desiring, wishing …
i seen on incident where a young man incredibly handsome-beautiful being delight to be hold: perfect in every ways contacted a disease in which his body swelled become covered with inflamed pus filled sores, his agony was sheer hell as he lived-experienced this decaying-rutting mass. The old self-beauty which he identified with was gone so was the light he believed he was and now unrecognisable and as he way laying on his death bed he realized all was in vain… the life he had was worthless because it was not real and this what he experienced was his punishment for wanting desiring to have!
After leaving his body he returned to be on angel– to his earlier mock-up and he just knew: wanting to be a human, want to be a body brought him nothing more than suffering, agony, fears, because ”wanting” leads to have and while being a human that is having: loses and sorrow.
As listened to his realization I too seen for me what many of my ”wanting’s” has brought and from this we both learned and seen all the dangers what lurks under the surface of the so innocent concept of ”wanting”.