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To walk the walk of the Solo Auditor: the Path of Enlightenment, The self-discovery.

To walk the walk of the Solo Auditor: the Path of Enlightenment, The self-discovery.

Over the years since 76 after attaining full OT7 I have audited Solo tens of thousands of hour.

The recalls of the past the track do hold great importance, in fact it is vital to be re-experienced in sessions, to know and understand since those experiences every one of them are learning experiences since from those actions of the past one summon up from, to compare, have conclusions to understand one’s own basic personality, capability, the can do, and to realize the magnitude of creative power one has as an Infinite.

Each beings universe is unique since our experiences their infinite variations dis- similarity, or resemblances or likeness therefore universes should not be compared or categorized in any way and pigeon holed with any other universes.

This is very important to know and remember at all times since comparisons only give further imbalances, gives room for judgmental action [evaluation, invalidation] what it can be “better or worse, big or small” etc.: but never less new anchor points gained and who needs more since one has few billions scattered all over in the Universe.

In 1976 at ST Hill I did all to OT 7 (later whatever was attainable including Integrity Rundown and Nots at Flag)

After all that I thought somehow my life should be very different from than an; but it was not, not what I expected, and because of that I felt sooooo let down, disappointed since I had different ideas how on OT should be, [ the hidden standards have kicked in, my own reality what the real OT should be could do etc…] I wanted magic to return to have back again and much more.

How I wished for the magical: for different things to happen I can’t expresses that with words. I ached for it, hungered, yearned because not having it I was lost totally and helpless.[ it was there all the time I just could not see it, too low tone, to heavily walled in to see the thin, light energy, the beauty in its origin.]

It was my life I wanted back I needed desperately yet I did not know how to go about getting it back, and most of all I had no reality what I was real missing: a life as a spiritual being.

Back then while buried under the MEST considerations the still existing agreements, unknown to me was then that great deal more work to be done, waited for me and the reality that I must continue on the Path= as a solo auditor to attain my dreams, my reality, my life and to find the un- known to me “my basic self”, before I attained that state on the top of the chart. The Native State=no bank.

Getting back to 76, I also missed hubbub of the past 3 1/2 years, the Vancouver Mission, St Hill, the do-ingness, the sessions, the cognitions, which has partly opened up my universe. I felt lonely alone, lost and being let down. Oddly this was new, the very first time I have had those sensations, those considerations. The loss, being lonely, was the heaviest burden to carry.

Once the Bridge was done, no more sessions to have, no more to do, what is to do than, when one sits in apathy, loss, upset, which one is not supposed to have, because some idiot said after OT7, we are what? That we have attained the high-est state on the chart? Those were written words only and nothing more… and here I was in it submerged in muck than what one is to do?

So I said to myself: “Do something about it you idiot since You have the know-how, the tools, you know the TECH, you know how to use that, go and audit! After all what passible new could happen to me: after all I known that track since I caused it in the first place it existed because I have created it!!!

That was brilliant thinking from a person who was sitting in deep apathy. To do something, to move out of depressed state and to help self, unique, yes? That has shown me than I have had great gains after all going up on the Bridge.

So I dusted off my e-meter and stepped on the path of discovery of self and it was great to be back in sessions, it was so fantastic with words I can’t express, how it felt to have those cans in my hand once more and doing what I love most digging in muck, looking for treasures, in form of cognitions. OH, those blessed commands from the Rudiments !

To be able to confront, handle the daily incoming stimulations was great, with that my prayer was answered I have entered for the first time since I have stepped into the Universe using my own self- determinism taken responsibility for self and learned by bits and pieces the role I have played in the making the static, the intangible into solid forms as my universe has become over the eons, fantastic, I was cooking, the trill of it all!

Over this many years the Solo Sessions given me the journey of the greatest magnitude the adventure of any spiritual being can have!

From the moment on when I made the decisions to Solo Audit outside of the CoS, living my life as a so-called human being become secondary, everything was put on the back burner. Also that decision to solo brought back not only my self-determinism but the power which I have assigned to other that they know better what was in my universe and how to handle it. .

(My life: work, looking after the body, the social stuff etc… To the outsider all remained, looked normal and that was the Elizabeth which was visible for others)

But I had a secret life to which I have I devoted all my free time to take the Universe apart in order to examine every atom, cell, the thorn on the rose, the tangible, and intangible in order to have understanding of the how and the why: My believes become as they have, what made them so….

I was on fire, God, it was and still is a fantastic journey, to see the universe to re-live those incredible powerful incidents once more which were so well preserved, they waited for me to look and to relive them once more, but this time different was: truly magical journey.

To understand what made everything tick and how I become that lonely lost powerless unhappy human being, what it has taken, how I have achieved that made it so to become as is.

How I love the sessions!

What a wonderful place is our Universe, which I discovered!

Daily I could hardly wait to finish my duties and to get into sessions, I become focused everything revolved around being in sessions.

On the long run over the many years I have looked at and confronted every thought on 4 flows plus run the extended Rudiments on all the considerations and combinations of the same mine and others: whatever have come my way.

(It was a bit more complicated, did the auditing by the standard Tech.)

Cognitions have poured in: Since only considerations hold [agreements] all things in solid forms and of course they do become the only limitations, barriers one has, which hold the being back from achieving or not.

When the considerations=walls no longer there than the Universe becomes open and it’s hold no secrets for one.

The being is free.

As over the years I have solo audited relentlessly, changes have come in leaps and bounds in invisible mode and its ripples continuously rearranged my universe these changes come daily since sessions are daily too.

My life turned into an exciting adventure, since each recall has taken me back to re=experience the richness of my past track, the history of self which I have left behind and top of that I had more fun than 10 cats in the bag. I do not say here that I did not have challenging session, because there was many, and I have crawled and clawed and I have died hundreds of times hundred different deaths: But Bloody hell I have made it through!

So my universe was in constant change, lost the solid footing as a human as the solidity the MEST slowly vanished, was being as-ised.

The logic, the learned stuff, the must do because the collective agreements, the figure-figure given away to” the know” and finally there was magic too in my universe it has returned through understanding the reasons why it has been gone.

(I was expecting after OT 7 who knows what to be: incredible, unusual whatever, like levitate, walk through the walls, reach through the glass, read minds, things to float about and appear when I wanted them. Hogwash, lots of it. Oh, all that will happen later, but not that way as I thought at the beginning ).

The journey itself, the Path of Enlightenment, the gathering knowledge is on incredible progress, unimaginable to any one until one walks the same walk in their own universe and retraces their own step taken over the eons in order to confront and understand their own past..

As I have continued with Solo as the years gone by my thirst to know more not lessened but grown, I burned, I was on fire. I have learned that fire is in fact one’s own power.

Yet what I have found, learned of different realities I was not prepared for. Of course this again is normal since when the old reality falls away new, different reality will replace the old.

These new realities the understanding how all has happened were the gift, for the ribbon and bow the rainbow itself was used the rainbow of knowledge to encompass my universe and as you all know and that what’s wipes the slate clean. Different realities is the change in one’s Universe.

With each cognition walls, barriers are being erased and because of that one regains the lost, the forgotten knowledge the how’s the why’s but to have knowledge is not good enough.

Since every being have stored away immense amounts over the eons, so that is not News. But with Scientology with its Tech under ones belt the sessions as the key well!!!! We are half way home!!!

The Tech is unique to the Universe as it is compiled and put to usable form (I looked) The use of the Technology reverses the effects of the implant in fact it erases it’s affects.

With auditing, one follows, given outlined path, like a map, by having one, one never be lost or become helpless again. This has great importance the certainty, because the immense fears one has of the past and to look and confront. !!

Yet one only can find in one’s own track what one has put there, created by self alone and left there, covered by the invisible dust: un- known, forgotten, none existing: Bu still very much affecting the being.

With such powerful tool, “the know how” in one’s knowledge everything is possible and can be achieved and do happen.

The auditing of course is the Magic Key to the Universe and what on incredible Universe this is, mind boggling, our creation is. While one has the considerations the agreements of a humans, one can’t see further than that and can perceive how powerful how creative, how knowledgeable one is as a spiritual being. We are truly wonderful and incredible.

So here are few of the wins, this one was immense, has changed my whole life my outlook, my considerations. I am the pussy cat, but that little body is only on anchor point for on OT.
I start off with the major win, the total disappearance of fear.
To live without fear was a very unique, new condition since fear itself is the major barrier in one’s life, until fear is gone one real don’t know and understand how one is controlled by such on incredible monster of a thing.

Fear is truly the Darkest Force; the monster which eats the being, gnaws at the soul till the being succumbs and hides, finds refuge in solid, since it become a believe that solid forms do not fear.

No matter what the being thinks, wants to do have or be. there is the underlying the invisible monster which controls: by measuring weighing, judging looking for and having fear triggers of incredible amount of sensations, emotions because of those the doubts come in, the yes or no’s. should we or should we not, the if’s, the perhaps-as and the maybe’s.

There is no stronger and more evil creation than “FEAR” on the track.

There are many other wins, regained abilities, once I talked to a person on the phone whom I never met before since she lived in a different city, later spotted her while I was driving through there and I recognized her from her energy flow which I have experienced, duplicated while we have communicated…I stopped and I have introduced myself.

You should have seen her face!

I have learned about energy flows in sessions. After a while there is no one bundle of steel wool like energy but the trades become separated even out and exist individually and I could recognize them as such.

Now, I play the piano which I never learned to play this life but I play it in an ancient Chinese manner and I hum ancient Chinese songs. (six thousand years old, verified by expert.)

My IQ was so low when I have entered scientology after the test the idea of me becoming on staff was dropped by the Mission staff, now so high on the right side which is the artistic or spiritual side it cannot be measured.

The professors said.” It went through the roof” It was done in 95, the test, at University of Washington.

I can pick out from the distance the item from many others, even if piled up which is the most aesthetically made, again here one can experience separated energy and one can see which is heavier, or light aesthetic in value.

Now here is a big one, I love this, I can recognize and separate, and can label correctly invisible, intangible energy flow. By this I mean the MEST Universe is not just one big bundle of whatever but I can separate one creation from the other, see and understand how they become about the postulates which has created them. Now that is not small ability, but it only can be gained by erasing great deal of confusion, barriers walls=items=considerations which are of course the very stops do not allow the being to see.

If a person seats beside me I connect to the being holding his or her lower arm with my hands, eyes closed, and I run my fingers lightly over the skin picking up different pictures, all personal relating to that being beside me and I see all of it in colors. I don’t ask questions and I don’t need to know the person at all.

I will “read” everything about the person, their past the present and the future and I am totally correct (I have been told many occasions].

If the person wants it, I can also look into the other beings she concentrates on, no matter how far even in different country, since the distance does not exist. I read that being in the distance and being correct too. If I concentrate on the body itself I also see what nutrient the body need the lack of or too much, since every item exists as on individual energy.

Again it is not a miracle just simply recognizing the energy flows and see the pictures the beings have. The reason for such on ability is very simple to understand. One eliminates ones major walls, barriers, considerations, one’s own introverted-ness one’s own heavy energies than one can see further than self and can see how others are too.

Whit this gained ability the guessing is over what is out there and the understanding of others and this way is easy to be a gipsy, see-ing telling the future.

So seeing the future too becomes open and to know it equally as the past has been since one can pick up the pictures: the postulates.

The track, the past is made up from postulates since those actions were once too the postulate to create the future and they still exists the same way but in petrified forms.

I can connect to distance planet and do a little traveling, the first time I have done that the speed the planet moved with , boggled my so-called mind, I got attached to it and have yanked me away from the body such force which I use as on anchor point here, wobbled almost toppled over me being totally out. The body’s movement has brought me back.

Also had a great pleasure to communicate with other beings, “aliens” in the Universe since my communication do not rely on verbal sounds; it is easy to do, with the so so-called telepathy. The universe has become open with that so is communication.

I have come to the stage of communication in which I am not sure if the communications are verbally directed at me or came at me in the form of thought.

The later can be a bit awkward since the persons thought are hidden because most cases one do not wish to give up ones real thoughts and hides behind social niceties, veneer and don’t intend you to hear the inner communication, the real one.

The believes in “being singular, being self,” which keeps one separated therefore those thought, considerations do become the walls which not only keep others away, but us too to understand duplicate what real is in the Universe, these segregation are the major barrier because it’s totally diminishes ones power and abilities.

Next win, I can pick up any object let say on antique jade turtle and see vivid pictures were the stone come from, the terrain, by what manner it was carved and I can see clearly the artist who have done the work which could have been done hundreds of years back.

Plus I see how the item its history of those years how have changed hands or was stolen, traveled under what conditions to the Far West, ( west coast, here) and what will become of it till there is no more as on item as jade turtle. How it will be destroyed, history from the beginning to the end.
Future is easy to read.
Everything have become into existence because a postulates, so the items still holds those postulate and all the other thought in connection to the item.

Since all postulated are made of energy and it is only energy therefore that energy not only have a starting point the formation at the time of postulate but there is the so-called point where it will dissolve into a different form. So being a gipsy is not a big thing.

Flowers do wonders in my space. I have created magnificent gardens and I never studied the how. (Given a title of Master Gardener)

I guess I just recalled as I went along with the soil and the plants. The plants do communicate and let one know of they need, one regains the harmony with nature. After the heavy parts of the bank is erased. it is normal since Nature has the light-est forms of energy therefore the most powerful. No wonder Nature can’t be harnessed it is impassible.

(Nature is the Life Force of this planet, actually the Life Force which brought nature into existence. On this Planet Yet it is wrong to say “Life Force” because life is created so is force and have sustenance a beginning and the end but I don’t have any other name. The life force as I know is intangible and infinite.)

People do come to the garden, they are drawn or pulled in by the Theta, the beauty in the highest form, [flowers] and bring visitors to admire and bask in Theta.

The visitors, all express on they own ways what is inside they universe as a spiritual beings.

Here is a few. Some names the garden the Heaven, some calls it Paradise others on artistic achievement, a perfect design and harmony or just walk about in wonder and nod they head. Beautiful!! They repeat over and over again.

The flowers do they own thing here. When the flower which only posed to reach one meter by the labels definition, grows into one and the half, the petals which is meant to be four-inch wide grows into six or more.

I have here flowers which were only to bloom for 3-4 weeks early in the spring after nearly 5 months they are still in full bloom and going strong.

Some of the plants were so small few months back, I was told they will bloom only next summer, now over one meter tall and are in bloom for the past 5 weeks.

Some others who are only to bloom once a year are doing their wonderful best getting ready to do it again or have.

The garden is new creation; the first plants were put in late February.

A visitor said about the gardener in April ”In the late winter when everything was dormant in our garden, in yours here was spring, in ours now is spring and here is summer”

I told them I fertilize, Oh we do too, yet we don’t have what you have here” (Of course I can see and hear the fairies too, and know how they come about,[ being born] what is their connection to flowers.)

When all the negative considerations fell away which one has toward nature, even plants do better become more beautiful as they want to be originally.

When I enter into the garden I pick up the unusual presence instantly if there is one. I just walk to it, it is usually a predator in the form of tiny green worm. It is fun to do, but not for the galloping little critter.

There are things one discovers and learns besides playing the piano or ask the fly sit still in order to be removed, to be relocated outside.

To watch a wasp happily clean self on my hand and rest for a while, since fear do not exists we are in coexistence.

There are so many other thing ones discovers as one walks the Path of Enlightenment of the solo auditor: to know what The Black Hole is, and what its purpose, what is Alzheimer all about, which researchers will never know, what Jet Leg is in different reality from the original know and understand gravity and understand there are many different variety we experience the same time and how we become effected by them.

See the Earth’s history how long it will be here and what will become of it.

How the so-called personal power works and what really is where it’s origin.

Most of all one understand that these things have no more importance on the long run than catching the little predator, nerveless the knowledge becomes permanent but this time will hold no mess but it is intangible and is infinite as one is.

There are other wins, change one becomes aware of over the time, results I can only contribute to because the continual sessions and the items being confronted..

Last year the body become 71-year-old and it have decided had enough going to kick the bucket.

(Cant blame the machine, it have functioned, labored through thousands of lifetimes[ in sessions] and experienced immense amount of surging energy flows as was used as an anchor.. So the poor thing has burned out. No wonder.)

The Thyroid gland shut down. It was not easy to kick-start it, the body felt like a block of ice, it’s temperature sank to 94.5 the heart rate dropped to low fifties and it has lost the automatic thing which to make to take your breath in and out.

I had to force myself to count in, breath, out breath gulping air when I did not for a short while to get oxygen and to keep it going.

( has a session and “It” kicked in soon as I spotted the reason for stopping)

I last the control over the body [ I have become exterior] it felt like the spine was removed, the body collapsed. Lost most body hairs, etc….but I made a decision it was not the way to go and I will leave the bloody thing it in my own terms.

I did not go to see any Dr’s. no matter what my family or friends have said. I have known I could fix the decrepit old thing.

After 5 months the body had a beautiful head of hair had very good health lots of energy, all is well.

I have no recall or idea what were my view points were before this wondrous thing called Scientology I have fallen into.

But I am sure it must have been Hell because I wanted out.

How I perceive the Physical Universe now hold no importance whatever, but how I feel.

How I have changed in that sense, that is the true gain the important factor and almost impossible to explain since it is intangible.

But here is my best.

There are levels of the next.. In occasions less or more fantastic, greater or lesser happiness, joy, wonderment about natures beauty, total confidence, no longer being lost, helpless, lonely, having no fear what so ever, there are no needs or wants, contented to no end, the trill of being one with the Universe where is no evil or good (not being effect) only IS.

The body walks on the Earth I can hear the sounds of footsteps, but I float, no longer anchored

Naturally there have been huge surges, the ups and downs, in and out of hell all through the years while solo auditing. .

On the road there were many-many boulders in form of obstacles= items consideration, agreements, hidden behind the “invisible, unknown”, and they were tough to locate because I have forgotten I have placed them there.

Good to be on Auditor,To be in Paradise on Earth is my reward for the work.

Since Earth is Paradise. What I done I never have viewed as work, just fun, lots of fun since self-discover is the most fascinating, it was a game and still remains one till this day.

I thought ways back in 73 in September when I started out [One of the reasons has been than that I wanted to improve my sex life!!!]That explains the low IQ reading taken than. It was easy to be on Idiot, nothing to it than “natural state” that it was.

I thought than the end of the road will be being full OT 7. Because to me than was the magical number, the top of the chart the end of the Bridge the magical place of which I have dreamed for eons.

No, no, after OT 7 as the random activities has fallen away of the last few years plus 9 months at St Hill, the excitements of attestations of levels after levels, the great communication with others who were there.

I was back at home in Vancouver and suddenly the World stood still. For the things I worked so hard for, the very reasons I joined the Church, what I wanted the most what I seen and believed in my mind, the postulates since I waited for the magic in my life those abilities, to be cause over, for miracles to happen of which I have dreamed of……nothing………… there was nothing….

I wanted different life, I wanted to be cause, but nothing has happened. I was penniless, had to find a job, and I felt I fell into a bottomless pit into nothing since I have not felt different as I had before I had walked into the Mission.

BUT THERE WAS A DIFFERENCE I have becoming aware me being spiritual entity, I had very good recall of the track, of the past lives.

But now, after all these years, going through the constant changes, experiencing the magic and the miracles and the wonders I have seen and come to know there are indications in my Universe, the now, is not the end, but the beginning on the Path of Self-descovery.

Now I trust in the unknown, (there is no more boogeyman lurking in invisible shrouds.)

The potentiality of the future what the outcome will be is unknown but whatever comes it will be different and better what I can imagine.

I do fully understand the immense, immeasurable value I have received in form of the Technology, the wins itself have no importance what so ever, outside as indicators of the realignment of my universe as they occurred

So much has gone, the Bank no longer exist for me as in the forms of considerations agreements, which is the content of the MEST, but the fire remained, the supremacy of the Will to walk forward is stronger than ever, since I want to know more, all there is to know. About the Universes in general and I do understand that the MEST-SOLIDITY is just a very very small part of the Universe therefore Path is open for me and I continues the walk.

The Physical Universe is not infinite on the contrary, it’s only there exists if not have been confronted but in session little by little the MEST goes puff and the cognitions they remain ones knowledge that is infinite.


While exploring, the self-created MEST universe the believes of solidity somehow the SELF, the ME, the ”I”, the MINE, The BEING the “SINGULAR” who had all the considerations of a human and made me believe I was one, sort of disappeared and that self-created universe with it.

The created boundaries, wall, barriers, small compartments which are the believes causes the segregation melted vanished I have become one in harmony with the Universes.

While that has happened in sessions little by little, the same time the Physical Universe itself have lost its awesome magnitude and from under all that rubble once forgotten deeply buried spiritual have risen who can’t be described with words easy.

INTANGIBLE, INFINITE ONE WITH ALL, therefore “In NOW” there is no “I” “SELF” “ME” “BEING” MINE” and no such a thing as ” LIFE” “DEATH” “START” or “END” “INSIDE” “OUTSIDE” or “EXTERIOR” or thousands other words and expressions which describes the human state by agreement, all have disappeared, everything has been erased which have segregated, insulated a state known to be called alone, This is not just the win but it is a STATE which has been reclaimed as in NOW.
The technology, Auditing works. A man, any human, does not possess such a magnitude of power to destroy, stop its progress its continuity.
…Forever grateful….


cognition…native state. I have arrived..

Cognition…native state: what is. I have arrived…[from my blog, some years back]

I just had a realization: when one erases the contents of all those  myriad Valances these life cycles  which are nothing more than  BE DO HAVE in these also include the belief : we only exist when being in solid form and when all that is done with that regains knowledge on self as on Infinite.

also has to disentangle from the agreements which solidifies creates the universe for self.

When these Valances =life cycles are gone, with that the desires to be -do -and have too vanishes.

The Native State is intangible yet it contains the  unaltered knowledge gained from realizations.

Cognition: more on power,

I have been tremendously  interested about “Power” not only as in personal power, but what as in general, what causes it, what it is made out of and what moves it  and how that “power” effects the Universe around us.. not only the beings but the solidity also.

When one has questions, only one way to find the answer is to have sessions on “not understanding, not knowing” what causes that creative energy, so by now I spent enormous  amount of hours in session looking for that intangible item.

So I have had major cognitions  by on power and I have posted those in my blog and in Geirs too.

But today I have come to realise how power is being thought of, understood and because how it is understood and in that understanding the wording segregated put power in different category, yet there is only one power exist.

In terms expression, agreements there is two kind of power.

One is called  Creative Power and the second is called  Force, and  that term “Force” is used  when expresses destruction, null-ling obliteration demolition annihilation  devastation  wrecking ruining damaging the all  ready created.

And the opposite is; creation as in Building-arts- invent, originate conceive design to formulate, to make, to become to grow into existence and to remain, to Continue mostly in solid forms.

But let’s not make a mistake here only solid items can be destroyed by force: IDEAS, THOUGHTS BELIEVES ARE CONTENUALY DESTROYED BY FORCE OF OTHERS, by those who are believed that they are stronger, better, have more power than self has…Large load of dodo from both side..

So here we are, we can see the segregation, the division of power which are the considerations-agreements becomes the value: the negative or positive considerations: what is “The bad and the good”.

The Creative Power is encouraged, supported by agreements from every side,  the Force on the other hand, use of Force is put than by all that it is bad not acceptable, Laws are passed so the Force is only can be used within the law, example: any nation can go and have a jolly good war, kill off the enemy by force, and that is OK. But the soldier who killed many now as a civilian can’t continue using that same power- force. Bloody Hell, so much fun!

My point here is very simple: the creative power represents and allows, permits creation: and assures PERMENENCY IN THE UNIVERSE AND THE FORCE REPRESENT DISTRUCTION=nulling- erasing of the MEST universe: therefore those actions are closely watched and controlled, or simply now allowed to happen.

Since people have such great fear of MEST’s disappearance which is their havingness and because of that they seriously fear for self too since that can happen easily:  the bloody body- thing can vanish, kill over, now that causes a huge ARCB’x because humans do believe that they are body and they only have a life if they have that body…. so  if the body goes… I am gone toooooo….

What is my point? very simple: there is only one kind of power exist, regardless what name it is called, what label someone has hanged on or how many has agreed  to those names: that there is good power or bad force exist: which can create or destroys BUT PLEASE LISTEN HERE:   since that destruction is Creation too, no matter how one looks at it.. only the shape has changed with that the consideration too changed….

The theta can only create, the rest: what name, value importance reputation statues that creation is given, and assessed by; well those are just considerations, assumptions and agreements.

Power is power, nothing more…… Yet there is only one power………..In fact there is no such a thing, since only exist as in considerations-agreements, which are illusions-assumption.. around and around we go…hehehe.. love the stuff.




among the Stars…..postulate have come through

among the Stars…..postulate have come through.

I would like to share this with you, last night I was walking late and I looked up and seen the universe, such a yearning filled my universe and I thought I want to be there again and touch it and in that moment a dazzling shooting star moved slashed across that wide expense and I felt  that taken place where I was and I was touching it.

I stood there while the light vanished over the horizon  and I become aware of the body once more: heart pounding, and tears flowed down on the face and I wondered how  could  that star become so close inside the Earth’s atmosphere since I new it was not on asteroid.

Then I realized the shooting star did not come close to Earth and it was  NOT seen with the ”eyes” but I the “spiritual” entity who was in space among the stars… yes, my postulate was realized and have come through….


we have what we create: nothing more or nothing less.

We have what we create.

We have only because we believe we have.

When we are given it is our assumption that we have gained.

When we lose, that loss is only loss because we consider it was a loss.

We, at all-time have what we create for our-self.

There can’t be any other way.

Our ruins or our progress is also our own creation:

They exist because we have believed that they do.

There is no other creation beside our own:

that can  be experience by us or by us involved with  creationof others.

To blame is others for our experiences is futile, unproductive

To wait for phrase is  also waste ones  own energy.

Since it is us who decide, give value to every experience we have

No matter what is that experience contains.

It was us, only us who made those considerations

which exists as a experience in a form of ”having”

in our universe….

The gathering for magical breakfast.

Imagine a hut: its sides were of translucent crystals slabs holding each other up by the its creators wish and the hunts cone shaped roof was tightly woven from rays of violet light and all around the hut far as one could see were flowers their vibrant magic covered the terrain and all these just floated in space not connected by time and considerations to any other world and this floating Paradise was the home of WOO-Y the Grand Wizard of Universe.

From beyond an invisible curtain of the distance the sun emerged and its pink light rays flooded pouring over the garden touching every petals reaching into the deep shadows which were lurking close to the ground and taking over the night watch, and observing all these and I thought that somewhere some beings now believe that it is the beginning of their day since to them brightness brought wakening of their senses and I smiled at that thought.
So…. why not have a beginning here too and start of that begging in the customary manner with a bowl of cream? But not for me of course since how could one drink if one do not have the body? That is beside the point because there are others who lived in the garden who could have breakfast.
I mocked-up a bowlful of this delicious wonder and do keep it in mind that there were no cows about this paradise but again that’s beside the point, after all a Wizard can mock-up anything at any time and a bowl of cream was really just part of the magical reality and a Grand Wizard would not be an Grand Wizard without such an important ability being able to produce such an important element and I am sure you agree to that yourself!

The bowl of cream appeared on the middle of the table as I wished and I did not have wait long the guest, first at the edge of the table a little tongue appeared tip testing the air, she pushed herself up on the table and in greeting she bobbed her head up and down few times flashing her charming smile at me.
Her beauty was dazzling, she was a small snake, each of her scale were like shimmering many faceted ruby and green circles around her eyes were carved from emerald and deep yellow around her mouth was the coloring of topaz and that given her that sunny happy grinning appearance I too smiled back at her. She pulled her self up on the table and dived toward the cream and started to lap… Within few minutes her whole family showed up and their ruby bodies circled around the bowl happily slurping the cream.

Out of nowhere cat appeared behind them and with gleams in his yellow eyes he reached over the snakes coiled bodies and snatched the bowl of cream away holding it high above his head looked challengingly at the surprised group…hehehe I was waiting for this.
Of course this was not OK since agreement was not given by snakes to this vile act of taking by force and the wild chase begun to retrieve what belonged to them four snake against one cat, the ruby bodies flying throughout the air like brilliant flashing arrows and the cat was dodging left and right to avoid the collisions while holding the bowl up above his head.
The hissing commands from the mother, the cats deep rumbling purr and my laughter filled the space since I to become involved in the game with my cheering both side of the battle.
Than the inevitable has happened the cat stumbled over one of the traps which was an low out stretched body of the mother as he was was flying across the room and for a moment stillness held us in space even the sparkles held back their glint and the bowl of cream to remained suspended levitated in the air unsupported not one drop spilling.

The cat lay flat on the floor and from above grinning down at him was the four yellow mouthed sparkling ruby ribbons in their suspended position singing their victory song..

The cat lifted his sprawling body of the floor picked the bowl out of the air and with mischievous smile he winked at me and placed the bowl the center of the table.

By then, the sparkling shimmering snakes set coiled waiting in a circle, heads up, grinning back at the cat. The cat set down too and put one paw into the cream lifting out a dripping blob with great enjoyment started to lick the cream,  in the room only the sound of slurping could be heard intermingling with  purr from the pussy cat.

A Python appeared on the other chair, His translucent-glowing huge coils flowed over and down completely covered the floor around the chair and he too was grinning and batting at me his long eyelashes, he hissed loud chiming “Good Morning to you all” then he rested his big head on the table top and looked at me waiting. So was I, since I have known his best friend was not far and would be joining him in any moment.

A mouse came out of nowhere; she stood up in front of the great head, Its tiny hand on her hips and was yelling at the top her little lungs.

The Python blinked occasionally but did not say a word.

The mouse jumped up on the boa’s head pounding and stumping on the beautiful green sparkling skin while having a lovely temper and the sparkles were swirling flying around her. Her temper was in fact a mock-up of made out of musical notes it was a tune to morning rally to move, to get going start a new adventure: The snake occasionally blinked, fluttering his eyelashes but he kept his eyes on the mouse.

It seems the mouse too noticed those long lashes made out of sliver of sapphire; she jumped over and with great vigor pulled out one. She held up the eyelash victoriously and holding it high she marched down on the sloping curve of her friend head to the Pythons nostril bent down and  while having huge wide smile on her face with great enjoyment she tickled the inside of his nostril.

The Python eye opened wide than his whole body convulsively shaken and wiggled but He could not contain the tickling sensation he open his mouth wide and shut his eyes: he then did let out a enormous sneeze.

The cream eaters looked up and watched in amazement forgetting the cream as the sparkles from the sneeze were flying about causing small tornado.

The little mouse stood contented with its arms crossed, looking at the great head as the diamond tears rolled down hitting the top of the table exploding into brilliance.

I too watched the sparkles as they lit up the room and suddenly I smelled the fragrances of violets: Instantly I known that culprit Python has been in my garden and gorged himself full with scents of flower!

PS: Ability to create is to create -experience in the same moment and “see” without eyes every little detail, the picture frame by frame as they are being created-experienced. That is the magic of the Universe and that Universe is magic in itself.


Cog: how the universe come to be divided

 The cognition’s are like pearls.

 Each one is born out of pain and suffering,
out of mystery, secrets, and darkness.
Yet how beautiful they are!
They can vary in momentarily importance before they vanish.
Yet they remain yours for ever in the form of invisible knowledge.
The basics are the rarest of all pearls, since only few exist!!!
Their value buy your freedom out of the MEST Universe.
For your future you have my best, my postulate,
One endless string of pearls of great beauty.
 Had a session today [ last year] it was not about the Bank but general understanding of the real universe where is no MEST , here are no believes of any kind as a result there are no considerations, thoughts in existence.

 I become aware of that in the Theta Universe one do not have or being aware having knowledge since that too would be a thought-concept and even the concept of ‘’self, or I’’ is missing. In the Theta Universe there is only the moment of creation  exist and in that same moment the experience and that moment ” is ”or ”now”.

There is no past or future in the Theta Universe, since those would be concepts thoughts which makes up what is the MEST Universe itself.

For some time in session, every time I was running at ARC B’s everything has come up ENFORCED On all levels and because of that

 for weeks in continual daily sessions I wondered just where I was heading too.

Than the word ‘’SPELL’’ popped up, out of nowhere [of which I was not looking for] Like in magical spell and that word was the key which has unleashed the avalanche, opened up the Universe of which I already have KNOWN have had many recalls before and oddly, the word Spell meant Implants in this cognition  the “MEST UNIVERSE” itself.

 COG: long time back other place and other time the” Spell,” implied to pertaining to Implants,  which were than called Black Tide itself and that Black Tide slowly over powered, over taken the Theta Universe: the Magical Universe.

 Oh, there are many reasons that Black Tide taken over the Theta universe… The Black Tide, the implants become popular because they were the new kind of game, the only game: which has brought  created stimulations inspirations motivations impulses wishes desires longings  and they were great fun to play and become part of, to assume all those freshly created personalities with that behaviours.  

 That darkness, the heaviness become known as the evil “SPELL, the Black Tide”  to those who did not wanted to leave the Theta Universe: therefore the separation was created… now there were two different Universes:  Theta Universe spiritual, without forms….MEST Universe forms and solidity.

This cognition has taken me out from the MEST, these means to me, I not only know the meaning of the words but I have experienced the Universe where there is no communication cycles as we know it here, the communication exists in different reality level just on as an experience, nothing more.

Within this cognition there were dozens of other cognitions, new knowledge poured in and once more my universe was realigned, balanced according to the received information.

I have realized the last anchor point have fallen away, which of course existed only because I have believed it was there.

As the last links of chains have dissolved by the as-is ing which held me in the MEST=Bank, there were Cog’s within the Cog’s:

“The body is no longer an anchor point since there is no such a thing as on anchor points and I am not the body, never have been and never will be.”

With the dissolving of the last particles of the MEST, I have become aware of a new understanding which was in a form of sensation of beauty which cannot be expressed in any shape or form.

Also this new state as I have become aware of, a sound which I have heard in the past in three occasions, it was also in connection with cognitions: Most incredible sound, the sound of total harmony, the sound of the Life-force as is.

In my new reality, I become aware had new understanding, that the life-force has sound: I have known how the Life-Force looks like, but I never realised had a sound too.


The sound which I have heard cannot be described by words, I won’t even try.

 It was music which could not be imitated by any instruments even if someone would try and because that would become same as anything else what is called in the MEST universe, just a replicas a poor copies of what we  have known as original the postulate  in the Theta Universe.

Beings here on this Planet we do “try” to express what is beauty forming solid items in pleasing shapes, even flowers are in sense solid and they too are created in order to imitate that beauty from elsewhere, that original postulate from “Theta” universe.

But all these solid item which surrounds us are only imitations, copies- facsimiles  on the lower solid  level of the original creations which has no mess;  and they do not exists in time or place.

The session was long and lots of energy was as-ised and I have realised, in one of the cognition’s, there is no power.

Which have surprised me profoundly and that it makes great deal of sense: “ knowing, having knowledge in form of thoughts, on any concept and the believing in them that they are, truly exists therefore they are purely consideration-agreements- assumption, illusions and that is  The MEST Universe.



What is that whoosh, which quickens the heart, weakens the muscles and one’s gut jumps,

What is that whoosh, which quickens the heart, weakens the muscles and one’s gut jumps,

 Whoooosh… is a energy flow and could be huge as any explosions…. Since it is one… Whoosh is admiration, a tremendous sensation, just think, list for yourself items when you have felt that WHOOOOOSH, made your heart pound and excitement taken over your universe.

 That sensation can be created and it is created when one seeing something one admires… There is different density- bulk- concentration to those created whooshes…very light energy yet because so light-thin translucent their power is in tenser  therefore it reaches farther and can penetrate better than the low heavy energy.

 This won’t be easy to explain…. We admire the mock-up the energy flows before we view it-see it with the eyes: since we already experience it: as all knowing spiritual being, so we know what is there the eyes don’t play role in that.  Than the eyes pick up images of solid objects only, but let’s forget what eyes do, that is totally inappropriate wrong and incorrect what they see. when it comes to understanding intangible energy flows as “ADMIRATION.”

 But that first experience when we admire something, some body by that I mean to us that mock –up is, and already has been established by us in the past –track that it is beautiful exquisite, attractive, gorgeous therefore it is desirable to have in order to enjoy that further.  Since the “” recognition”” causes that whoosh, [ remember there is nothing new under all the suns but ‘’’cognitions.’’]

Whoosh we feel is that sensation the admiration that explosion of energy.

Now if that adored energy is using an anchor point as a male body and happen to collide with one which is the males counter balancing energy; female body that causes on extra huge Whoosh since it is enormous energy mass.

 The systems-bodies are activated by that energy mass  by that strong whoosh and in that instant everything is speeded up, going into over drive, heart rate, all the glands etc..

This causes  whoosh mobilises all sort of other energy flows, desire, the needs the wants, must haves and few thousand more!!!!  An avalanche of sensation gets dispatched pour in.

 That is the reaction to the body, but the beings wants is to remain present also,  to continue to be there and wants to admire that beautiful energy to remain in place…. That is downhill from than an, since the original energy is not solid and the being believes that only so items can survive and remain in place.

 So those admired items: The flowers will die, new car becomes used, old houses crumble, babies grow old, beautiful fruits are eaten, digested, bodies become like old leafs and slowly disintegrates, the thirst to drink from that admired vessel is quenched-the admiration is dissolved by the dissolution because the one who admires see’s  with the eyes… there is nothing but disappointment….  So as in relationship one need to create continually as in ‘’now’’ , since it is not easy to hold admiration in place…. 

PS: admiration is part of the communication formula; ADMIRATION is an acknowledgement also, when one allows total beingness to something or someone, that is admiration.  


aknowledgement: what is, in my reality

”-Acknowledgement” has great power, one of the major solidifier of MEST Universe. Something has been bothering me of late on unknown energy floated about which I have not confronted yet. Pulled my attention, it was my reality that I real did not liked to be appraised or do the same to others. Either way I was not comfortable with it.

Finally I got it, “ACKNOWLEDGEMENT”. They had stimulated me in many different way..

That very words: good, yes, fine, well, done, OK as ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS do drives a stake like anchor point into the center of the beings universe with that further solidifies the CORE=bank.

An acknowledgement might confer one is good, doing well and that acknowledgement is the signal that the person should continue going on the agreed upon considerations, action, since what one is doing is approved by others who usually is close to us and love or likes us. In other words agree, have similar reality level as ours and we look up to these persons with love and admiration and value they opinion, reality and believes.

These acknowledgements are dangerous because it anchors “the created energy” and holds that created energy in place between two persons with that energy established that communicated subject become collective, group agreement, example: which politicians view point pro survival therefore better so lets vote for: that vote=acknowledgement solidifies his position in space he is in office for 4 years.  Furthermore in the future all his communication will get further acknowledgements, more invisible energy lines will be created by the confirmation.

Solid they become and remain: law is born.

Same with any other acknowledgement, which we are giving or given by others to us, we too are tied to that being with an invisible line.

That communications=acknowledgements hold that concept in the MEST Universe, Period, therefore has solidity in form of energy.

With the so called times passing both will be forgotten, but the invisible lines will remain between the beings so is the act which was acknowledged till as-ised by both parties.

The positive considerations, pleasure moments which we believe that they are better, since they are not destructive in sense, but they hold more power over the being since the pleasure moments pulls the person in-back to that blessed item over and over again like the joy of licking vanilla ice cream on the hot summer day.

The pleasure moment is the trap which holds the being in the MEST Universe. They have greater power since the pleasure moments are continually re-confirmed=acknowledged, agreed too and the confirmations are the solidifiers to makes that continue and to remain in the MEST.

The so-called “bad” we all want to destroy as-is, but the “good” we nurture. Yet both considerations belong to the MEST universe. They are the implants and they make the game the game, Gives the choice which side one once to play.

On the Path of Enlightenment, on the Path of Light neither side whatever maybe, “good or bad” has value, since they made up of energy, express energy. MEST IS MEST.
OH, to be or not to be!

PS: I know that LRH meant acknowledgement as an ending of the communication cycle. That is correct 100% right but there are different realities on any given subjects.  In this case I am Indicating that my conclusion is not ending with the same reality as  LRH’s, Simply the is more to his.

My view point is from the theta universe where things are not solid, therefore on acknowledgement is used to anchor the item, to remain solid so one could not lose it.

That acknowledged item would remain anchored into the same place no matter how long it have taken one to come back to that same place. By acknowledging yes that is end that cycle, but also makes it remain in that place and time. I do not quote LRH he does not quote me. He speaks for himself and I speak of my own reality.

There is no need to quote others after soloing one life time since I have had enough cognitions which given me knowledge on every subject I ever confronted. My knowledge is my own that knowledge has set me free from being dependant on others reality.

“”Acknowledgement”” is a creation a stepping stone in the chain of creation-communication, just one frame in the rolling movie picture and each frame is the NOW because there is no past or future.