! LOL.. even if I say so myself! LOL.

PS : why this thing come up about problem and solution?

I am still looking for the ”solution” how to win the lotto!

I said I never give up on that, and even if so far I haven’t win that pot but by now I have gained incredible reality: thousands of cognitions so, fellow Entities, but all means I am a winner, big time! 🙂 what incredible adventure! 🙂



short note.

had lots of interest on the subject of ”healing” but by intention therefore had many sessions concerning this topic.

I have experienced in those sessions fantastic things how we had used our healing ability but after a while I could not see- find any more reasons why I am not able to   do the same now. Wondered what stopped this ability.

Today  I found it: THEY ARE NOT WORTHY OF IT!

Well, shame on me, but I gotten my punishment for believing that I am better, important-superior to those persons and when I decided that they were not worthy of my attention-help in that moment I stopped- buried that ability for ever!

It works every time when we  punish others we  first punish self.

By now I am aware of course that we do heal others when we give them session and cleaner our space becomes from aberration with that too we help other with less re-stimulation

LOCKED IN- not exterior.

Locked in.. [ just had a major realization: read it at the end of this post]

I have done lots of session over the years on ‘’Exteriorizing’’ since I had great interest in this subject.

And by now I have dug up – confronted every concept –considerations I have known and have become aware because the cognitions on this subject, on those new awareness –realities I also had sessions. [this means I never run out of session material because sessions-cognitions bring new realizations which can be explored.]

And I am aware of that WE AS ENTITIES WE DO NOT GO ANYWHERE BUT ONLY WE VIEW- EXPERIENCES  THINGS FROM DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE – ANGLEs- have different viewpoints -experiences on the same subject. [ and this viewpoint will stand till I gain different views and I will in the future if there are  others existing: about going –moving etc..]

Example: I am inside the house… this means I as on Entity experience, are aware-view the so called inside –interior of the house because the body is inside and the ‘’eyes’’ see the inside therefore I consider that I am inside.

Same goes for viewing the house from outside, this again means the body is outside and the ‘’eyes’’ taking the photos of the exterior of the house.

But as on Entity I can only see shimmering holographic image of the whole thing and I have written about how the ‘’eyes’’ work in earlier posts.

So for me by now there is two awareness-experience on the same item: one as me aware-experience holographic images,  the other is what the ‘’eyes’’ see and these images  instantly evaluated –  labeled therefore I have consideration that there is: inside -outside etc..

BUT TODAY I HIT THE JACKPOT because I become aware of a concept which I never confronted in this meaning [ so far had about 8 hour session and continuing.]

This concept-belief is : ‘’being locked into the body’’, this belief is powerful-solid as a brick outhouse and of course has lots of other related concepts-thoughts-considerations which all influence how we view self in locations.

The interesting thing is I have had so far immense amount of sessions on being locked in, prisoned, walled in, behind bars, barriers, in visible form: having  the body   etc…etc… etc.. but never thought of confronting the belief, the understanding as me, on Entity locked into the body. [ occlusion is a human state therefore part of bank.]

Of course there is another side to the coin and this too has to be confronted which is: ‘’being locked out’’ I haven’t had sessions yet on those beliefs-thoughts I have.

How I see it so far what it means to me: going exterior is able to view—experience anything the attention is put on. [Listening to President Trumps snoring!] HEHEHE ]

We as Entities can’t move because we are ”intangible” and only objects, matter can move so going someplace the body can do but we as Entities can view experience anything we desire to do.

We can, but depends just how much the ability is hindered, just how solidly any person is stuck  locked into on the idea-belief that she or he is a body, lives, and is a human.

PS: believing in something because heard it or read it and agree to that : that I am a spiritual being… will not bring back abilities, will not free anyone from the burden of human realities.

To regain and understand what abilities we have all the counter intentions need to be removed and we all have those by the millions. If you don’t believe this than have on experiment: see me as I am, or drop by Trumps office see what he is doing, if you can than you are not locked into condition in where you cant see do what you want.

It was not easy achievement to gain the incredible reality that we live-have life, solid form and therefore we have continuum and these things were once greatly desired by us Entities and was the solution to gain stable state in the Universe but by now has become a problem: we gotten stuck- boxed in… cant get out, locked into own private hell which are our own beliefs.

LRH was right: every solution becomes a problem… and I can second that.

It has taken eons to achieve the ‘’illusion of solid state’’ and some people who had few hundred hours in session are disappointed because they realized- come to conclusion after a bit time in session that the TECH don’t work because magically things did not appear for them… The Tech works, but what they don’t understand the Cosmos, its immensity and our relationship, how we created and what we created have locked us in.

And to understand what we and the Cosmos is about we need to have sessions in tens of thousands  and cognitions in many –many-many millions!

REALIZATION=COGNITION: we have created incredible amount of barriers over the eons   [by the billions] we did this every time we gotten new life because we no longer needed or wanted the old ways and we by creating new barriers  to keep away the old: we have controlled our new way  of life: we are control freaks 🙂

So you want the abilities back????? hehehe   most of them buried so deeply covered with  countless layers of newly created laws, regulations hehehe that it will take  lifes time worth of session to clear away all that useless crap. But it worth the time because what is discovered is knowledge and that is beyond value.

PS: I wonder if any of you know the reasons why problems-troubles were made by us? And why we love to tell our friends our family how we handle them…how we cope and overcome our problems? hehehe… simply we are showing off how capable we are, how good we are handling those nasty problems which it seems we are the victim of.

We want their admiration, their acknowledgement that yes!!! we are good, we can handle anything ! We want to be seen that we are in control, we have power… So there are no victims but have lots of pride which is pure undiluted bank material. 🙂

my answer to the comment…

Here is the comment:

“”” the more processing in this lifetime, the better.

However, in my opinion, even more important, in this lifetime, is to gain the ability and the willingness to keep processing after this lifetime.’’’’’’

This is my answer to a comment which is in this blog under the title: confession.

I haven’t written about this Implant because to me this subject is no longer a concern since I have erased, as-ised all the identities I ever had, I no longer have or operate as a valance: this means being of somebody-something therefore having identity of some kind, the very belief that ‘’I am’’ as a result ‘’having been born have life-lived and will die’’.

What I have found so far and accordingly to this understanding: we take all knowledge with us, regardless what is that knowledge is about learned or from cognitions but I have found on IMPLANT which is in fact as on implant was ‘’’exclusively designed’’’ to cause total eraser -elimination of everything what the person has learned–known as in ‘’life’’ and the name of this implant by our interpretation is DEATH.

Why do you think people ”fear” death so much?

Simply because ”unconsciously” they know what DEATH brings is: total eraser- elimination of identity which takes the Entity out of action: and with that leaves the Entity powerless- helpless-nameless, minus space of its own: in limbo as nothing-no awareness: none existent!

Why do you think Entities as when having baby bodies need to learn everything and so rarely any one remembers what they were before in earlier lifes, what were their abilities, where they lived, what name they used or what language they have spoken?

All that has been erased by the death incident and now the new parents who are re-implanting him accordingly their knowledge –beliefs they have and if that knowledge don’t contain auditing technology than that person  will not have it and will not recall it.

That is the purpose of this very powerful Death Implant and there are many who have read about and  who have experienced and come back to the body and lived to tell about it.

It is that BRIGHT LIGHT which is there and pulls- lure the person who just left the body after of some kind of trauma.  THAT IS NOT HEAVEN BUT TOTAL NULL AND VOID.

Death is as on item very complex in itself and each thought-belief-agreements should be handled separately because ‘’ the death’’ consideration hold immense amount of different beliefs-considerations and vast amount of agreements why it exist, why was created: needed-wanted and believed and used: all has to be cognized on in order to become free.

But also on item which is being bodiless, in ghostly state, being powerless, unknown, no longer have a life, and hundreds of other similar –alike considerations have to be confronted in order to understand our true State as on Entity in this Universe. [ I had confronted had session on every thought-belief I known so far, so  me as on Entity has reached the State of No State.]

State being something-somebody means a body of some kind, a mass of energy which has a label.

By not confronting these issues the Entity will not regain the knowledge, power the abilities as on Entity but will remain as BEING and as a Being has no reality –awareness of the meaning what is intangible Infinite.

So far I haven’t found how it would be possible to recall as on Entity the auditing technology when in Ghostly State= after leaving the body.

Please if you ever find how that can be done or any of you readers will stumble on this knowledge I would be thrilled if you would let me know by posting here.

The learned knowledge which is accumulated in a person’s span of time as being a human is erased by death implant [ but in fact just covered over]  because those learned stuff has-is made of energy, but cognitions don’t contain energy therefore the understanding which is brought on by these cognition will remain with the Entity and nothing can touch that since this knowledge is  intangible.

PS: what I write here is the results of sessions and cognitions… I haven’t studied LRH’s writings or some idiot  gurus, the knowledge therefore is not secondhand-altered crap.






They are very useful and have been use done the Track in countless different societies.
 I had a very good realization why catholic church applies ” confession and the Last Right” for the dyeing.
In order to unburden the Entity before  leaves the body so it can go freely and it works!
Since guilt is a heavy burden  which do holds the Entity.
 Auditing sessions are nothing more than unburdening Self -getting unstuck- become separated from that heavy mass of energy and  become free once and for all.
 There is a big difference between the Confession  and the Last Right those acts only handle the very top layer but don’t touch the Overts committed in other -previous  lives the Entity  experienced.
So the un-confronted pulls back the Entity to have similar lives and commit similar acts as done before.
 Life -understanding becomes very simple … not much to it since all the realization -cognitions which I have had by now in millions had brought the same understanding: our own beliefs are the only obstacles we face daily and they the prison we live in and we made that our self.
 PS: I would like to add that those who meditate regularly will have on easier time to ”’leave” the body… to depart -cut the  string- and don’t have to rely on pulling in heavy duty ”sickness- ill health” in order to destroy the body so finally could depart.
Meditation is a much better solution but of course leaving the body while meditate will only happen when the ”time” has come and not one minute before.
Meditation do not guaranties freedom for not pulling in illness accidents because if those are the heavy items in the Entities life.. if they meant to be than no amount of meditation can change that experience how to depart. Karma  happens when items are not confronted.
But keep it in mind that meditation do keys out of the Entity therefore less likely will pull heavy incidents like brick falling on head!! LOL..
So you Entities who are reading this blog have some choices but not to many : get into sessions.. more the better, add some meditating time … !
 If you wont, you be back into the same old shit in next life and that I can guaranty  and no amount of study -reading about enlightenment listening to tapes from gurus etc. will save your ass from that future.

I have read that some decades back that our reason to be ‘’is to survive as species ’’ through reproduction, when reading that than  because I did not know differently I agreed to that reality.

But since than I have gained different understanding on what we are not or who we are not and recants sessions cognition given me a totally different understanding.  In fact having a human meat body is not exact the winning thing for the first price- because these meat bodies originally were created –grown-harvested –processed for consumption very similar manner as humans do to cattle.[ that was long time back, that alien race no longer exist].

We have tens of thousands of motives -reasons –considerations why we want bodies, believe we are bodies , we need bodies to be in and I found  the main reasons  which is definitely not for the survival of the species, not even close.

Before I write the cognition I would like to share with you the knowledge-understanding I have gained in sessions that I have been in every kind of body including oceans, grass, clouds, mountains had every kind of so called animal bodies, birds, boulders, name it, I tried them all, and of course numerous variety of alien bodies which were nothing like meat bodies while being –living in different planets and some which till I recalled could not imagine that could exist.

Of course being and using planets, nebula, and comets as bodies … those are everyday occurrences for the Entities living the so called life while being here experiencing this Universe.

In fact our existence in this universe is mostly as Entities, free floating –experiencing the universe as is without having connection to bodies of any kind.

The reason I tell you this because by having huge variety different ‘’ bodies’’ over the eons made me realize, had the cognition that we are taking on bodies, we identify self with things: IN ORDER TO HAVE: TO GAIN STABILITY-PERMANENCY-LASTINGNESS which of course has nothing to do with and not the same as survival of the species.

We as Entities we are intangible and from the very beginning we identified self with something, for me was the first created light… the rest after that is my track.

Those things-bodies=matter I have experienced through occupation and I have -identified with has given me the impression-belief that I am permanent stable enduring that I exist and live of course.

But the disappointments about bodies were inevitable because matter sooner or later is destroyed –get dissolved, melts away or stops ticking and we had to get a new anchor-body to keep us in stable position.

The need to rely on bodies as being something which than make us into somebody a ‘’being’’that belief-reality is part of the bank, is the invention- the fib- the great big lie.

The only stable thing in this physical universe is the Entity: that we are intangible and infinite therefore permanent and nothing can change that.

Reason to do: my destiny!

I haven’t thought -wondered much about my destiny why I am here and why I am having sessions and why I am ”relentlessly pushing on” day after day.

I know I have tenacity -that means staying power and I am like a bulldog once bite into something will not let go till that piece is bitten off.

But occasionally I would like it if I finally could say: that’s it, no more and just closes the door on the past and be happy with the incredible gains I have attained till now. 🙂

This is how I felt the past two days and I felt I just reached the state where I wanted to stop.

Who I was kidding but self, because I can’t stop and the reason is that sessions and their outcome is like reading a most fantastic mystery novel which can’t be put down because as we are reading we are waiting holding our breath wondering in great anticipation what’s going to happen, how the story will end and what will become of our heroine: in this case that person is me.

So the sessions go on, the adventures continue!

The reason I wanted to stop because I wanted to kick over -give up the idea buying that house on Vancouver Island and have it redone, the garden be turned into fairyland and of course winning the lotto, because without the lotto money I never could by $ 7.500.000.00 property  and spend lot to furnish it etc.

And I also known living there would not make me happier or more contented as I am here so why bother continue with the subjects in sessions?

You see, I have reached the STATE some years back [about 20 years] that to me things did not hold value so why the Hell I want to win that bloody lotto and buy that house? Why I am banging my head against the wall, OK had immense amount sessions and huge gains on these subjects and knowing very well without these realizations I would never be fee, and I had to have these sessions because the ideas-beliefs were on my path to confront. So my time wasn’t wasted, no, totally opposite.

The draw for the numbers were Friday [ every Friday] evening and of course I haven’t win again but one free ticket for the next draw so I have questioned today why I am pushing this item so hard so relentlessly and the realization hit me like a ton of brick: IT IS MY DESTINY, not winning the lotto or having the house, absolutely not, no, those things are the END PRODUCTS, but first: all the considerations-beliefs are need to be confronted which are the barriers in order to have that product.

And the only way to regain those abilities is by confrontation those myriads of reasons why it haven’t happened so far when I intended it, why could not have happened, why the intention-postulating don’t work when I putting them out??????

In other words: What the hell has happened to my willpower?

I know I put out, intended to happen something difficult: aiming for a goal which is not easy to attain as example: ‘’have the intention to win the jackpot of large some$$$’’and then session by session as –ising all the negative and positive beliefs which are connected to those concepts and let me tell you: the negatives -the feeling of loses just pours in like water down on Niagara Falls after each draw and me finding out that I haven’t win yet…and not winning means that I still have objections-counter postulates, fears of having-winning-owning, there is still denial, suppressions of will power and who knows what else is hidden-forgotten etc etc etc… But when I will win, have those 7 numbers come in than I will be done and I will know: I have finally re-gained what I have given away so long ago.

The power of intention: which brings results!

PS: no one can even imagine what it takes to as-is the immenseness of counter intentions, losses which results from that… just how many we have experienced in our time being here in this Infinite Universe. As My friend Maurice said more than once and I totally agree with him  that we have only scratched the surface and we both been at it..solo auditing, he since 67 and I 76!



This is the cat’s meow, now as I said: ignorance stupidity can kill and because of ignorance not knowing differently we believe we die and the same goes why we are in any unwanted state or attain that wanted condition.

Example POVERTY… one of my favorite subject which I have been beating at-having session on about 3000 hours’ worth.

Well, sometimes I feel like banging my head against the wall because I haven’t thought of something and this is one of those times when I know that my ignorance is soooo enormous LOL.. I just don’t want to mince words: I am staying with simplicity : I am so stupid sometimes that its simply boggles my mind!

This is incredible!!!! I never thought, never entered in my ”mind” that on the Track I had lives–incident in which I have sworn –taken on Oath of Poverty … giving up all worldly possessions goods in order to serve the higher authority -god… !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let me tell you ‘’gods’’, believing in that concept have caused more problems than what I care to list here or any other place, gods that ‘’idea’’ is on incredible troublesome crap and I too had my share of it on the Track.

NOW This means that these Oaths I have taken and who knows how many times and when and because Oath taking are very powerful solemn –intense incidents they become basic and all other crap regarding similar considerations are just piled on the top of that shit.

So.. try –just try to become rich—win the lotto- build on empire – do any adventure in which the gains would be measured in worldly good-possessions, Will never happen, can’t make it out and no matter how many occasion it is tried… will fail and the person “”ME=Elizabeth”” LOL”” will remain in the so called poverty mode to which has sworn to be in!!!!


Screw all this shit. LOL.. now I have proudly declare I have attained the spiritual enlightenment= The State of STUPIDITY!

on the serious side: I needed the cognitions on taking the oath before I realized what are the results on those solemn oath taking incidents.. the cognition was the result of confrontation ”living alone”  as now I do, but of course I have done the same many in many other lifetimes before and in some of them I was a monk.. living alone dedicating my life  serving ”god” this means keeping that idea alive and solid!

And I am truly having fun !


I have realized I reached the end to a subject which I have worked on nearly 2 years.

It has started out that I decided I want to win the lotto and with the money buy a house on Vancouver Island in Victoria in the section called Oak Harbor right on the water overlooking the inlet and the mountains on the other side of the water and that was the original” intention”.

I am including the video of my ‘’house’’ because it is mine, I believe it is mine.

too reset the videos to view the house need to push the semi circle at the bottom of the video on the lefts side-bottom of the pictures facing you.

I have written 3 posts so far on how I was doing on this ‘’subjects’ ‘and by now I long have left behind the idea of winning since that consideration only has so many sides I could have session on.

Winning is not just winning the lotto.. but it is wanting – desiring –needing– to change a condition knowing-believing that the transformation would be bringing a better condition.


THAT IS THE GOAL-OBJECTIVE WHAT WE AIM FOR when we are having sessions, using the Technology to free self from the unwanted beliefs.

But the subject which started out is ‘’wanted to win the lotto’’ has opened into something massive which encompassed –embraced –involved my whole track in this universe.

And of course the ‘’wanting’’ is having ‘’intention to accomplish change conditions ’’.. so because the word is simple do not means simply one item has to be confronted LOL..no, but this simple word is just the cover to a bottomless pit which is our track and that is Infinite!

I also have written about visualization.. Confrontation of dreams, illusions, but of course I haven’t mentioned the hundreds of items-considerations I have separately confronted in sessions.

This morning I have realized that I have finished with this subject once and for all! But I did not feel happy, elated jubilant on this idea, in fact I felt let down.

WOW!!!        Then I also realized that I have:

I have Given in… accepted the condition because can’t change it therefore I no longer fight it  or wanting to work it out… capitulated .. in other words I have thrown in the towel!

Become defeated… accepted this defeat is part of life… inevitable … ohhhh .. Just let it stand –remain as is…. work with it what I have here… make the best of it…


Because force-power which hold everything in place is bigger than me?

I can’t go against it?  Karma is not changeable? Karma is inevitable?

We accept karma as something given by higher authority -power as our inevitable faith… inevitable faith is bank and nothing more.

SO… I am back and the adventure continues… I never give in because giving in is accepting the control: the bank and its power over me. 🙂

”defeat” simply means: something existing which don’t let something happen!

PS: I don’t live poorly.. by all means I don’t, I live in a lovely condo overlooking the forest and why do I wish to change conditions? because I want to… simply want to for the ”doing” of it and knowing I am at causer.! 🙂

PS; I no longer accept any condition as ”normal” simply because  here on this Earth was decided by  ”agreements” that something is normal, or on the ”Track” was decided what should be called normal occurrences – because decisions  never make any condition normal. There are no such a conditions as ”normal” conditions. AND IF WE CANT DO SOMETHING… OUR INTENTION DONT WORK THAN THE REASON IS THAT WE HAVE  ASSIGNED  POWER TO OTHERS OR THINGS-element-stuff in general that those persons or things are better, stronger,  bigger, more important than us.




Cognition ON NUMBERS.

Items can be seen and numbered just how many are there and what the numbers are indicating, and these symbols means the same in any language: example: there are apples in the bowl, because they can be counted, there can’t be make mistake just how many there are, can’t be argued about this number, can’t be denied, disputed, there is no uncertainty when numbers are present: We get agreement!

There is  group of people running, they can be counted, let say there were 4 of them  so same as the above example the number cant be changed because  that would be a lie…

So what numbers doing to our reality is commanding agreements, with that in place the story of that incident: we have seen 4 people running becomes solidified: permanently established and no one can’t change that anymore.

So numbering things brings agreement… example Buddhism has 400 million followers so this huge number really solidify the fact that Buddhism is good true faith because 400 million people cant be wrong!

LOL… LOL.. agreement on anything is agreement on solidity, true thing as in Infinite and what that stands for cant be counted, describes but what can be counted and described plus adding symbols to it+ behavior and that behavior is then regularly PRACTICED!!! is and always masses of energy and those agreements make it totally solid.

So look out… more agreement there are on any subject, which are represented by numbers are indication of solidified masses of energy= pure undiluted bank.

Because numbers don’t lie and I believe that only numbers are not miss duplicated by people, concepts cannot be duplicated because we cant see-know what others feel and about those reality the arguments miss-understandings arises  but ”numbers” do represent solid facts!

it seems Numbers knowing their meaning and how they function sort of ties together to some degree that we as individual have some  reality on each other.

example: I haven’t the clue how your half of the apple taste for you, so that part we can have a big discussion,  but we can totally agree that we both have 1 half apple!

Just think just how solid a concepts have become next time you bite into on apple, or drink a glass of water or take a big lungful of air and you believe that its feels so good, taste good and you  cant live without  that lungful of belief!

All these exist because having agreements on the subject.

new topic… numbers

I never ‘’looked’’ at numbers before as in sessions since ‘’numbers’’ are not my favorite things: these symbols I don’t find fascinating at all, but I admit I should have since ‘’numbers’’ are very much part of, how we ‘’live’’ our life’s here on earth.

It is a mindboggling subject and so far I only peek through the door and seen that here on Earth everyone has a number, everything numbered, everything measured and given an assigned correct number!

WOW.. this is mindboggling to me to find that numbers –being numbered has such a great importance.. so vital.

It seems ‘’ numbers’’ have solidifying effects, they tie things together, they hold things in within that content; example there are 8 basic fragrances; green tea, pepper, spice, violet, damask rose-old rose, chocolate, musk etc.. I forgot the 8th… I used to have a huge rose garden, had 300 roses and out of these 75 was ramblers and climbers.

There are 800 different variety of flees in that group and 20 thousand variety of grasshoppers, 1800  variety of apples so far classified [Big deal…] so the humans love to classify, and put label on everything and that is totally Ok by me this means I don’t have ‘’ charge’’ on this matter.


NOW there is a very good reason for that, sound like number acts as on anchor… huge big rusted old anchor which has been there who know how long and long forgotten.

Well, soon as I discover more on this item, why it was so important to have and to keep, I will write about it if its worthy to mention.


Where are our abilities? Very funny question: they are still at the same place as where we left them, when we have denied we had them by saying we can’t do it, cannot be done, when we assigned powers to others, that others are more powerful than were are, more able, stronger, smarter, born at the right place, to the right parents, when we believed other are more deserving than us and when we believed that others were more important than us!

And when we said and believed that we are just not lucky… the luck is not with us, we never had luck, we never been lucky, we were born under on unlucky star, on unlucky day, when we believed we were cursed, lived in a corrupt age, where a honest person cant make it go right etc.. etc..

And we have seen other how lucky they were, no matter what they have touched turned out alright! and than we have compared self with these people and evaluated self… devaluated self : that yes!!! They were born under the lucky star, they were born with the silver spoon in their mouth therefore they have everything whatever they want and us poor saps we just live on the sideline as observers.

So where are our abilities?

The present time in this age the name-title I believe ‘’ability’’ should be called ‘’LUCK’’….  and you can evaluate for self—summon up just how lucky or unlucky you are  in your present state; the  life cycle  you are in.

Luck, being lucky is not just related to gambling.. or going into new ventures: wanting to make better living but luck is how one’s marriage  is working out or not, how we cope with our daily adventures, how we feel, how is the health of the body, how our dreams has come through, or have they been discarded and let them die? happened because we were not lucky????

Unlucky… simply means ability to make it go right is no longer present.

I have had immense amount of sessions over these years in order to unearth the abilities I have had and I can say all the sessions I had since 73 do addresses  directly or indirectly  this item: ability-luck.

Everything we ever do, have done=experienced are interconnected, each incident, each life we lived exist because others have existed.

I haven’t recovered abilities… not the way I thought they will be when I started out: snap the finger and whatever I want will appear LOL ..  that is not how it works but if it  works that way than I haven’t regained that ‘’ability’’ yet!  But I have learned: nothing is impossible: if we can think of it than it can happen!

SOOOO…. I have said this before how we think what we believe in that is all we have.

If someone wakes up in the morning and thinks: ohhh, not another lousy day.. ohhhh how horrible that job is, I can’t stomach this another day! Well, you got what you asked for, what you believe in and don’t wait for better.

Auditing-confronting works because we can eliminate the unwanted beliefs… and that makes the Tech.. magical, it is the Magic Wand.

soup is hot—the soup is cold…. I can walk through the wall… I cant walk through the wall .

This is a very simple Universe… cant get any simpler: what we believe we have.

Reached the basic-basic

on a very well know State and why that state was created.

There is a reason for everything we do and we have, the state-condition we are in, how we think, what abilities we have or why we haven’t got them anymore.

Poverty being poor has been one of my major projects to confront and of course reasons to understand why I have experienced this state and joined others in this experience.

Not only poverty-being poor-having very little etc.. etc.. but I had to also confront being rich-having everything and this not all but I had to confront more than one universe —This physical so called Solid Universe but I also had to explore the Spiritual universe where we lived –operated without bodies.

I could write books on this subject, there have been hundreds —thousands of reason for each state=consideration=belief to exist plus all the related items I have confronted in order to understand what it means why we are poor or rich.

I finally reached the basic-basic incident and with that the understanding the true reason why the ‘’state of poverty’’ was created and followed by so many.

The Entity who has created this State has truly understood how and what has effected-stimulated us, and how to – curtail-limit and reduce these effects.

This Entity understood and this understanding was very simple, too simple and that simplistic basic reason was to keep the Entity pure, or minimally effected, not to be embroiled – entangled- caught up- ensnared- mixed-up and get confused by masses of energy=possessions but keep it simple: to live simple life, only have what is needed for survival and have nothing more than that.

The rest would count to be extra, not needed or wanted because those extras are the extra baggage which hinders the Entity.

By now unfortunately the  true meaning of this simple state  has been altered and now made out to be punishment because value is placed on matter: more you have more valuable –important you are and when have little than that person is nothing-no one.

Yet priesthood –some other religions still based on the same principal.

I completely agree with this Entities belief because I also know that every thought, belief, agreement-consideration we have is connected to large masses of energies which were one time or another in solid forms  and that these masses of energies= mental images-pictures are what we gotten embroiled –ensnarled by.

If we would have kept our life simple this would not have happened but again we would not attain the knowledge what means is having everything and to experiencing everything.



part of the todays session.


I see a person in ”praying ”position, it seems this praying person trusts good’s power…

Realization:…..WOW….. OH…..total trust in god is ‘’’Total assignment of power .. total delegation of power…handing over power…means total submission ………

TOTAL SUBMISSION- being totally submissive : obedient , docile, meek, dutiful; IS INCRADIBLY POWERFUL ACTION because when give in to on any idea, teachings philosophy, when we accept that dogma as truth and don’t question… no matter what happens , how it affects our life therefore we become less stimulated by our surrounding-life and when total submission occurs that means total di-stimulation .. no longer being on affect…



But  total submission has a huge downside: giving up own awareness-reality-all personal abilities-creativity… but  the main objection is awareness and when giving up everything by becoming totally submissive as follower of any teachings – philosophies -religions.. regardless whatever that maybe.. that person  becomes a robot-slave who carries out the wishes of others.

Examples: we at first when went into Scientology we have not questioned LRH’s teachings.

LOL… and we become totally keyed out of our earlier life and gotten keyed into LRH’s life! How he thought, what he beloved in, with that we become on extension of his and we supplied power: WE ASSIGNED POWER TO HIM!  LOL his ego grown ..we made him a god ..

Those who after leaving the church went into Buddhism… LOL… now that is total submission …giving up everything not questioning and the same times quoting sayings behaving in manner dictated more likely assumed that is how should one behave if one a Buddhist ..WOW PEOPLE … these characters who have embraced that philosophy really hit the bottom… total robotic-none thinking machinery they have become.

Monks-priest is on the same level because they just follow and in my reality that level is lower than the frogs’ bottom.

But  LRH has offered a technology when used freed the user from that robotic-none thinking level…….and that is the fact , so LRH’s work was not all garbage but incredible valuable.

but religions never offered the way out because there is no roads-paths out of that shit, submission to any dogma is assigning power.

HEHEHE same goes when voting for Trump or Clinton! LOL.







Mystery is the most coveted, sought-after, desired, longed for item in this WHOLE UNIVERSE! Regardless what shape, what form or not having a Form like on Entity.

make something mysterious and bingo everyone wants it!

Example: Spirituality this philosophy has always been shrouded in mystery, therefor many entered on a journey to discover for self what this spirituality is?

And because so many has embarked on the journey to find out for that reason is we have that many outcome LOL.. and not one of the founding is true… Spirituality cannot be defined.. Expressed in any way or in any form and symbolism as in all religions definitely does not describe the Universe which holds no shape or form.

Mystery is on the same level as ‘’unknown-not known’’ yet mystery- mysterious items were once and are still tremendously valuable.

After all it has taken us Eons to create mystery to cover up our awareness, our total understanding because when we are viewing something we have total understanding on any subject-object what that may be to the last molecule it contains and why that exist in our space.

My friends we do know everything about this universe but we are so incredibly brilliant that by now we made ourselves believe we know nothing.. LOL… that is the most gargantuan lie we ever conjured up in the history since we are playing: being stupid-ignorant human.


Two people enter into marriage and they sure love each other but as time goes by= particles move= life continues lots of things change and these two people react differently to the daily happenings and sooner or later each notices that the other person is not behaving as they ‘’should’’ LOL.. now that comes a surprise  and each partner thinks and say “ OHHH I DID NOT KNOW S/H WAS LIKE THAT IF I WOULD HAVE KNOW I WOULD NEVER married THAT UGLY SO AND SO!”  of course you have known it but have ignored  the facts … simply because if you would admit than that marriage would never take place.

Mystery is not only built into relationships but it is the backbone in the game of life. LOL… only on idiot, on Entity who is playing being ‘’stupid’’=not know gest body with that gets all the trimming which goes with it and suffers – struggles but secretly loves every second of the game LOL.. everyone is so occupied to change things.. to discover things, to make things better: so much fun…so much drama… and nothing is more DRAMATIC THAN BELIEVING THAT WE DIE!!!!!

Now  who ever invented that ” death’ ‘concept truly deserves the glory because believing that DEATH EXIST that concept has put Spirituality- after life into total mystery which simply means our the true life -existence -creativity -abilities, knowing were forgotten,  sank into mystery… become shrouded  by the veil of ”unknown”.

The Universe exist because we made it into a mystery in other words: into altered reality.

So far I haven’t written much about Entities.

My reason for leaving the church in 82 was because at Flag  the senior C/S ordered me to stop continuing — having solo sessions and did their best to scare me with the IDEA that Entities – Beings are my enemies and they will affect me, cause case problems. [I never agreed to that.]

But that is what they have known in the church that time because till than LRH haven’t  found incidents where spiritual entities were good therefore he had great fear of Entities and  he communicated the same beliefs : we all need to fear Entities.

I just realized something now: that it can be on assumption on my part that the Entity I am communicating with doesn’t have the body:  Just because I can’t see a body with my own bodies eyes that do not mean that Entity don’t have a body ten galaxies away from where my so called body is! In fact I can’t see the Entity either! LOL..I like that!

Relying on that truly incorrect information the church acted as what they have known but acted as they were the  AUTHORITY= know it all- about Entities. [ I don’t blame the church for handling me  that way.]

I did not have- shared than that reality-belief with the church about Bt’s –Clusters =Entities because from the very early on in as 73 I realized I was a spiritual being- on Entity myself, I felt at home with that belief and to me to be surrounded by spiritual beings-Entities brought total delight knowing we were all here, we were never alone..  we shared everything…no one was ever lost, no one has ever died  and to me this knowledge brought great happiness-contentment: I realized finally arrived , was finally at home,  belonged, part of this great Realm and no longer segregated.  [ only my own beliefs made me feel separated.]

I have given countless sessions to Entities since 76 but so far I found less than a dozen who were in fact out to get me, these few were put into my space to destroy and harm-eliminate at all cost  and that was their sole purpose. LOL.. but they too responded to auditing, confronted their own reality and finally become free with that their mission ended.

Poor Entities they were, because they only been given-implanted with one determination to destroy one Entity and that is without a doubt a very poor reason to exist. LOL.. but no one can destroy on Entity! J

What I have found in sessions that all Entities were simply stuck in incidents… that we all are in the same situation, being in the same boat regardless we are connected to the bodies or not. [ as for paddles we have the auditing technology.]

Some years back I realized that not much point giving sessions separately to any one because IF I KNOW OF SOMETHING, IF I FEEL SOMETHING even if it was NOT NECESSARILLY MINE BUT I KNEW ABOUT IT THEREFORE TO THAT EXTANT THAT INCIDENT –feeling understanding –EXPERIENCE WAS exclusively MINE and session was needed to confront the incident.[ I believe here is my responsibility for self-kicked in.]

Matter have location, we Entities-Infinites we don’t have location therefore We as Entities we share sessions, we share cognitions and by knowing that we share, we equally take responsibility- confront our own and same time we all take responsibility for our own case, and  knowing this I can’t hardly blame others for how I feel what I think-believe in.

We as Entities we don’t have same realities, look around you and you know that is the fact…therefore any Entity who are in these sessions have their own reality=version of that incident accordingly how they see-believe and also have their own version of cognition at the end of the session.

This means I don’t have reality on other Entities Universe.. I only know mine and I never known any other.. LOL. that is my having –ness, my Realm- Universe.

Why I write this? Because in well-known blog  written whatever  happens to us is caused by the Entities this includes good things also.

As I see it not only bad happenings can be blamed on others, in this case the Entities… But blame can be put on others causing good things to: blame is blame no matter how we perceive this concept.

When blaming that is assigning power, ability, assigning responsibility: They have it and I don’t, in other words blaming others for existing conditions we are in: regardless what that is.

And in that blog again the writer is saying that Entities helping us, empowering us..

OK… but again the auditor should have sessions why the help is needed: what are the reasons personal power and abilities are missing, how I made self so helpless and weak, and how come other are better than I, more powerful and reasons should be looked for why in the first place I am affected  etc… etc..  there are thousands and thousands of reason there are on our track why we are as we are. And NOT ONE ENTITY CAUSED THE CONDITION WE ARE IN.

Blame is present when the person is still sitting in the Human Cluster= human beliefs,  BUT that is not how it works in the Spiritual Realm: We are responsible: totally responsible for the conditions we are in.

There is no other way.

Example: no one can feel your toothache … same goes for everything else.

Can others influence us with their intention?

LOL… that one only could be judged –assessed come to conclusion of if we would have two experiences and compare these two experiences what would have happen IF we believe that our experience was NOT INTENDED-influenced or yes I did that because I was under influence from others!

Blaming others gotten us into where we are at.

No matter what we experience, that experience is our and it can’t be shared.






I spend lot of time with my older sister who has severe Dementia and I been confronting this very interesting intriguing phenomenon and so far have had many major realizations.. but tonight’s session brought- ended with  fantastic cognition which has tied all previous understanding into a nice neat package. I believe I reached the BASIC on this topic. F/T!

The main reason aged-old people forgets things- no longer remember things BECAUSE WE POSE TO EMPTY OUR MIND before we depart – move off—set out for a new adventure!!!

Just think… even meditation teaches the same…. ‘’in order to attain spiritual enlightenment one must empty self of all earlier beliefs-realities’’

But for the so called forgetfulness the good Doctors have given a names:  Dementia or Alzheimer’s because they believe that not remembering—losing all connections to surroundings is on ‘’illness-sickness’’ because for many Entities who’s body gotten old  have the same or similar symptoms.. But of course the Entities know that the body soon will stop working and they are just getting ready, doing house cleaning=== getting rid of the left over: the bits and pieces of the past life cycle. LOL.. DOING THE CLEAN GET AWAY !!!!!

The good doctors haven’t the clue what spirituality means, that we are Infinite and they don’t know we leave the body after it stops functioning therefore to them any departure while we are with the body from the ‘’normal’ ’human behavior whatever that is: is sickness – illness of the body or the mind.



Why people fear the darkness!

Only light -brightness as in daylight or artificially illuminated space can contain pictures- images – WHICH THE EYES ARE ABLE TO SEE..TAKE A PHOTOGRAPH OF and therefore the Entity=person feels the connections to these images and feel the stimulation from these images which of course gives the impression being alive.

The Entity at all times have the need for light, to be in the light and when darkness comes the Entity in fact becomes inactive: all stimulation stops because the darkness don’t contain pictures not the kind which could be seen with the eyes!!!

No pictures, no experiencing.

Of course the artificially created light-brightness now changes the experiences… can prolong the experiences and with that the lengthen stimulation.

THE ENTITY IS ANCHORED BY THE LIGHT-BRIGHNESS [ which is nothing more than vibrating mass of energy] and HELD IN SPACE and is STUCK TO THE IMAGES BUT IN THE DARK-space THE ENTITY  NO LONGER MOORED, HAVE FIXED POSITION, no pictures and therefore ‘’fear’’ sets in, fear of no longer being-having those images and without them there is no life: of course that is a fat lie.


EXAMPLE: on inmate when in the prison can be given the most severe punishments which is Solitary Confinement in a absolutely dark cell being alone: while in the cell the Entity ‘’can’t see pictures’’ can’t communicate, consequently loses all connections to the BANK=life which would be the stimulations- vibrations of those pictures, he than loses the concept of time-space- being fixed-moored into location which of course only exist because we are seeing-looking with the ‘’eyes’’.

So the prison-person misses ‘’life’’ LOL.. LOL… no longer has ‘’life’’ which never happened it in the first place.

That is the major punishment for a human is to be eliminated, no longer belonging to the group, not acknowledged that: yes you are alive and being here!

The only reason that prisoner lost his life-pictures because he believed he had it.

When the prisoner come out of the darkness- he has to re-orient himself= re anchor self into location-society=group same ways as we do after each waking: we are going over what has to be done that period of time =daylight till the dark period the night takes away the pictures again.

The fact is darkness don’t contain the same pictures kind of pictures as light can have away they never have. When darkness is confronted explored in sessions than the Entity find totally different realities about what ‘’darkness’’ is.

Darkness is not empty and it is not dark not one bit… this space is our true element where we are really home, where we are definitely free.

So fearing the darkness simply means dreading the loss of matter, really fearing being without MEST, without having identity- valances.

PS: OF COURSE THE ENTITY STILL HAVE ALL THEIR BELIEFS-CONSIDERATIONS, the darkness cant take that away.. but minus pictures…

PS: there is a post in this blog in which the explanation for the ”darkness”.



I have just seen a most interesting incident which occurred just before  the Dinosaurs and other living critters were fried.

From tooth ache I moved into this incident where the Dinosaur had toothache but turned out to be something totally different: the Dinosaurs pain was caused by  being hit with a lightning bolt and the searing pain went through his jaws.

What I have seen is that suddenly the terrain become  dark, this darkness was deep inky blue and  this darkness was on electric storm:  abruptly immense lightning bolts filled the air but these huge bolts were flying horizontally close the  surface of the Earth and the electric bolts  were like  humongous living whips sizzling- lashing out hitting and burning up what they touched,  the air glowed iridescent blue when the storm moved off there wasn’t  living thing left on the surface of the Planet… some charred –scorched smoldering  patches of dirt here and there and the higher points of the terrain continued to discharge some of the  collected voltage and this power bolt went wild in the air till they found a target a higher surface of the  planet –hill top or boulder and they hit these targets whit such a force that boulders gotten pulverized , and hills tops sheared off and mountain side were reshaped.

I still see this as it was just now… you see I have just experienced the extinction of the Dinosaurs.

HELLO….or good by?

I just would like you let you know I won’t be writing much in the future.

If you are new to this blog and would like to read my adventures there are over 300 cognition related entries which touches ‘’almost’’ every topic. Well, not really because if I would have written about everything I have seen—have become aware than that would fill many-many volumes and that would have taken me years to write and same amount of time to read.[ time don’t exist]

LRH has talked –written about ‘’altered reality’’:

When the altered believes-realities are as-ised which includes understanding what is ‘’spirituality’’, and life-living it in every stage + death: death is part of life, death can’t happen –occur without the beliefs of having ‘’life’’= being born and of course in this package include the assumptions [ the human beliefs] what is the so called ‘’afterlife’’ or even what space is.

All these beliefs which were learned-read about-being told and the ”thoughts” them self any one has exist because they are altered…

What I have found through the gained realizations =cognitions is so very different from what I have assumed will be when reaching the so called ”other-side-different level-Native State- Spiritual Realm from where I started out in 73 … LOL.. Not disappointing, not at all but astounded in a very good way.

If there are questions you believe I can give on answer to please free to email or send your communication in  the form of comment.

Please keep it in mind what I know now do not make me better or important personage, not at all,  but JUST very-very DIFFERENT in HOW I SEE-PERCEIVE THE UNIVERSE FROM WHAT I HAVE KNOWN BEFORE and this gained knowledge  is not altered but it is the truth=consist of compounded cognitions.

The considerations what is Importance, better etc.. these are beliefs they exist because they are altered and agreed upon beliefs , therefore these concepts no longer apply-exist where I am at.

My so called work, or exploration of the Universe is not over, far from it.

To those of you who are into ‘’exteriorization’’, would like to go out of the body, have news for you… you never been inside the body! 🙂

Believing in something is the trap is self.


Best to you all. Elizabeth.


Being inside, being outside or being some other place.

Because we are not a body therefore we are not energy-  bulk, we are not a form – object that means we don’t have a location, as a result we can’t go anywhere –we can’t exteriorize –we can’t be inside of something or outside of some body-or on object: being  here over or being over there.

When we talk about moving the object in this case ‘’meet body’’ and we say I am going to Vancouver that in fact is only the body which is placed into a car and then relocated by this different form of body which is the car and the meet body is moved to Vancouver and the Entity say’’’ I am here, I have arrived’’.

For the meet body being inside the car do not means that the Entity, the Infinite is inside the car: only has the belief.

We don’t have location only physique- structures have location.. but the body-machine has ‘’eyes’’-instruments which can see [ I already written more than one post what ‘’eyes’’ are and do.] and as the car moves with the meet body inside as it- changes location, the eyes take continual pictures which we as Infinites add the believes –considerations ‘’ I am looking I am seeing the terrain’’, yes: the eyes see, but if you as on Entity has attention not on the terrain in fact you hardly see it, let say your attention is already on  the person you are going to meet, than as on entity you are already experiencing that persons space and hardly notice what the eyes see.

Since you were already with that person you have hardly noticed the terrain and experienced the trip itself when you arrived you would think or say “ the time flew by so fast I hardly noticed anything’’ RIGHT, because you were experiencing different location.

I am losing the point what I have seen in the realization.

WE WANT TO GO EXTERIOR… but because we can’t change location than the person who wants to go exterior and let’s say want to look inside the Oval Office or somebodies mind than the belief is- have to transport self, we have to travel even as Spiritual beings in order to be in different location.

And also the beliefs is that we will ‘’see’’ when we get there the same kind of pictures as the ‘’eyes’’ are taking.

This can’t happen, never will happen because it is impossible to happen.

When the Entity-person can see into distant, observe different location from where the body is, this means that Entity is still able to switch off the instrument-eyes and observe location without their use. That ability we all have.

The Entity haven’t changed location but only changes views and this happen all the time, every time we want to see-be in different places-locations but our trouble is that we wrong believe that  when being on that location without  the body than we should be able to see the same way,  have  same colorful picture of this local as if the body would be there and see the ‘same ways ‘’as eyes do’’ in order to be real…LOL… than we would believe yes, I am really in Buckingham  Palace and I really see what the Queen is having for tea.

It is all about belief, if it is believed that ‘’I am inside the body’’ than that viewpoint-belief is what you as on Infinite experience and believe in, whatever you think -feel what’’ inside’’ means to you: and that meaning-reality is totally personal and therefore different from any other entities and that is your truth.

When the person wants to ’’see’’ into distant location but can’t no matter how desperately wants that experience will not be able because that person has been stuck with understanding-belief that only the ‘’eyes can see’’ perceive and there is no other ways  any one can observe –see anything without this instrument-eyes: Won’t be able to observe anything besides what these eyes see: because that belief will not allow  to have any  other truth.

We have really –really heavy-duty belief in place that ‘’eyes –instrument’’ is that eyes sees and we as Entities can’t perceive without and even when we do something we are made to believe that picture we experience is just a trick of the mind, on illusion hallucination: not real, and it can’t be real.

So the illusion is in fact is what the ‘’eyes’’ see and what we observe; that flash of  flimsy image is the real thing.

As Entities- Infinites when we no longer hindered by our own believes when no longer being stuck in them than the Entity can perceive -observe total images of objects-places regardless of distance- locations and see them not as flat pictures but what they are : holographic images –structures –mock ups of vibrating flowing colorful energy.

But that is not so exciting observe in fact after a while the Entity loses interest looking at this dimensional images of flowing energy [ when seen one , than we seen them all]  but what is fantastic- greatly-interesting  and will remain so, is that when the Entity-Infinite observes this images in the same instant gets the reason why they were created: and that than is the true understanding… unaltered understanding will hit him as cognitions.

I will not say that cognition only counts if the Entity sees holographic images, No… cognitions how they come is different for each of us.

Here you read about my adventures how my universe was created and you have your very own private Universe.. Which was created the same as mine since there is only one form of energy, but you have different understanding how it was formed and why it is as is.  🙂