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here is a load-down on responsibility

Far as I am concerned matter can be taken care of-looked after, handled, but not the Intangible-Infinite.
Taking responsibility for others is just a implanted belief-consideration to make self look important, better equipped, more knowledgeable  therefore more important -superior than others are whom we are ”helping out”.

So if you cant wipe your nose I can wipe it for you, ohh please! I am nor a responsible person?? This I cant say because I believed I knew the answer but that too was erased-vanished with some other flimsy altered realities and definitely I don’t feel superior-important. One thing remain true and is a stable datum: knowledge sets one free but knowledge has to be from realizations.

Have a grand day!

PS: I should mention that ”responsibility” what is, has more to it than what I have written above: each Entity has their own beliefs on the subject which become altered over the eons, because in each life-cycle had different had different meaning. The bottom line- the basic is: as Infinite who are intangible don’t have responsibility – don’t need one either because there is nothing there needs to be helped- looked after.

But here where having life means : having bodies, well!! we have to cut nails occasionally or take a bath etc… etc… look after what we believe is ours.

but being human  playing the role as human, than has to fallow rules-regulations of the game, that is the must.

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guru-teacher? to be one needs heavy duty responsibility or ignorance: huge amount of it!

here is the reason this is not a teaching blog and I do not teach in fact I would object greatly to be called teacher or guru.

I have learned from my own mistakes I made when I was teaching and I have as Gautama and because I believed I was on the right path and I found the truth there was nothing more to be known!!! I believed I have attained enlightenment because I gotten keyed out and  keyed into on image which did not contain the same images as I have been in before therefore I believed I attained the highest level, the ultimatum!   WOW!!! that is the most idiotic or uneducated belief and really was and  because I spread my beliefs as the truth nothing but the truth I caused -mislead many into the same trap as I have fallen.

In that life I haven’t had  clue about responsibility and I did not realized the information I  given out was totally wrong and that path doing meditation only takes a person to keyed out state into the so called emptiness-void  but nerveless still part of the big picture, very much so  and it is a deadly trap. So I miss lead many and  there are many who still fallow that teaching walking into the same trap as I did than.

I had many recalls on that life-cycle and taken lots of confrontation to get me out of that crap I put self into by doing meditation etc.

I Do not teach, I cant take responsibility for others when even after so many years in session I consider self a learner, stumbling on and still continue learning from my own mistakes- altered realities which I have a accumulated over the eons.

How could I tell others what is right, what is true when I am still finding it out for my self?

And as for ””’knowing it all””’ Hell!!! those words-concept are not in my dictionary simply because if I would than I could not go into session daily  with a newly found altered concept and confront it-find out why it was said and for what purpose and just how much confusion  has caused and how it has affected my very existence.

First of all : Knowing it all is impossible because we, or I should say I haven’t the clue just how much and what is there to know.

And soon as someone believes they know it all that shows their limitation and that they have stopped -stranded some place frozen in some belief which wont allow them to know more. The very concept: knowing it all is a trap which hold the person in place: in the very beliefs-thoughts they have now=  and that ”now” was eons back, on implant.

LOL… after finishing HQS Course I believed I knew it all, WOW !!! I sure did and those poor suckers out there I just knew they did not know a thing, Than I continued and I found out I was really a superior person who knew more than any one than more sessions thousands of hour in fact cure me of my superior attitude and I realized just how little I know. And if any one things after all these years in session I don’t fall on my face, get bloody nose, or feel totally stupid when I recall and I don’t get the understanding how utterly wrong I have been, well than you are mistaken.

Bloody nose, falling and picking self up, dusting self off by confrontation is the game when living the life of solo auditing.

I know and  very aware: That stupid wrong altered reality which now I take into sessions was once the truth I lived by in other time-other place! AND BECAUSE I BELIEVED IT WAS THE TRUTH I AM  WHERE I AM NOW: looking for the truth! 🙂

Have a grand day!

 

 

 

 

I would like to emphasise once more

this blog is a journal a diary — and I do not say here in any of my posts-cognitions that this is IT!!!  this is the truth and no other exist.  The realizations are mine, therefore my truth and no one else’s!

I am emphasising the opposite: that the truth exist for each person: is what they believe in and if by chance they don’t like what they got than only they can change that belief; Example:  this apple is sweet no, not really it is on the sour side!.

Any man who claims they know it all is a fool because they still walk this planet, they still use the body-solidly anchored into it therefore they are still in the prison of their own belief.

beware of teachers -gurus who claim they have all the answers… idiots they are! they haven’t the clue what are your questions! but they already know the answers!

this blog is ””not a teaching blog”” now this said, I am doing really well and I hope you all  have the same!

when you find something interesting-give it a try see if it works and go from there.

PS: there are over 400 cogs in this blog.

 

beware….

of those persons who claim to  have the answers for you, claim : if you fallow their teachings than you will attain freedom.

No one can find your answers : since no one knows your questions therefore: no one have the answers, no one knows but you what freedom means to you.

The answers you get from others is their reality- their beliefs-how they view their  own creation-their own universe. and these answers has nothing to do with yours.

No one  knows what freedom means being out of this Universe: how could anyone possibly  know?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hello my friends.

I haven’t been writing much of late, not because I am not having sessions, that is not the reasons. I have reached the state now  I thought way back when I was doing the OT levels I would reach-attain. But of course that did not happen than and I know now -and for the past few decades that would have been impossible with few hundred hours in sessions.

We have infinite experiences and that cant be confronted with few hundred-or even few thousand hours in sessions.

The gains in knowledge-understanding is phenomenal and of course nothing to do with  what I have know before as a Mortal , realities -awareness now are on very different level.

This is a fabulous universe  and of course it is my creation and  I do not wish to write about it because I believe each person should discover for them selves the same and reading about something is not the same as walking the Path.

I look at each sessions as a learning experience because the ”cognitions”, the truth it brings and these cognitions are the knowledge which sets one free.

These daily sessions bring realizations so new so fabulous that  I am in awe, in wonder.

I wish you all the same as I am having: a fabulous adventure.

PS: if  some one care to ask questions regarding anything at all, please don’t hesitate to do so… even if the question is written in Hungarian that too is just fine. I know you are there in Budapest and I believe I met few of you when I visited about 5 years back. You were there at a small closed stadium where Hungarians met who have come from different countries  at the Vilag Latogatas. One of you wanted me to become interested in scientology 🙂

Nepal –recall.

I just seen on interesting image: I was  to think put my attention on something and soon as I have done it or just wanted to do it I heard a huge noise and seen bright-bright light plus trembling of energy.. which of course pulled my attention away what I wanted to do-think and gotten the full blast from that GONG!
 I still can hear it clearly – boing-boing -boing! I get a vogue image of on temple gong. Nepal.
 everything trembles in my head, it  feels like my head is being hit with that mallet,
 and my head feels it will explode.
 I would hear this sound for days on end… even when working on the field. There is on older monk who is watching me, but I act if I would not noticed his attention.
Back at the temple the same routine is repeated, and I cant sleep afterward because all I hear is the sounds in my head-boing-boing-boing!
 I am totally overwhelmed,
   But the sounds from the gong has eliminated the thoughts I had.. but I did not dared to put my attention or even think because I felt pain and would hear the sounds from the gong sooo I put my attention on my feet!
Slowly as the days passed I trained self to feel the feet, the ground  than after who know how many days passed finally little by little I could put  my attention on the ground away from the body from the head.
 I become the terrain! I felt everything what went on under my feet!
 Through the years of practice my attention fallen away from the body and went  where I stepped and on what I picked up-sensed through the soles; how the Earth felt when this was  achieved in totality: thoughts have stopped and there was harmony: being one with Nature.  

reflection on the water by Australian artist, fish can be seen swimming !

 

Image

simply beautiful

wanting….

desiring, wishing  …

i seen on incident where a young man incredibly handsome-beautiful being delight to be hold: perfect in every ways contacted a disease in which his body swelled become covered with inflamed pus filled sores, his agony was sheer hell as he lived-experienced  this decaying-rutting mass. The old self-beauty which he identified with was gone so was the light he believed he was and  now unrecognisable and as he way laying on his death bed he realized all was in vain… the life he had was worthless because it was not real and this what he experienced was his punishment for wanting desiring to have!

After leaving his body he returned to be on angel– to his earlier mock-up and he just knew: wanting to be a human, want to be a body brought him nothing more than suffering, agony, fears, because ”wanting” leads to have and while being a human that is having: loses and sorrow.

As listened to his realization I too seen for me what many of my ”wanting’s” has brought and from this we both learned and seen all the dangers what  lurks  under the surface of the so innocent concept of ”wanting”.

 

LOL…LOL..LOL.. you are looking for the truth? want to know who you really are?

realization: the thing is  we have learned, we been told:  WE  WILL FIND OURSELF IF WE  LOOK ””’examine””” what is inside us and when we do: we find who we really are! “””” This is the biggest lie ever created and believed in, because what we find inside is not who we are, what we are but we find implanted thoughts-considerations which tells us who we are! ”’  and tells us what are our limitations! and that is that!

the thing is: inside- outside …. having it describes matter.. 🙂

this is the beginning the staring point in discovering the true self: the Infinite.

On the battle field

 
When going into battle persons -soldiers are hyped up  knowing they must win or die this gives them heavier-stronger simmer- and this means they are now ”energised”!
They feel more solid and can withstand incoming heavy energies and  can face it.. confront it easier..
HEAVY sounds, cannon fire, bomb exploding machines guns rattling screaming from low flying planes from overhead also helps to erase any personal feeling-sensations the persons own energy: which contain smallness-being little, alone=singular:  in fact the personal energy field is eliminated by that much heavier-denser field : the battle field and the soldiers become one : and now the soldiers having this NEW BODY and this power the soldiers can accomplish incredible things.. which humanly not possible in ordinary circumstance! 
This means experiencing different fields of energies we act differently.
 Same happens for players in any other game, they are given pep talks, big incentives , cheering of the crowd, girls strutting their stuff.. has to be pretty.. sex to is in incentive for the players. All is been done to change the persons energy field to make it more vibrating-stronger so they can win that way. The stronger -heavier energy who has it is always becomes the winner! But of course this only happens when being a human and when some one wants to be a real magician, be the usual self this heavy field will not let that happen.
I must mention even in marriages the heavy duty person.. the heavy fisted one, the domineering party is the leader. MY WAY OR THE HIGHWAY! [my younger sisters favorite belief and we no longer talk because  am on the road! hehehe]

The ultimate invention

The ultimate object was created which has destroyed the Sole-Entity-Spirit rendered it helpless  made the Spirit believe that it is helpless, without Willpower and  his intention not working, not affective: just cant make things happen by ”intending” and that object is the Machine.

And had to become a machine -Robot in order to control, have the belief of control.

Machines have total control over the Entity.

Don’t believe me??? OK… than : intend the spoon move by it self, the car start, the chair move for you, the door close or open for you when you want it!. The light to turn on and the potato to be sliced by the knife but not using hand of the robot in which you are in.

Have the lawn cut -trimmed by intention, and don’t use phone or computer for communication!! Intend a sunny day.. or intend rain to fall… go for it! Have what you need to appear front of your eyes.. need I say more?  PS::::: IF ANY ONE OF YOU BELIEVE IT IS NORMAL NOT TO HAVE THOSE THINGS HAPPEN – that is JUST NORMAL BECAUSE NOBODY CAN DO IT: than you really have a problem: The machine has achieved what it was designed for! Made you believe that you are what you were made to believe.

angel

all the years I been in session I never seen angels, not once, I seen many-many different mock-up as bodies, but not angels and as I am confronting suddenly a huge image flows out of this body! Big angel with towering wings! This surprised me of course and images started to come and seen how this huge bright being become slowly a human and just melted into the group.

Also I realised and seen me being on angel having tall towering bright wings and I knew I always had them. Interestingly the heavy sensation on my upper back where wings usually are has been hurt, had burning sensation  all my life and this sensation just vanished soon as the recall was confronted. In this recall I experienced how I dragged self in the mud… wings become heavy and soaked.. Well, I have been many things over the eons.. I can now say I have been an angel  have stood at the left side of the golden throne and sported towering wings of light.. Hallelujah!

I have in one of my recall battled Satan [earlier post] and of course sessions-confronting bad-evil is battling against the Darkness.

Here is something I copied out of Wiki.

Saint Michael” redirects here. For other uses, see Saint Michael (disambiguation).

Michael
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A 13th-century Byzantine icon from Saint Catherine’s Monastery
Archangel
Venerated in Christianity, Islam, Judaism
Canonized Pre-congregational saint
Feast
  • November 8 (New Calendar Eastern Orthodox Churches)
  • November 21 (Old Calendar Eastern Orthodox Churches)
  • September 29 (“Michaelmas“)
  • May 8 (Tridentine Calendar)
  • 12th of each month in Coptic calendar (Coptic Churches)
  • many other local and historical feasts
Attributes Archangel; Treading on a dragon; carrying a banner, scales, and sword
Patronage Protector of the Jewish people,[1] Guardian of the Catholic Church,[2] Vatican City,[3] Germany, France, Ukraine, Brussels, Kiev, Arkhangelsk, Dumfries, Argao, Cebu, Philippines, police officers,[4][5] military, grocers, mariners, paratroopers, firefighters, paramedics, sickness[6]

Michael (Hebrew pronunciation: [mixaˈʔel]; Hebrew: מִיכָאֵל‎, translit. Mîkhā’ēl, lit. Who is like God?‘; Greek: Μιχαήλ, translit. Mikhaḗl; Latin: Michahel;Coptic: ⲙⲓⲭⲁⲏⲗ, Arabic: ميخائيل‎, translit. Mīkhā’īl) is an archangel in Judaism, Christianity, and Islam. In Roman Catholic, Eastern Orthodox, Anglican, and Lutheran traditions, he is called “Saint Michael the Archangel” and “Saint Michael”. In the Oriental Orthodox and Eastern Orthodox traditions, he is called “Taxiarch Archangel Michael” or simply “Archangel Michael”.

Michael is mentioned three times in the Book of Daniel. The idea that Michael was the advocate of the Jews became so prevalent that, in spite of the rabbinical prohibition against appealing to angels as intermediaries between God and his people, Michael came to occupy a certain place in the Jewish liturgy.

In the New Testament Michael leads God’s armies against Satan‘s forces in the Book of Revelation, where during the war in heaven he defeats Satan. In the Epistle of Jude Michael is specifically referred to as “the archangel Michael”. Christian sanctuaries to Michael appeared in the 4th century, when he was first seen as a healing angel, and then over time as a protector and the leader of the army of God against the forces of evil. By the 6th century, devotions to Archangel Michael were widespread both in the Eastern and Western Churches. Over time, teachings on Michael began to vary among Christian denominations.

PS:

Some years back before scientology someone told me she seen wings on me.. Sure I thought than and if I have wings than you have rocks in your head !

Angel, being one is implant of course a valance and I haven’t the clue what their purpose has been or is now.  And by now I have recalled immense Overts and I know I am definitely haven’t been on angel but if this valance means purity well that is achieved through eraser of heavy stuff so I heave reached ”purity” .   We only can recall some incidents when we have erased other levels which are the cover- hold the person in occlusion.  I also recalled me being ”healer” on the track more than one occasion.

But I still don’t know what angels do! PS: AS I AM SITTING HERE HAVING MY SECOND CUP OF COFFEE AS ALL ANGELS SHOULD HAVE 🙂 I REALIZED I FELT VERY DIFFERENTLY! COG: ANGELS ARE NOT AFFECTED BY GRAVITY! I feel light as a feather as I should be because by now I had erased affects of Gravity. OK the body walks, but the sensations of heaviness are gone, feeling of weight etc..

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another day… promises are like intentions: they are put out there and …

I been exploring ”intention” how it works or why it do not work and by now I can say I chalked up over 6000 session hours on this subject… I explored so many experiences, which i can say were by the thousands and every one of these experiences-recall brought some form of understanding why intentions worked or not… no matter how  I was intending: nothing happened outside of me slowly realizing that INTENTIONS DO NOT WORK IF I DONT DO SOMETHING ABOUT IS MY SELF, make it happen.

Of course that is how the intention works, there is no other ways we can have something by just intending and waiting for it to happen! OH… the Universe provides! Put it out into the Universe and it will happen! The Universe will give all we have to do is to intend, put out the postulate! Really? I to bought this concept my self but lately it become unreal… because how could the universe provide: is there some place a Factory in this universe to which you send your ”intentions” postulates”: requests and they manufacture the requested item and when it is ready they pronto mail it back deliver it to you with UPS?

Intention-postulate: these words have a meaning which we all know. So is “putting it out into the universe” OK…  since to me  that sounds likes as ”putting out the cat for the night” but at least when you doing that you get results:  the cat is real, [sort of] etc.. but where the hell the intention goes:to me remains not a mystery but understanding that it goes nowhere but remains where it was created. And If you wont be doing something to make it happen for self, than trust me: it will never happen!

You can ask: Can we make it happen if we erase- eliminate all the counter intention?

Good question, very good but not one person =ex-scn. have realised that those counter intentions were not created to a stop or make it happen what ever is intended now but those recalled ”intentions” were part of other  incidents as sort of creating ingredient which made those things happen or not to happen than and that than will not work now!

BUT HERE IS THE TRUTH: the implant which I call HUMAN IMPLANT was made eons back and it is by now solid sitting petrified as a long forgotten lump of sugar  but time = what has happened around it has altered it a bit… but still remains the same implant.

NOW I GIVE YOU A CHALLAGE, IF YOU CAN DO THIS PLEASE LET ME KNOW!

How could any one put on intention- postulate into a illusion which was made who knows when and change it- alter it now?

The Teck works… no doubt about it, but the solo auditor has to find out for self how the universe was put together and remained as is for ”self” and just because some one said : put the intention out into the universe well.. how one person would know and had the insight to know all about the universe when this person too has hit the bottom of the TS.. same as us… and from here there is nothing more can be seen but altered reality.

By the way today I finally had a realization on a belief-consideration which made me do something which I really did not wanted to do but was compelled to do. THIS HAS TAKEN 18 TO FIND! and I have had a hell of a lot of session on this item!

So those of you who believe a magic wand or the new tech… will give you that fast exit from the BANK : I have news for you: IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN! Key outs  covers the muck but what we need is  erasers-lots of lots of cognitions, millions of them

Am I just putting you on??? Go look up on the internet and read the information on Milky Ways: and the scientists are assuming there are Planets which has life among those zillions of stars. Now The Milky way is tinny in comparison to other Galaxies and there are unknown amount and Galaxies out there so We lived for eons and had many experiences as stars.. so why any one believes that there is a easy way out when that promise was not made by a person who haven’t  gone out?

What this has to do with intention: do they work or not? So is it worth to have sessions if there is so much to do? For me yes,  this is the only worthwhile adventure I care to experience because I know outside this : I been there I done it all: many times over

Well, at least I know I have lots to do.

PS: I written more than once : what I write about is what I see, realize at end of the sessions and definitely not the truth for others, just mine. We all have to find our own truth and I am the lost person who would say  this is it kids, this is The Path to fallow… Hell, how could I say such a thing since I haven’t the clue where I will end up as on Entity!

 

 

 

 

 

Just ended the sessions which brought

a major realization. There are cognitions and cognitions: each is vital link in the chain and one cant be – cant happen without the other. But one of the realization I have had today brought more than feeling good but the understanding just how I was being Stuck in one experience which was so far back on the track where those ”days” ,most experiences I have had were without the body: yet living having a full life.

And by being stuck in this experience and seeing this for the first time and  how this worked  made me realize how this has affected -controlled the rest of my experiences  and why I have become  a loser.. and I did not even knew I was a loser., LOL.. in fact i thought I was doing really well, but  just accepted the loses as  part of life: like life happens and  can lose, and that is normal. !!

My other realization brought understanding nearly broke ”my heart” it felt it was braking, [ no piece of soft meat can brake LOL.. but the heart can be stopped by a sudden jolt by heavy energy,]  but of course finding out the truth is not what brakes the heart but  the thought which hit me hard:  ”HOW DIFFERENT MY LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN IF NOT FOR THAT STUPID BELIEF I LIVED WITH, CONROLED BY! ” knowing this  hurts for a moment  that loss about the past , than that momentary regret vanishes.. because the truth knowing it , only brings happiness.

These days I am having sessions what I would have called  long time back when still in the Mission or at ST Hill.. Doing -being OT sessions, gaining understanding how I ”lived” long ways back when Track did not exist yet.. when bodies where not in use or when.  lived life in-between times when not having bodies.

Daily I have much as 4-6 hours  and of course not just one topic or two but what ever interests me I confront immediately. I get up in the morning doing the usual must: Wash etc.. feed the birds have a cup of coffee and the session starts.. Today I had 7 hours it is 9: 22 and I just finished again with a huge heart braking wonderful win.

What I experience -see in the recalls: living without bodies are what I can say I dreamed about  in the early days  what will be like when I become on OT.

recall hot from session ..

Located a heavy mass of energy which held Entities and these Beings were stuck could not continue because they could not see out of this thick field of nothingness.

I asked the who they were and  when I asked this question I could see forms -shapes colors and I could  see they were ”Caravan” containing few dozen persons who lost their bearing and could not continue. In this moment the heavy milky nothingness vanished I seen the Cosmos in its glory and a very bright guiding star  which was used by the Caravan to navigate -orient self: the Caravan moving across the field of deep sapphire blue studded with stars and the Caravan was actually fallowing a bright orange energy ribbon  the highway  where the camels were walking on.

As I set here mouth open marveling on the beauty and perfection of this happening in the NOW, this moment I knew I was not looking at some illusion  a mocked up thing but I was witnessing what was happening in the Spiritual Realm.

Of late my sessions -recalls are all about activities how we operate: live as Entities -bodiless in the Universe. I have written in earlier post that we do spend very little time within the implants-being bodies but we live most of our experiences bodiless and let me tell you these experiences I recall surpasses all experiences which the Implants have  offered for us to ”live”.

After all Implants are the imitations and were made from the real life we live as Entities.

The Problem was and is that the implants were made of thick glue like heavy energy and this heavy mass captured us -held within the implant.

PS: I would like to add that I have explored great many beliefs considerations why we cant see more than what the ”eyes” see: which is nothing more than a part of the machine. What the ”eyes”  show is a cover.. acts like a cover same as a cover on the pot, long as the Entity is looking at this cover cant see what actually is in the pot.

As we Entities  looking at implant pictures we cant see what is really going around us in the Spiritual Realm.

Ohhh .. I know many humans believe that they don’t want to see more than what is front of them because seeing beyond that would be horrid, frightening !!  WELL!!!! that is what the Implants wants you to believe meanwhile being in the implant most of its content is horrid-tormenting- painful agonizing crap.

Example? just one! being born.. LOL. now that it self is a bloody horrific painful experience starting  the ”good life” with a bang! BUT OF COURSE BY NOW ALL THE HORRORS ARE JUST NORMAL THINGS- HAPPENINGS BECAUSE AFTER ALL THOSE AROUND US HAVING THE SAME EXPERIENCES THEREFOR that has to be the TRUTH!

 

Erhu is the only instrument which  cry.. Magnificent.

 

 

great game of annihilation

I have known for years because of the realizations I have head about how the Implant is set up and  how many incredible Traps it contain.

These well hidden Traps serve -have different purposes and one of this  Trap was made   ”to eliminate to annihilate the opposing power”’, to take the powerful out of the game and with that achieved their game remains in place and they have become the long standing Winners! : the Only game of value!

The other Trap is of course to keep the Entities-Spirits from escaping.
This game – this Implant Is the Human game: the human realities. Its value is that those who are in it they believe that they are alive, that they live and outside of this there is nothing.
The Implant is set up that the Player-person-being can play different roles, embark on different adventures and to have fun and by being occupied at all time but always to remain writhing the boundaries of the implant!
One of the adventures this Implant offers what I call: Looking for Enlightenment..
This game adventure is a long one, takes a whole life time and even than the participant is not sure will attain that goal: spiritual freedom= total separation from the implant=bank, but if he/she has attained Enlightenment =has hit the jackpot that so called Nirvana.
And by attaining this Nirvana thing: the believer has this lie in place that now has attained the top level the OT State, that is no more after this and now they know it all, and they are definitely out of the game because where they are at there is ”nothing” they are no longer part of being human, to them death don’t exist because they know they are above all that.
Full of shit!  That is the Trap it self: the ”belief” that all is attained, that there is no more and that they are now part of the Universe that they are now its fiber.
But in reality, those who were and are looking for the WAY OUT in fact are
trapped into a game and these persons swallowed this crap hook line and sinker.
Because the attainment of so called Enlightenment is nothing more than elimination self, take self out of the game, give up power and no longer be a frat to the Implant.
Meditation, getting keyed out from the Implant is not the answer, in fact takes the person into a ”dead-end”  and from where will return .. will be pulled back into the Implant and will have that so called life again rom where will be looking for the way out again.
By the way the meanings of those significances ”attained” gained.. seen while meditating are the same as the road signs on the highway : ”’ you are doing good, keep on going, don’t give up your close, you are almost out” because if you don’t continue you know you will remain on the same level as those poor saps who don’t know a thing: but you are different, you are the winner you will attain the Enlightenment, that Nirvana that promised heaven! [ that alone this promise what is yet to come should be a warning the  person is walking into a trap. But thinking-reasoning is not on the menu for those who meditate, but has to fallow blindly the sett rules! ]

Of course by wanting to be different and looking for the answer to get out is the very Indicator that you are the frat to the implant and your persistence — your willingness to give up all in order to be free is the very indicator that you are powerful therefore you are dangerous and could cause problems , interrupt the working order of the implant: [so you are eliminated by given a wonderful game]
The game of Meditation offers a great benefit! HARMONY WITH SELF, WITH OTHERS AND WITH THE UNIVERSE! WOW! What a valuable package!
Well, this is the purpose the person has attain from this ”meditation game” : by attaining Harmony with that achieved you no longer hold danger to the Implant. Perfect trap. No power, no game, given it all up=you are out!
BUT YOU SAY: I feel so good meditation makes me feel I am top of the world!
That is the point: you feel good than  you don’t interfere, will stay where you are at meanwhile  you believe that you are the cause of your destiny.

as the saying goes something like this: when arrived realized that haven’t left!

Perfect Trap is when something offered which has a great value: freedom from the trap yet that very belief its-self is the Trap.

 

I found one more reason

in fact a very good reason why we have given up -stopped practising ”magic” or made ”miracles” to happen: we done this simply because THE IMPLAT we lived: its CONTENT supplied everything what we believed we needed in order to have a ”life” .

But of course by believing  we had everything  we have forgotten what it really meant to be free and live the life of instant creation… in abundance and beauty.

Intention=magic… assigned power

assigned power…

”Intention” use of magical power has been one of  my favorite subject to have a session on: to look for reasons: the counter intentions, to find those negative thoughts-considerations  which blocks off, wont let the intention to happen, to materialize and with that have conditions changed.

The sessions: had ”hundreds” of them over the years and they were not fruitless, cognitions poured in and my awareness expanded in the form of understanding how the universe I created  were held in place by the opposing forces, which are of course too were just considerations-beliefs and nothing more: illusions of my own making.

But of course all ”opposing forces” are nothing more than different beliefs-thought on the same subjects in these I include the subject of Magic..  by the way when some one wants to levitate something that to is ”intending”.

So… I taken off thousands of layers and found many-many thousands of reasons in form of cognitions why that ”intention” can not, will not materialize  no matter how strongly is wished-intended: I have mocked up repeatedly and were held in place with that power of intention: yet did not work, nothing has happened in the physical universe. [ BUT THERE IS A REASON WHY INTENTION DO NOT WORK IN THE PHISICAL UNIVERSE!!!!!!]

Long ways back at the beginning  ”we wanted to create a stable universe” for our self and for this reason we done much to eliminate our ”intention” which caused instant ”having” and by having everything instantly we did not have  the past or could not have future… we did not have continuum but only had Now= the instant experience. Therefore we could not have game conditions, we could not have others in our universe, we could only have self and our own creation in the form of that instant experience.

When we still had our intention materialize instantly that Universe was the Spiritual Universe=Theta Universe, that Universe was created what we would call now BY MAGIC. Having Magical Power means: working intention which is not blocked by opposing intention.

It was very difficult, almost impossible to eliminate our natural  the ”intention to cause” but of course the answer was finally found in the form of ”IMPLANTS”. While we are ”living” the life, being in that valance: believing we are a body etc.. we do not have ”freewill” we cant change the content of the implant. The implants are mock-ups.. same as the movies you have seen and as we cant change the outcome of the movies, same goes for the so called life we live.

In todays session I found one the most powerful ”counter intention” which totally to the last remaining sparkle eliminated our ability to Intend: the use of Magic and that was ”””’ WHEN WE HAVE ASSIGNED POWER TO OTHERS”””’: that other, or others were more powerful than we: self : with that assigned power-consideration in place we stopped self from having our  intentions to materialize and we now totally become dependent on others for our existence. We have given away our power to create, that ”intention- freewill” we longer were the cause, but an effect.

The main, most powerful person who is of course just on illusion to this imaginary person we assigned the most power!!!

To Gods: that they were the power  who could create, who could make miracles, who were the cause over us and who granted life or taken life away from us! with that in place: we fallen, taken place at the lowest level on the Tone Scale.

With power of intention assigned to others we also created a lie and that is altered reality and that altered reality is the cause of solidity and our belief in ”solidity” as that assigned power: works this way: we cant lift up anything with intention, we cant move thing by intention, we cant alter shapes-forms by intention… we are helpless unless we have the body, move things with the use of hands, be in different location but that only can be if the body is moved. Hear, see, communicate can only be done by the use of the body. We have assigned our ability to the body.

The truth vanishes in on instant, but lies hunts us, stay with us forever.

 

Intention… what is… yes, in fact it is power, The Personal Power…

 

Intention… what is… yes, in fact it is power, The Personal Power…

which should not be confused with any form of energy…. Personal power or Intention has no mass- bulk or quantity yet causes change on matter.

The regular energy which can be expressed example: as in the punch of the boxer: that energy which is landing on the body, that is energy… it can be gauged, can be measured just what it can do and alter that another physical object. Puts the indentation on the rib cage. Etc….

But it is that invisible intention what makes the gloved fist move and land that devastating blow the first place.. Since the body itself does not think… don’t have will power and can’t move without the connection from the spiritual being… The Static=intention… Static is the being itself, so far I have not experienced gained understanding if there is separation in  “what is intention or what is static”…it just is=the intangible-infinite.

Intention is the highest form of communication, postulate is one notch bellow intention, therefore contains light vibration-energy.

The postulate is pictures: hold pictures so it has matter already.. Movements are series of pictures… postulates in motion…Example I will hit him here than next blow will land there the next will break the nose, causes the temporarily disconnection in the in his thought pattern In fact that is the blow which will causes the opponents  temporally disconnection from his own ”intention”, by losing his INTENTION to knock out even for a second has caused the other persons to win since the winners intention to knock out was not interrupted.. With his next punch he slides his “intention-postulate into place, he wins!!!!

Also he has less counter intentions on winning therefore his intention has less- fewer barriers walls…will be knocked out less. His intentions will  happen more frequently. Winners  those who are more successful  in ”life”  than others have less barriers-wall- in place in the from of counter-negative intentions.

The Truth about OT8:

By Maurice Green: The following was posted on a private facebook group a few weeks ago.

There has been much discussion over the years about the relative merits of the various versions of OT8 as delivered by the CoS.  (There have been at least 5 that I know of).   Some were happy with the results, some weren’t, and some were sorry they did the level at all.  So what’s the truth about OT8?   Did LRH ever fulfill the promise made in Ron’s Journal 39 (1985) where he said:
“You will enjoy New OT VIII when you do it. It is uniquely addressed to you.
I don’t want to mention too much at this time, but I will tell you that it addresses a vital necessity for a thetan’s total freedom: I have discovered the primary reason for amnesia on the whole track, and believe me, this you need to handle.”
Fortunately, the answer is “Yes”.  It was the original version that was being done on the Freewinds for about 6 months in 1988.  Unfortunately, it was never properly delivered and the result for many was disastrous.  I spoke at length with someone who did the level in July 1988.  The data I got from him was as follows:   The pre-OT was instructed to look into their own life and find some area they were unhappy with or wanted to handle. There was no requirement to limit one’s attention in any way – anything that was of interest could be addressed.   ARC breaks, O/Ws, implants, engrams, anything at all.  Once found, they were directed to find an appropriate piece of tech that would handle that area.  (At this point, the person was supposedly done with NOTs but if any of that was to come up, of course they would take it up).  There was no requirement to use any particular piece of tech.  Any valid Scn/Dian process was ok to use.  The important thing was to get a result.  There were a few suggestions.  To find a charged area,  one could do an Assessment by Dynamics, or read History of Man (with a meter).  But these were suggestions only.
So what went wrong?  Once a person had completed his/her item and had a “big win” that was it – they were encouraged to attest.  After all there was a “time limitation” – 2 or 3 weeks on the Freewinds and “you’re done”.   What a joke!   That’s it?  One big win and you’re done?   OT8 as envisioned by LRH was supposed to be a long level.  In the “Student Briefing” HCOB of May 1980, he calls it “the third and final wall of fire” and says “the rundown is long and can be arduous”.    There are many, many big wins to be had here and spending a year or more on it makes total sense to me.  (I’ve been on it for 5 1/2 years already and still not done).
   I was solo auditing for many years, mostly in the area of NOTs.  There was a big change mid-2012 when my sessions started to go much deeper, mostly handling my own track.
Elizabeth: the above is from Maurice and I am in total agreement with how one has to audit, have sessions on and without knowing that this kind of sessions in which we handle anything as it comes in was  called by LRH OT8 I find have it on my own and have been doing just that since 1976 when I started to solo in order to handle the ARCB’s I had after the OT Levels when I too naturally  gotten heavily keyed in when got back from ST Hill. and returned to ”reality”= no job, no money etc.
Here I am and still have daily sessions, and in fact I live, I stay with the body in order to be able to continue just that.

climax: sexual the sensation which it represent and is the interpretation in solid form of

the real thing but that really thing is not included in the so called Bank= bank contains heavy-strong sensations and of course ”climax” which is caused by something like rubbing two dry sticks together to bring a sparkle and to ignite the sticks to flame.

The rubbing causes heat as you all know, plus adding mental pictures well, hell, you all know the outcome.

No one ever gone free, leave the bank by experiencing the sensation of climax… in fact for many this sensation includes lots of pain,  hard work and total exhaustion. And many believes because sinking lower being hit again with heavy sensations, [[suddenly the bank presses from every sides]] to have another climax is the answer: that will right everything! Just look at the human race where is it…  billions of daily climaxes’  haven’t pushed the race out if its misery, up on the TS.

LRH put the act of sex on the bottom of the TS. if I remember correctly and I totally agree with this and happiness on the top… again rightly so. We all know this, nothing new here.

I just want to emphasise the difference between the sensation of the sex thingy and happiness.

Because I have experienced both by now I really know the difference: one is like drinking from the Spring!!

When I was a child in Hungary war time our parents moved us from Budapest back to a small village called Hereg where my father was born, thinking we were safe there, far from the war zone. But sadly the heaviest fighting was around -in these region so I as a child have seen experienced the horrors of war: huge heavy game condition full of drama, hate, accusation, power struggle, losses , full of blame ohhh the fun in which every one can partake in, add they own considerations. WOW..LOL.. yes I know it is easy to see it differently and laugh from where I am at!

Back to the Springs, the water!

But I also recall-remember beauty great beauty =the meadows in hot sunny day. Green lush grass all-around us, here and there clumps of giant Willows and it was quiet, so very quiet this silence too had a brilliant quality, than  the mountains-low hills which framed the valley held all this in place! The blue above was so crystal that one ping, a small ping with ones little finger could have shattered that vastness.

We walked bare foot we were always barefoot  and the coolness of grass and the cold spongy soft soil  under our feet felt delightful. We just walked, but Dad knew this place so well and lead us to Springs which could not be seen from the tall grass till we were right beside three small holes in the ground from where pure clear water was bubbling up! He laughed when he has seen our delight-pleasure as we scooped up the water and drank  this heavenly liquid diamonds: I haven’t forgotten this sight because of its beauty.

On the other hand when thirst is so owerwhelming and the person who feels this is willing to drink from the gutter because there is no choice, there is no other source available  and that is the sexual climax in comparison to the happiness which can be felt on occasions when  key out happens or enough of the Bank is erased as in my case and this happiness  becomes a normal state: hehehe more and more often, LOL, outside of course when all Hell brakes lose.

I seems lately my attention was captured by the fluctuation: the happy state has become more frequent, so I thought I better have another look-session.

Here is the session: my fist thought was: HAPPINESS IS A SALUTION.. bingo! blowdown!

every one is looking for it, want it, do everything in their power to get hold of it, because we all know that happiness ”in the state of happiness” the Implanted realties, the Bank do not exists.
happiness is outside of life: what is believed to be life. yawn…

HUGE REALIZATION!!!!
happiness is suppressed, totally suppressed BECAUSE IF HAPPINESS WOULD BE PRESENT THAN THERE WOULD  BE NO GAME! SO happiness has to be suppressed at all cost.. just a glimpse is allowed.. here and there.

So fleeting, so rare and so precious are those moments.
Nothing exist in happiness.. happiness is the highest the lightest sensation and while one experience this sensation nothing else exist!
There are no beliefs present, there aren’t any considerations about anything, there are no other sensations are present: therefore there are no problems one has to fix, there aren’t any  ARCB’s , there is no fear, worry or care there are no needs or wants, no one feels loss, or disappointments… just one lives and lets others to live…

While one is happy all is well, totally fine: peachy pink!

“”””””while in this state sessions are not needed or wanted because there is nothing to have session on!””””” LRH knew this and written about this subject.

Over the years I learned from my own experiences that there are different levels  on being keyed out and that depends just how much of the Bank has been removed-erased. And for this reason the keyed out state=happiness when items erased becomes very  different as one erases more and more of the heavy masses.

It is like when the water is murky full of particles and slowly it becomes cleaner-clearer and than it turns brilliant in the light, and this is the only way I can explain what I experience these days.

By the way I must add this… I used to wonder what would be like living existing when not having a body, would I be still having a life?

Well, yes very much so, and what kind that too is depends on just how much of the Bank has been erased… and do I have again a body-a meat body? NO!!

No one needs a body to live, to experience that is a myth a bank-implanted belief and it was placed there to keep you within  the walls inside the banks and to make you return over and over. As I said Being human is being a prisoner of ones own beliefs.

I have mentioned before that every solid object is of course the interpretation of our thought.  Clocks watches are representing ”time” passing of time which in fact don’t exist.. LOL… just try to tell this to a person who just bought a 70 million dollar watch!

Now  how one could interpret a sensation into a solid form? The sensation exist by it self , but being a human, this human beliefs that to be real has to be in solid form !

So they created  male and female organs or a strong hand will do the same LOL.. and Valla.. they now could have  that solid thingy called climax! Has to be solid! that is the important factor!

 

 

 

 

 

This is a WOW session +news about LRH doing well. fantastic cogs.. happy as a lark… no, feel much better !

I waken today feeling incredible happy, knowing something good will happen, it is a magical sensation.. total key out what ever … and this is the way I felt before I was hit by the Flue-Influenza  and that was the most powerful illness I had the pleasure to experience this life!

So by having this ”’powerful” sensation again put me on my guard: waken my awareness to the fact what just happened little over 3 weeks back…From total happiness to Hell!

So I decided to have a session on this ”total happiness thingy” hehehe..

I haven’t written down all the commands or answers I got, therefore this is just part of the session.

Start:

THIS SENSATION IS SO POWERFUL!!!! what has this sensation done to me?
made me believe something will happen something good will happen, so other occasions i bought tickets, went played lotto, in my youth gotten involved with a man, because i just ”’knew”’ it was good wow… none of it ever worked as i seen it would!

i feel this sensation front of the chest, big strong VERY POWERFUL SENSATION….!!!
i just seen self throwing a javelin when i felt this sensation.. the javelin went incredible distance! sort of vanished… sand was all-around and the javelin vanished among the distant rock-hills. i don’t see any other person, but sand and more sand….

[ session continues]’

oh this sensation is also very deep… had it too when i believed in god! shit, god again! no wonder people believe god is everywhere, they believe it because the implants are infused with this idea. crap.

WHAT HAS THIS SENSATION DONE TO ME?

made me believe that it has something to do with magic.. winning, something good will happen, made me wait for that something good, but never has come!

BLOWDOWN!!!! TRUST!!! IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH TOTAL TRUST! when we are totally out of the implanted crap of course we have total trust, trust in self, in our ability that we can do-have what ever we want——- here at this level trust is normal, we never ever can lose…wow… no wonder when doing the OT levels had those huge cogs.. we believed we have reached total freedom from the Bank and we reached the END…and we never ever  will return to that negative state!!! wow!!!  because in that incredible state there isn’t any negative ..  while being-experiencing this fantastic state nothing ever can harm one and because the negative is the implanted crap.

Not understanding how all this put together cause great disappointments-great losses! and i too have my share.. ohhhh so many of them!

WOW…. TRUST!!!!!!  back to trust unwavering- total trust… knowing that nothing negative will happen again, in fact those  negative; ideas are not present in that magnificent state which exist outside  because that State is outside of the implanted thingy=Bank.

Here in this State JUST BLID TRUST exist: the knowing we can do anything!  and that leads to loss.. to negative happening.. totally opposite, wow…. totally opposite will happen! wow…
yawn… new thought come in LOL… from the Bible wow, that too is crap…
yield … not to yield to temptation.. that is a warning! betting… buying tickets.. playing slut machine is yielding to temptation..

BUT SOMETHING WRONG HERE!!!!!! very wrong—-SOMETHING WRONG WITH THIS SAYING!
NOT TO WISH, NOT TO INTEND FOR SELF BUT BLIND ACCEPTANCE OF WHAT WE ARE GIVEN, WHAT WE ALREADY HAVE…hehehe.. so the bastards rigged it.. if we wished, wanted we gotten the opposite what we wanted so after awhile no one dared to wish knowing that leads to bad experiences… LOL.. these implants are brilliantly thought out!

””””so when feeling incredibly happy, top of the universe, outside of all shit, where we can have it all, where we are at cause.. and that knowingness is the key  sensation-word which leads back triggers the door open into Hell again.”””’

examples: two people getting married, they are totally keyed into this incredible sensation: they just know they have it, their union will be nothing but good-happiness… than comes the total disaster: fight hate, they  end up bitter, loathing, in total loss, even murder can be.
Some one invest large some.. their life savings because they just know-feel, trust totally that they make it…wow… they lose everything. they not gaining anything in fact they go into deep debt… might even commit suicide ! lose friends, self respect…wow.. from hope…..from total key out from the implant where they know-feel nothing can stop them they can do –achieve anything they fall back to death.. despair, loss, lowest level any one can feel be at.

This incredible sensation of being keyed out brings on disasters: heavy incidents… this what has happened to those who done the OT levels too and to LRH himself… he gotten keyed out sooooo many times over the years and more he gotten keyed out more he were hit with heavy stuff and at the end he no longer could get out of that heavy thing … So people judged him heavily.. but judgement was wrong === their evaluation was not from knowing.. but their evaluation was just assumption.
I too pulled in this Flue experience when in the ”haapiness level=outside of it all”’ which would have caused ”death” but since i no longer can ”die”’ i did not kicked the bucket.. hehehe..

Reaching the state of the Native State, being out, that state will not last cant last because it is fixed … soon as one reaches it, gains that level is hit by some heavy experience which places that person to the lowest level on the Tone Scale..

Than the fight-struggle begins again: looking for the way out. it is like the hamster running in the wheel.

This is how the Bank is set up. And till all the traps are in place  and there are thousands of them, no Entity can stay on that top level of the Tone Scale for too long before the brick outhouse comes and buries the Entity again.

So, many blames LRH for their own failure, and in fact their failure has nothing to do with LRH and the Tech because the Tech works and LRH+ his friends done well, better than well!

I have heard from a very reliable source that LRH is in a new body and auditor and I am greatly pleased by this news!

PS  PS   PS  PS   I love  writing because as I write and after writing – having new realization since awareness expanded and I get new different views.

So  I just got back from the favorite green grocer and it is raining here, nothing new to us this is winter after all.

And I still feel absolutely fantastic and knowing that I am after all in the Universe which is made up from energy and of course the considerations what these masses of energy means, I could not help but wonder what my next experience will be.. sooooo looking forward to it regardless its content.. that don’t make much difference but what will be the outcome after the confrontation weeeell, that will be the reward for having that experience.

Another PS…. the happiness what I feel is ”not caused– do not depends on any happenings in connection to something or some one”.

in fact that is the reason because there isn’t in connection, not depends on anything, I am not happy ”because”!

By the way, those persons who get keyed out because they are reading my posts=experiencing my space and feel suddenly ”steering energies which effects their sex glands and because having these sensations they believe they have fallen in love with Elizabeth!!! Hold it right there!!!!! What happens is not falling in love but feeling better and man usually associate sexual sensations with love.

So those who write to me that they have fallen in love.. please.. sort your sensations out in sessions.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Having incredible fantastically good-clear

recalls.

There is a good reason for this.

I been actively working-having sessions to improve the abilities to recall. In other word I am eliminating all the blocks reasons why I have forgotten, cant recall, cant remember, have put things behind me, don’t want to think about, etc… etc.. etc..

Most people what they do all their life? They do everything in their power, to put their experiences behind them, to be free of them: for these purposes they use daily alcohol, Oh a glass or two of wine helps to ease the daily heavies, or take drugs, medication, they eat comfort foods to move away and into something more pleasant, go for runs, meditate, pray, have sex and more sex, eat chocolate, have coffee, beat their spouses or their children, go kill some one, or have a good sleep on their experiences:  people do million other things to get away, in order to forget what ever they are in.

People in general constantly look for solutions  by  finding one with that the troublesome experience is gone-partly forgotten, become buried in the unconsciousness.

By  the time the persons reach middle age than old age, well, their awareness is eliminated, slowly sinks into oblivion, because their ability recalling-remembering is pushed away.

Then comes the time on experience when these persons cant even recall from one minute to the next what has happened to them, what have they experienced.

The new experience they have is: NOT HAVING ANY=Blank-Empty Void because that too is on experience.

What we wish for, work toward to achieve, we make it happen.

As for self I daily exercise my ability to recall, therefore Dementia, Alzheimer =moving into nothingness while still have connection to the body is not on the future track.

Few days back I had a realization just how occluded I am,  and this  understanding hit me with full force because having the Flue virus, by having sessions being the virus eliminated some barriers and new  realities, I haven’t seen before given on opportunity to explore. I just love this.

 

 

 

Being bad-having evil-bad intentions:

means knowingly causing harm..

Well, my Track is well balanced if that would not be the case I would not have a past=Track. The good is in place because the bad intentions keep them alive.

I don’t like snakes, I really don’t and when I see one in video-movies I cringe .. I even have after that nightmares.

I had sessions on this topic but again last night I watched a movie about cooking and this was about how on the orient they eat snakes, I fast forwarded that part, I just could not watch all those snakes on display , given me the shiver and this was late in the evening so I knew I be having bad dreams being chased -bitten by these critters. So in bed I started the session and of course I found the many reasons I hated snakes.. their bite what I recalled was so poisones that in most cases I was ”dead” in few seconds but I not only  felt the incredible pain but seen from outside the body how the body reacted, were affected by these poisons: not a pretty sight. Simply horrid way to go, but the ”death’s” were swift. Here in these recalls I was the victim! OHHHH POOR ME! LOL.

So I looked for O/W’s on my part and as usual we are not always on effect a victim but of course we have caused not nice things.. having evil intention to eliminate. But this too is a normal thing to be and nothing wrong with it in a long run. After all we are playing a game, same as the snakes do, we are just having a different part in the play.

Suddenly I was in a different recall where  I was a Poison maker from snake venom! I was good at it, and I clearly seen the snakes to, also seen the village, mud houses built on the hillside the dry sunny terrain where I looked for them and I kept them in small cages and taken their poisons.  I seen inside the room,, the table by the window which was just on opening on the wall and the light poured through left bright path on the table top.

My recalls are colorful, in minute detail and there is a reason for this.

What is my point here? What I have learned about self and the Valances I played out: what abilities I have and these are from Overt -being bad, having evil intentions to harm and learning from Overts I have gained insight I could not gain from being just good.

Good is good, and being good is a consideration to which we arrive by evaluation same as being evil. Do I feel guilty when I recall I done some horrendous crime.. no , not at all, not by now,  now I look at these recall, regardless what ever they are: just on experience I have had.

By recalling events-experiences like the above I truly understood the diversity what I am able to do. Great learning experiences and of course the cognitions from these recalls are the true value… hehehe and knowing I just fallen over anther log which was holding me back.

So, the snakes are gone and I am richer by the understanding just how good I have been doing what it taken handle those incredibly venomous snakes with their deadly gift- poisons.. After all that is not run of the mill occupation!

For me finding Overts in sessions is something special, and I have realised their value from the beginning on and that was the reason after doing all OT levels and Nots, I bought 36 hours of Integrity Rundown which was geared to handle only Overts. That was  the best auditing I got at St Hill.