Deserve= merit, justify, be worthy of, earn, rate,
Since we all are powerful, we all can do and have anything we want but of course not by now, not in this state – this level we have reached-we are in.
Long-time back on the Track when we were still fee to do and have: that means our dreams- illusion imagines fancies become reality and to be so there were no restriction.
But as time went by and as we continued creating new games =new life cycles we created different rules-laws-regulations and agreements and we accepted these new rules in order to have a more exciting game… to have more difficulties because to overcome these difficulties given us the illusion that we can do, that we are able and we are good and we can overcome obstacle!
We could become heroes, superior beings by showing our ability to overcome monumental problems!
To make a long story short over the span of time-eons we have created immense amount of obstacles which have blocked our abilities and we did this in order to make the game more difficult to play and we have: by now the word is ‘’overwhelm’’.
Of course we have forgotten in other words we conveniently buried this knowledge away, and by acting out why we have ‘’forgotten’’ why we have made everything so difficult… our game, our life has become truly difficult.
In today’s session I found on item ‘’’not deserving’’’ well this item was inserted into our track by our agreement of course that we do not deserve our wishes – dreams come through simply because we don’t deserve them because we are sinners, and as ‘’punishment’’ we should go without: not have our dreams come through: suffer you dog, 50 lashes you deserve, rot in hell, in the dich you go where you belong, you low life you!.
Now that takes some doing to get out of that state and make it go right and to become a hero, on upright citizen… LOL.. that would show ability, willpower.
You see, we are sinners… LOL… and sinners don’t deserve good things to happen to them and when something good is happening there is disaster –punishment sure to fallow: which will sour that sweet taste of having that dream to become reality.
By accepting that title’’’ sinner’’=being total effect: we given away power, we admitted that there are others who are better than we… what a crock of shit that is!
Sinners are who have Overts and every person on this planet is here because having Overts… LOL… the whole set up of being a human is about being on effect. The immense-ness, the amount of blocks I have found so far and these are the walls=beliefs=rules-regulations- laws- agreements we all made in order to bloke our creative abilities is simply mind boggling.
I have seen in sessions things which if I would write about would not be believed by anyone here therefore I don’t bother but sometime when I am hit with ‘’viewpoint’’ something new-never seen before I just seat here and I wonder at the extant of the universe, the beliefs which has created this Universe.
But I am off the orange crate… no big deal, nothing important I write of, just I have taken one more step and this cognition was the result.
If you ever felt small, powerless, forgetful, don’t know, don’t remember, not able to achieve something, felt lower than the frogs ass, depressed, had loss, cried out in despair, yearned, unhappy, felt that reached the end of the rope, gotten drunk to forget, ETC….ETC….ETC… few thousand other way, well..
This is not much.. but there you have it.