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Selective memory….what is that? Total recall.

We all have heard that expression “Oh he/she has a selective memory, only remembers what she/he wants to!”
How true, how very true!
I to ”suffer” from such condition, I can recall–remember most things so clearly to a tiniest detail and other stuff I want to know-recall is not there, I knew that I know those things I want to “remember” but I just cant call them back!
This I have found over the years very frustrating because I know there are people out there who have ”photographic -memory-recall” and here I am I cant regain that ability and I know I too were able to do such because I can recall most things in perfection how I have seen it happened or have read it.
The mystery have been solved in session of course, since in session we can find everything we ever wanted to know.
I have found COMMANDS very strongly implanted to ”only remember what is important” and ” to forget what is irrelevant.. what is not important, What has lost its importance” ect.. etc.. [there are many commands and they all are in affect]

When commands are in place as the above, of course these were put into place long time back on the track and by now what we can recall-remember if it important or not these facts are mixed up by now and the implanted commands dont work properly cant select- know what is important to use this lifetime or it has become irrelevant and that causes spotty recall-remembering.

I find it totally fascinating no matter how many time by now I have experienced this phenomenon that no matter what happening to us here regardless how we call that experience “good or bad” their origin is someplace way back on the track, could be million lifetime away and usually is.
PS: originally as Spiritual we all had photographic memory-total recall counter intentions have destroyed that natural ability.


Waxing philosophical…from Kay Proctol.

Waxing philosophical…

There are a few realizations that I have just gotten around to having. Takes me a while, as I truly am a naive sort, hopeless romantic as I always see the best in folks, never thinking that they would not wish to continue to stay in comm with me and create a real comm line with me. 

This business of having a bazillion comm lines (which I do), but having only a few of the have-your-back kind of friends is an interesting one. I have pretty much been friendly all my life, though I grew up in the country, just momma and me for the most part, as daddy was out welding on the Brown & Root pipeline. I was given lots of space and lots of freedom, but we were dirt poor, so not much ever happened in the way of dining out, going into town to visit girl friends, go into town for anything other than necessities (food or parts of some vehicle repair), never one vacation, never any store-bought clothes, no birthday parties until a few years ago…it was pretty bare-bones existence.

I simply thought I was deprived, but it was really a situation of no knowledge of much…My dynamics were all whonky & all I did was kick my own butt out of stupidity. 

As I found Scn, I knew the 6th dynamic as the MEST dynamic, but now 30+ years later, I see that it is far more than that. 

Some of main headers are:





The Mind

Areas of Livingness




Measurement & Description




Communication Media

Natural Forces

Geographical Areas

The Universe

Other Universes

Under each of these there are 10-17 or so detail topics. Lots & lots of meat of life here.

Of course the 7th and 8th dynamic are the big daddies, but the every day routine of life sits here on the 6th.

Ever really dig in & determine what all this could encompass for you? Well, I had not done it until recently. Previously, I had just read the simple little baby definition in the tech dictionary, which in essence just says MEST. 

So…back to the business of have-your-back friends or a bit closer, having a good 2D. IMO, the proof in the pudding sits here. If there is not enough agreement here, there isn’t a snow-ball’s chance in hell to ever get to the 1st or must less the 2nd and the idea of close, intimate comm lines will never happen.

And in today’s world, a great deal of attention is put on the 1st & 2nd, making sure that all parties, whether friend level, business level, 2D level — whatever, are in alignment. This is NOT where the attention should be placed imo.

For me, that blows sky high.

No wonder all those lovely girls that I went to high school with have dropped off my radar screen & we are no longer in comm. Spent tons of time together for all those years, but all was a facade.  No wonder most of the folks that “I know” within the ranks of Scn, either from org, social, otherwise, I am not a blip on their radar, nor me on theirs & some have abandoned the subject completely.

It is no mystery. Beings gravitate to places where there is alignment, as they seek their comm terminals, that banter of challenges to solve problems together. That is what we are — theta, the problem solver. 

So, LRH gave us much and made it easy for us to use. I have not used it as I should, but when I do get myself into a pickle, LRH always has something to bring me out of the mess.

That was the glue that kept my 2D with Jay Proctor together. We were as different as daylight to dark. His life’s experiences were far different from mine. We’d get into some cat-scratching contests in the early days, when we were young(er) and too bull-headed to see how we could apply LRH.  After a few years of that, we always would agree to cool off & see what LRH was needed to be applied to the particular situation. It was a common point of agreement, and it always worked and worked to a permanent EP.

It is still the case, now as a widow. It is not easy traveling this journey, I have had many, many challenges, but I am a survivor,  I have not gone down in flames yet, and when the going gets tough, I do have a few ‘have-my-back’ friends that bail my ass out with some simple policies & applying some LRH.

To them, you know who you are, I am eternally grateful.

Much love,

Kay Proctor


Kay Proctor ~ Success Story ~ August 10th, 2014

Kay Proctor       ~      Success Story      ~    August 10th, 2014
 I arrived in not the best of case states. I was beefed up with charge, not doing well — rather on the verge of implosion I thought, and wasn’t too keen on carrying on.

 Becky audited me on a special rundown to sort out my dynamics. At first, I thought, well, this sounds okay – can certainly use that — but never expected it to do what it did.

 It bit hard from the get-go. Lots of charge began to roll off & I was in tears a good bit of the time. Tears bringing me uptone, not tears of grief. Wins, increased havingness, more wins — freedoms were being restored.

 Then we dug in on the other dynamics — that was just the 1st dynamic. Through this journey, we hit the 6th dynamic and it was a doozy. She had me read the LRH on what this dynamic encompassed — whew — think there was about 20 headers and LRH had about 8-10 sub-heads below each. Might want to take a look — just sayin’. Red vol VII, p 335, R2C Slow Assessment by Dynamics, issue date 11 Oct 63 (dynamics 1-4); and R2C Slow Assessment by Dynamics Cont (dynamics 5-8).

 Loads of things I never thought about being the 6th dynamic. Most of one’s life sits right there as well as the 7th and 8th. In my view, it is what gets slammed every day with life — perhaps it is too high randomity and one can’t handle it or handles it poorly, or just doesn’t confront it at all — all of which are then improperly assigned to the 1st dynamic.

 And the down-hill, kick-you-own-ass mechanics begin to roll out with all that it can encompass and for me, it wasn’t a pretty ride.

That is what I was doing. I was not keeping the 6th dynamic in place (because I wasn’t thinking with what the 6th dynamic really was in detail (most of just know the short definition in the tech dictionary, namely MEST), and let it slide down to the 1st dynamic. Dismal way to run one’s life — I know, I was dead-dog miserable every single day.

 Many, many wins in session — probably at least 12 wheel-barrow loads of charge were parked on the curb for trash pickup and the result was a girl that was properly educated with the exact LRH, saw the application in her own life and is stable in this area.

I have always been one of those cats that “once I knew, there was no turning back”. Well. this is the case here as well.

 Love to Becky for loving me & auditing me through this, love to LRH for putting this tech there for us to use, and thanks to me for having the courage to reach out to let her know of my pain so that I could have the tech to apply to my life.

 Win – win – win!  It is a good day to have a good day.

 Love,  Kay P.


Over the years I have taken off many layers ”what is old, being old, aged, getting old” and of course these beliefs contained illness, loss of memory, be unable to remember and many other branching out different realities which given me ‘’acceptance as facts –truth’’ the conditions why the body is ”aging and gets old” and every one of these cognitions which has come after confrontations of these incidents made sense, brought further understanding of the current cycle what the body experiences from ‘’conception till it stops working: Death and brought on by illnesses and aging in order to halt its functioning and in some other circumstance-beliefs which stops the bodies running by different means as in accidents or the Spirit just leaves the body quietly in sleep. [ every one of them is postulated or are in place as implanted beliefs!]

By now when I say to some one that I be 75 ,these persons look at me with surprise and some say that is impassible etc.. These comments I don’t take as compliments because these so called compliments are observation by people what they sense=pick up while in my space which become as is the result of eraser of ”age and old” so they done see “Me’’ as old and aged old lady anymore; that just don’t exist in my universe.
These beliefs ‘ageing being old’ are the same as any others we have: all are considerations born out of past incidents when those are erased people no longer can see you as ”old”.
But this morning I have found one more item and this idea-concept was unique to me.
There were times on the track when we ”bought herbs to induce, other time we ”downloaded” small self-hypnotic programs, on different occasions we did affirmative chanting: in order HAVE AGE and when that was accomplished make that body age faster, get old faster and when that was accomplished with that in place stop the body from working so we finally could leave it and be free.

Those times we still were awake -aware Entities and have known that we were not the body but we were captured and ”imprisoned for a term” and the only way we could free ourselves by destroying the body and by that interrupting its operational cycle by introduction of a new element: new idea which was ‘’aging”.
And when those considerations we introduced have become so imbedded into our belief system and they flow down from generation to generation= become inherited and they still work beautifully:
These wonderful considerations are called now GE.
But of course other factors were introduced by other implants and these new introductions have “outweigh dominate control” the earlier beliefs and in these new powerful forced beliefs brought us conviction that :we are the body , that we are conceived, born have a life cycle: live than die and with that expiring of the body we are nothing, we are no more, we no longer exist: with those belief in place the END has been achieved by the evil forces to destroy the Spiritual Universe and replace that Universe with controlled robots world.
And of course these negative believes in place the Entity do everything in order to stay with the body make its life cycle long as possible and after the death of the body get a new one soon as possible.
This implanted ideas that we are the body, we only exist and live and have life keeps the Entity entrapped for eons to come or till the Individual realises the change can be if the standing affecting implanted material confronted and erased.
So guys.. it’s up to each of us what we do with the Tech.. our future is in our own hands.

Impasible to achieve….

By now I know whatever takes place in my life that has meant to happen regardless was wanted or not: it is there now because that incident is next in line to be confronted. [There is order in the Universe: the reels of movies roles relentlessly.]<
Therefore each day I am presented with lessons [segment of the movie] and these lessons are more like riddles of the most intricate nature and when I take them apart the reward is presented in a form of cognitions..
No matter what happens how it looks like and the evidence point toward somebody, something or toward ‘’self’’ here: that one of us were the originator of the drama…which is experienced in form of disagreements, happiness, pleasure, bloom on the flower or viewing volcano eruption, fire some place, or just a simple accident: tripping over one’s own feet, all that is on illusion.[ the ‘’eye’’ perceives as the movie roles.]
Everything no matter what ever we experience here is the replica, a poor imitation, a holograph to some degree of a totally different incident which has happened some place and that ‘’some place’’ is definitely not on this Planet and not ‘’now’’ [ I know the finger when cut bleeds, so that is ‘’real’’ but the cause of that cut the original postulate did not happen when the knife sliced the finger] and the bleeding finger is not a holograph that too is the fact.. IT IS WHAT THE “”EYE”” HAVE SEEN, so please close those ‘’EYES’’ and what DO YOU SEE?
Not likely the cut finger.[ eyes are part of the machinery] But what you will feel and that sensation-pain is the original incident and the picture of the knife- the finger- the blood, the colors and other surrounding images are JUST ADDED TO THAT SENSATION , the sensation itself could have happened long before who know when and where on what planet in the Universe.
The illusion part is not easy to explain, yet the existence of the illusion is easy to verify by simply taking any concept into sessions and when inspected: by close going-over –assessment that concept will vanish for ever soon as the original reason is realized why it was created in the first place but of course this phenomenon need to be experienced in order to believe that it is like that.
If something can be erased as-isad than it is not real.. So all beliefs ‘in my experience’ can be erased and that happens when that energy –mass=the sensation-feeling-pain is confronted.
Why I write about this since all of you know this already, but this is just a reminder that the movie is on implant and that implant include every belief one has regardless if these beliefs are negative or positive.
Of course judgement judging others is part of the implanted material and that is the most difficult to give up, very difficult.. IF one could do that, when that would happens: that Entity =person would be totally outside of the MEST.. But soon as that Entity would make a comment, statement, remark on any subject in that instant that person is taking a standpoint and with that the Entity is back in the good old MEST U.
So, in my reality one can perceive –observe but if at the same moment enhances that observation with assumption-opinion- guessing what that is.. than I call that judging.
Now, not to do that while one still is connected to a body:totally impassible, and even saints could not do that, because being a Saint is already a valance and that valance was born out of judgement: what is good, better than other valances.
Can OT’s do that??? We all know the answers but to achieve such State is impassible while still anchored by the body into the MEST U. The body is a ordinary energy generator which constantly supplies stimulation and that stimulation is a connecting agent keeps one in the MEST.
We have been thought those lesson and we have thought the same to others… but survival never was for the Entity but for the MEST and its continuations.. so who's been fooling whom? 🙂