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How we love…. the topic at this moment in Silvias Blog….

Oh, how we dance as the sound of music:

the harmony of the Universe flows!

I toast you with cup of bubbling joy;

that joy which is my very soul…

deep you drink…

you drink the light.. we  sigh..

I am what you are…

laughter floats… echoes…

through the starlight eternal indigo night

For my soul mate R….


Reality finally sank in, why I am in this MEST Universe… bloody hell, not bad at all!

I have had this morning a very fine revelation, because somebody has communicated put into my space a piece of information… I have realizes that without others I would be nothing.. No-one and most of all I would simply would not have knowledge..

I have known for sometimes that we do learn from everything, from everyone, no matter what comes our way there are lesson in those action….

I also believe nothing happens without reason….. I wondered over the years what are the reasons we are here… what is the reason for experiencing: all this… these endless lifetimes… full of pain, suffering, losses, fear and anger, the immense upsets.. Which role over us daily… keeps us deeply buried in the MEST’s solidity?  

What is the real meaning of all these?

 While looking, rattling the doors of Heaven and Hell, I have  found and to come to understand so many things…and  seen the Universe and recalled the  far away back: I was there when the first light has come about… now that was long way back..

 Solo auditing every day… By that I have collected through cognitions immense amount of understanding …the how and the why they do happen- my actions.

But why are we here and why must we experience all these?

 Well… when the answer comes usually it is very simple… If we would not experience lifetimes where we interact with others.. if we would not experience having a connection to the body, than we would not have experienced-practiced being separated, being singular, being self… being I and being me… being One, I would never know, never would have experienced to have become aware, conscious have knowledge understanding what is it like being a person… a human… on individual somebody, a mortal…  a identity who can create who can experience.. and be involved, who can have … who can have or not to have…..

 Without existence believing in life and the life of others I would not have the life  as I know the reality as singular a person a human or any other form existing in this Universe and their meanings significances  and their value and their impact influence and power on me.

The richness these practises what we call our track our past is the most incredible experiences any being in this Universe can have.

 I have known for years and I have view what ever has happened to me, pulled in, have come to me for reasons: so I can learn from them..

I have truly believed that this life from the first postulate which connected me into the mother’s womb and  I have become a person again in human form, being born with cord around my neck and bottom first were there for a reason…

To confront to understand that we strangle through each lifetime till we finally learn why we are here… It can take many- many life times… it will take many as it needed till one realises: Hey, I am in a class room… I must learn because I can’t graduate and leave till I know the lessons why I am here…. The lessons are not about spirituality… but about understanding the MEST Universe and our interaction…


Body: electric cage, as safety net and exteriorization. Addiction: sexual energy= climax: agreements galore+ a bit on telepathy

 PS; i am not talking about the rib-cage here, but the invisible to the eyes those energy lines…”.Medirian lines” an the body, as in chinese madicine…

By now I have seen many different machinery in sessions and the pictures go with them and of course the realization has come in form of cogs for having those machine-bodies and how I have use them as anchors.
But of course as we moved on gotten a new body we left the old solid junk an some place to rut away but we have taken its total mock up with us, what that body could do and we have had all those pictures that knowledge and we have carried it in our invisible bag.
Those memories of that machinery-robots are the working manuals and by now nothing but mixed confused bunch of expired reality-agreements yet they were in use making this meat-body an effect till I have confronted them one by one in sessions. This body is in good shape, in good health.
Interesting to locate these machinery since they are so very different from this soft body yet some of those principals still fit with this clanking thing here.

To exteriorize, to get out of the body is not easy as one would think, unless something violent happens to the body: heavy push, accident, operation back fire-ring, car accident, brick falls on one’s head, touch of poison in ones cereal etc… otherwise it is not easy to leave this machine and to say, “I be seeing you” and blow…!!
 Why is it so difficult to go exterior? Well, I have my reality, but this is my reality, and a different cognition tomorrow could change this of course, nothing is written in stone in my universe..

One can’t even imagine just how many bodies One have had over the eons… and how One was connected to all those bodies, by what means, by this mean One had a reasons, a thoughts, a considerations, agreements connected with aches and pains sensations, pleasure moments or huge heavy blows, or just a itsy-bitsy snake bite, or an invisible virus which kept the being connected, or just a simple thought “I will not leave till I kill that bastard or before I die I must see Niagara falls.. or I won’t Rest till…blah-blah.. …you all have thousands of reasons the +1 and the minuses well they to exist!!!

 Here is a goodie: a reason one remains so strongly connected… is the sexual climax it self…!!!!!  
Show me outside of heavy pain,  if such a thing is existing in present time which is stronger, heavier, bigger, greater denser deeper more profound in any ways or ” more solidly-compacted and more addictive in any way” than this energy….as climax…I don’t think you can find one.. and what people do in order to prolong that sensation and  increase that sensation..and have it aften as passible, those acts could fill volumes alone if it would be written!! Mind boggling reading material that would be!
Want to exteriorize? Very amusing…
  We can’t count food or sleep in the same category as sex… not for one second….Once sex is felt- sensed, with that the being is captured, bagged for life… by the full blown addiction… [in some religions the participants want to kick that need and work on that for their whole life, but can they kick the need and want?
Sex is a body thing… through the body the being is captured by made to believe that is the greatest pleasure one can experience; the climax!!!]

 We also have so many counter postulates equal amount for not going, not leaving, staying, remaining, and the major believe the being has “this is life here”, having the body= is life itself.
Also a big lie is inserted into ones Bank that the being is safe inside the body and nothing can harm the being while one has the body, one is the body.
TO Exteriorize at free will, only can occur when those thousands of thoughts-considerations, collected assumptions and the immense amount of agreements are eliminated by as-ising them one by one in session.
It can be done, I know because I have done it… I no longer have thoughts of being inside or outside of anything.
No thoughts left that there is past or future or time, or one is in location or in fact no locations, invisible or nothingness[ these are big items to confront]: no beingness left or doingness to confront.

Back to this post:I know there are occasions when the being in the sleep just moves out and vanishes without any fanfare…. That happens all the time but we have no idea how that persons bank was set up… so that kind of departure-separation from the body is not necessarily happening out of free will.

I know that a body has a very strong hold on the being: having the body of any kind gives the being the illusion of existence: Life living, with that continuum, location, time, solidity, which includes of course limited movement.
 Also through having a body experience’s One is supplied continual stimulations which is having-ness, big time. Those are the important factors; the make belief that the game is real…..

The body is nothing more than an Electric Cage, holds the being as a prisoner, it was and always will be just that..

Below is cognition of the body as a strong hold, the spirits house, it’s fortress, its citadel and its refuge –shelter its prison and how it works…[ my reality of course]   

I just seen something interesting in connection with Meridian lines the energy lines on the surface of the body, which holds- runs current, regular energy and on the lines are the acupuncture point to all glands etc therefore these energy lines connect the acupuncture points.

Ever since I have learned about them while have had acupuncture and seen the map how these lines look like on paper I have wondered why the body has such a thing and how it gotten there.
I love acupuncture and over the years had many sessions and in session I could sense when the energy got reconnected and there was even flow, the harmony has returned:The body become well.

I was not looking for anything special just pottered about the universe being interested about “prisons” etc.. the picture just come in strong and vibrant, full in color.

GET READY!!!!!!!!!! What the Meridian lines represent now used to be on electronic cage!!!  This structure had many purposes over different life times besides being prisons for Entities.

Having a cage on the body makes a great deal of sense to me and why not? If you go and look up a picture on the internet and you can see for yourself how the lines look like: bars of the cage, absolutely fascinating.

An electric cage can anchor the being and the current depends what runs through lines is regulated and its strength too, how strong the currents are need to be and could be regulated in order to hold the being in space and with that in time and of course depends on the consideration of that life time the cage can be safety or prison that depends on what is the users or the givers intention, but the cage acts as on anchor at all times.

Beside to hold one as a prisoner other times was used as a safety device, a protection so other being could not invade, enter and touch us.
Besides that, was used to push shove propel away others back into their space away from ours and also we could increase the energy of our space by increase the energy in the bars: we could become larger and that was indicator for others who could sense those currents and could not enter and invade our space. Hehehe I am bigger than you are!!I dare you!!

Here is a saying which is originating way back, waaaay back. “ I have Let my  guard down”.[opened the cage] Something bad has happened.
Or “I was on idiot, I should not let my guard down”. [ That could mean trouble: now One is walking without Ones head because has been chopped off, because One has let ones guard down] The safety was bridged..

Also the electric cage was used other occasions to make self-us invisible, to hide self: by increasing the energy make it very bright and no person could see-look inside and sense that there is a being in there because the energy-the currents were scrambling the presence of the being…

Very interesting, what I see, that we can scramble others persons energy and because of that they can not look into our universe and understand our thoughts-intentions.
I also have seen this cage hanging in space highly charged in order to capture those who happen to be floating by, these were of course Entities without the body. The Meridian lines were sizzling and any being who had just a glimpse of it was pulled in and gotten captured at that moment. From that moment on one carried that cage from one life to the next, no wonder we still have it on our human meat bodies and we are held there by the strong current of these lines… or we are held there by the memory of it? I have it confronted so to do not have effect on me and those who had beings who were in session the same time as I was. We all had the cognitions and we are all free of the effects of the electric cage.

 I have been working on telepathy for a long time and I have taken off many layers but I never seen a scrambling device before which effects the communication of the Free Entities [BT’s Clusters and those wondrous beings who I share the universe with. Now I gained new viewpoints and I am cooking again. This is new, different reality, I like it.

On many occasion I have looked into other persons space [ in sessions ] and I, who can see[ without eyes] grate deal  but there are times I could see only  blank but I have known something was inside that blank which did not allowed me to look into others intimate thoughts= life and that blank was on agreement of some kind. [ any agreement is a barrier a wall which hold the person outside or in, whatever.]

 We have on gentlemen’s agreements of some kind which was established waaaay back not to invade each other’s intimate space and that still holds here an Earth [so we will not read each other’s mind and that promise was made and still being kept!!!]
I won’t read your mind and you keep out of my space: my mind: these are the agreed “laws’ of the game.]  we keep all promises as any other agreements we ever made, but no longer I am a gentleman and I will do my very best to demolish those agreements, those blind walls which covers, segregates one off and made this a individual universes..
I have done that… and There is no longer I.. me… self.. being or having.

After this I wonder I really wonder what I am going to find next?

Age-aging and on youth, being young: and infinite…….

Age-aging and on youth, being young:  and infinite…….

As I=the body was aging as the years were going by, I too had thoughts-considerations and many-many of them… Mostly they were not happy as I have seen the signs of aging… The flesh, was not so firm.. There were graying, the skins changed lost its elasticity gradually, the weight of the breasts was too heavy, started to sag… they were closer to the belly button than to the chin…. the eyes lids become papery, thin and were sinking into the scull…into oblivion… the heavy full lips have lost their shape, there were age spots popping up etc……= there were wrinkles here and there the first ones I noticed on my knee caps…hehehe..

Since I never was much for make-up, and rejuvenating creams etc., so I had this brilliant idea why not have solo sessions? Wow, just how brilliant One can be? Well that was novel idea [ solo an age]  to me and with that a new world opened up..   So I have soloed and soloed and soloed an all the things I did not like were happening to the body…and that was lots, lot of material….But most  I have recalled were from my past life’s, where I had different bodies and very different realities what in fact was ageing…not the same as here of course.. Age, was valuable in many-many ways, that is still in place and still in use… we have brought that packed with us[ but now here have become a burden because they are connected to other considerations that “ one is no more, none=existence “which comes after old age, death]  so there are many reasons we do age==the body that is!. Because ageing had value, great importance in the past and those importance’s were there by agreements too and  piled up high made solid in order to belong in the same game…  so we still age… everybody’s ‘body’.

Now starting to solo an AGE is like opening up a “bottomless” can of worms… Incredible amounts of thought, considerations and of course the wonderful agreements existing on ageing…WE ALL AGREE THAT ”THERE IS ADGEING!!!”

 We all have the same symptoms- signs markings on the body so we all have those agreements, right?  Otherwise the ageing would not happen, yes? Some body’s age faster some others “looks” last longer, looking better. OH, IT IS IN THE GENES!!! Bull, No-no-no!. Just have different considerations, agreements that is all.[I know the science has proved such, yes it exists, but it is the considerations changes the cells, the pictures from the past alters the genes, the looks the shapes, the size’s.  We used to have bodies  contained  the cells  which were normal to that body, same cells as here which are now names sick Cancers  cells, those who have had that kind of body in the past has the knowledge-the pictures and it can be transferred into this body and alter the cells here.]

 Mind boggling… endless, bottomless pit…. The agreements about ageing are…

 But great fun nerveless since auditing  the  “aging” the passing of years One really can see the universe, the different bodies we have had and the zillions of reason we want to preserve the body…. but also there is another side of the coin, we want to destroy the body…aging is very effective way to achieve that….

Impassible to comprehend at the beginning when One ventures an soloing such a concepts… just how many reasons there are for we want to preserve the body…..Of course the major reasons: the being believes that the body is self, the I, the me…. ugh….

If One no longer have the body than One do not exist anymore. Have died expired deceased  passed away, departed  passed on, kaput, finished , life-less,  extinct, vanished,  none-existent, “ NO MORE AMONG THE LIVING!!!”. One is invisible!!!!!! [Heavy item itself]

  The second reason the being KNOWS [implanted] that if One is not a body than One is nothing, do not exist, have no identity, not recognised, not known,  will be forgotten, have  been forgotten,  invisible… not loved, not wanted, have been destroyed, lost all value which was the body and  [everything which mattered went down on the drain with it too which includes his memory, his knowledge, his abilities, ability to communicate etc..]…., which was life itself in other words  the person now stated, acknowledged and become known by everyone that the new  state of that person is now “”dead therefore becomes a History…Past …Previous… Former,    HEHEHE….. Lovely… in fact life begins after One gets rid of the body..

The Implants, are set up in order to the being to trust, that in this narrow opening- from conception till One has kicked the bucket and laid underground the ”Earth to Earth bit, the dust to dust thing” [in my reality: dirt to Earth, since I don’t see the body as a valuable commodity to have, but hindrance, a total prisons] this incredible strong believe is implanted that without the body One is nothing-absolutely nothing -nobody. Even the very word when used “NOBODY” gives on explanation imply suggest where is the being-what is that being simply nobody-nothing=no identity.  [That phrase also implies that the being-the person has not achieved importance here on this planet, not partaken making it more solid] Three cheers for important beings they have added solidity to this massy MEST..

  So, what is the being to do but want to preserve the body every possible way, to continue its existence, which believed is that of self; Few examples: food we must eat in order to remain here, THE MORE INSECURE THE PERSON MORE THEY EAT, OBISITY IS HERE BECAUSE of THAT REASON. Those who are fat are most insecure, unhappy in every possible way… Loss of confidence, loss of things,  since food=solid give security an anchor point… You see other anchor points were lost, havingness of financial- solid items.” The must haves” same as  in everybody  have, implanted to make One happy if they own a house, kids, boats, dog, trips, have title  front or end of the name, those musts in order to belong otherwise life is not worth living , let’s have important heavy, huge body… no One can’t take that away… when the person realizes that it was a mistake: pull in all sort of illness, to get rid of the blunder: that decrepit fat-old body…let’s have a cancer, a heart attack a good car accident…be killed somehow and the blame is on somebody else…their fault..

 But back to aging…What ages the person? The meat body was made to last just for time span till it reproduced, after that they were harvested for food by other beings… Even putting the Dead body underground was and is re-cycling… nothing more… back to Earth to decompose and to nurture other life forms… very economical procedure.

Now what ages the body is simply what ONE’s  considers: those thoughts the very agreements the person has: here is a few from thousands of them: getting on with the years, the years pile up, everybody ages, everybody gets old, inevitable we all get old, nothing will turn back the time, we can’t stop time, our parents died, we die, everybody must die, it is in the genes, the sunrays ages one, hard work ages one, hard life ages one, we only can live so long, our time is limited here, we must go, the body  becomes “time-worn”-good lie’s since in fact there is no time, so how could the body be affected by passing of time?

Calendars, years and having days are very flimsy considerations-agreements.. How could TIME passible run out?   Some say in connection with ageing: time is running out for the old timer…. YES, what that in fact means?  The Implanted game= which one is view-ing is in fact coming to the end…Since life is just a game, nothing more so the end must come too, same as  in any game-like computer games, soccer matches.. etc..

 BUT the sad part the being  is made to believe this game is  a lifespan – living – existing and One only survives if One has the body, so let’s preserve the body, let’s keep it in ‘Good shape”  you; slice the wrinkle’s off,  stretch the skin drum like, mud-packs, rejuvenating herbal baths, B-12 injections, massages, acupuncture, vitamin creams, hair implants,  lets pump iron, run 5 miles a day,  do yoga, hum to ones belly button, eat salads, eat fat, don’t eat fat, eat meat don’t eat meat… no milk product, since that is not good and no salt… no drugs, but take pills which will be rejuvenating from the inside…. Sniff things; visualize things sitting under the banyan tree, ageless body smooth skin, serenity etc…

  But that’s enough since every person knows those thoughts and has those thought. Now what can be done about to eliminate the ageing factors…the very issues which rise’s up  the same time with the wrinkles…

  There are hundreds of different symptoms One notices as the “years” go by. One simply eliminates those conditions, what one “FEELS” what One thinks, how One see’s the changes in the body… Those changes are the strong stimulating factors because they are visually present… so are the numbers like 50, 60 70 etc… They all have meanings to the being so they have to be as-ised in sessions.. [you ask how long that would take? Take long as it takes… we have “time” since we are not going anywhere, the Universe is Infinite and we love to play the games… with auditing we just regain self, the control over our creations and we just eliminating the effects…

But here is the BUT, there is always one, that is “intention-counter intention” which hold the MEST in place…

One not only have to be audited an all the considerations-agreements on aging but on YOUTH too.  Huge items-agreements: Wanting to be young and all the reasons why One would like to be young again “in body” and the very meanings what is YOUTH IT SELF MEANS to self. One simply can’t reach age if One did not have been youth- being young: had those considerations-agreements too.

 The minus- the plusses hold the AGE in place. It is equally important to have auditing in both directions.. One also has to look at the values; the importance’s an aging and of youth too. Same package same game condition same implanted material…

 Yes I have had spent thousands of hours on those items and all the relating agreements and on consideration. I have reaches the “Ageless” state. I have lost the time considerations; there are no years, no time. Therefore no youth, no old age- nothing. I simply am.. What the body do now? How is the body doing? It is going through its normal cycle but It is in total health, by considerations of others who LOOK at this body with the eyes: they say impassible that you are 72. You see, their use their eyes and the  eyes see the body, but they, the beings pick and  up-experience my space and in that space there is no age, years, crippling thought of death or dyeing, the sicknesses which are part of the braking down of the body so they don’t see an old person on old mock-ups, a dyeing-body, but  what they experience is vitality, high energy which is associated here on this Planet as youth…being young…  and in other places: Infinite…. 

 PS:  since we can take one step at a time and by doing that ONE can achieve ones goal and the Rudiments, running ARCB’s handle the toughest old age syndromes… HEHEHE, fun, people.. Nothing but fun.. Looking at the track finding out how very capable we are making a perfectly good looking body =old and ill, and how we making it into such a state as dead? We are truly OT, and powerful in every way!  


Why the being is so overwhelmed by MEST? can one ever get free of MEST?

 Big one, every cognition is immense since every cognition is important since without cognitions one can’t be free of MEST. For years I have been aware no matter how long key- out keep I always have been pulled back- fallen into… get stimulated… experienced something…. regardless, no matter what the cognitions were.

 This morning I was pondering, why one needs to key in when one do not wish, since I have audited my whole  life, why I still pull in-fall into something… also I know what ever I experience don’t have much effect on me, there is no major charge left, but I still pull it in..

The other thought I had, that I know every thought, item, consideration, agreement is a barrier a wall, a anchor which holds one stuck to that item…so I been wondering, just how much space, power one holds?=equals in that moment to whatever the being experiences…. Very simple conclusion… Bloody Hell…. Can one ever get free of MEST?

 I can’t describe exactly how or what I was looking at, since I was just floundering about the sea of thoughts looking for something to grab, Bingo….. Cognition ……. So powerful that I felt the sizzle, the sensation as it as-ised the MEST, the related thoughts….as I set in the Sun-room, I just simply experienced as my Universe realigned itself, The new Understanding always so profound since that understanding is so new, never been experienced or one looked those thoughts ever before… it is the very first time experience..

 What was the Cognition? Very simple….Why is the being a person is so ”overwhelmed” by the MEST universe? [There are lots of reasons and this is one of them.]

 I know LRH has a definition in the dictionary…. But that is just a description… an explanation, but not the very experience which one needs in order to comprehend the meaning in totality..….

 Why the being is so overwhelmed by MEST? Why the MEST moves back on the being even after a huge key-out?

 The being believes, made to believe, went into agreement, that the MEST Universe, within that universe everything is bigger, stronger, tougher, harder, solider, more durable, larger, greater, taller, higher or smaller. The being contenually compare self with those OBJECTS,  since the beings measure self as a “ body” and what that can accomplish, by moving, lifting,  how long it’s last in comparisons which other solid objects…now that is a cats meaow…

 Can’t pick up 100 kilo easily, so I am week, have to crane my neck while looking up at a skyscraper, therefore I am small: tiny in comparison, in size.   Can’t control the wind, the waves, the rain, can’t stop a hurricane therefore I am incapable-helpless.  Freeze in 10 below therefore vulnerable-defenseless toward the elements.  Standing at the mountains base looking up toward the 3000 meter pick, yes I feel so insignificant…in caparison of that creation its sizes endurance, its age: I am nothing.

 I swim in the ocean, and the small wave has more power than me because it can sweep me away into unconsciousness….. The avalanche has so much power: the body can be snuffed out is second… totally powerless against such a forces… Nature is more powerful, I am nothing in comparison…one do believes after encounters such humongous energy… can’t make it across the ocean, in a canoe, or a kayak…. Just can’t.  The body in comparison of the Ocean too small, too weak, too frail to be able to handle, to survive such on ordeal….  Fire burns, can’t be in that one… much stronger than I, I burn in the fire….I perish…the fire is much more powerful than the body of mine.. The material of the body is mostly water yes? Drop it off 10 story building and watch how it splatters! Low-grade material, was not made to last too long…everything effects it, so very vulnerable in comparison to a nice boulder, yes give me a good size boulder, I take that any time..!]

We die so easily [we believe we do disappear when the body is no more]  we are so week, one itsy-bitsy bullet, snuffs out the body, we only last short period of time, why, head an collision do us in the end comes at us with the speed of the car..…. Good one….the solidity of the car is better, heavier and more powerful.

   So my cognition simply is, long as one measures- compares self with the things about –around self… long as one believes, no I can’t walk through the wall because I just can’t since two solid item can’t be pushed through each other, while attempting.…solids do collide; the body loses out once more.  Long as one believes one as a meat body, one never will walk through that wall and see what is beyond and see its secret… Long as one believes that London or Mexico City, or the Himalayas are far from where one lives, the distance will exist because one measures the distance in comparison of the size of the body…. so unreachable remoteness exist for the body with that for the being too.

Yes… how many 5’6’’ length fits into let say 1500miles? Because one  need to measures two different concepts- perceptions- observation two different realities, items: one “always” is the meat body the other usually some solid thing in this case the terrain… Well, who is losing out? The body the being of course….. So for the body that length- becomes a huge distance therefore the beings who identifies  with the body be the body believes that is SELF…  so small, the distance is so big, well, of course such a distance, is overwhelming…. Crossing the Sahara, impassible, one must have water or will die of heath and other obstacles. Only miracles would work if one would tempt such on adventure alone, no water and barefoot…ughh. One dies for sure.. Suicide… did in reality the person would die?

So the beings continually measures, judges, compares relates links associates to everything how the body would survive those  experiences, involvements, participations in connection to anything  and what will the outcome be…

 Since the body is weak, puny, small, pathetic, wretched inadequate in comparison to the MEST in contrasts  to Solidity the person who uses that body as on anchor believes and made to believe  he too are those things therefore are being overwhelmed, for the MEST is unyielding… remains solid,  the body is fragile, weak small, in any situation. … mind you.. we do well with down duvet covers.. Anything lighter in weight or smaller as body size than our own: I am a giant in comparison to on ant; I am force to reckon with so look out mosquitoes…

PS:  Because the continual comparisons to objects the being do believe that one have size.. Baloney…With this cognition, for me as a spiritual being, the so called space is no longer affected… From now size, I no longer have, just about time…

“LRH said that pleasure moments enhaces survival”… that equals to pigswill in value… [no insult intended toward pigs.

“LRH said that pleasure moments enhances survival….. pigswill… and no insult intended toward pigs.

“””LRH said that pleasure moments enhaces survival.””” “THAT IS TRUE” yeeeeeeees.. Survival in the MEST and he has demonstrated that by his actions how he has conducted -lived his life.

To become more solid petrified into total solidity… To be walled in, buried under, suppressed into… than have a cross placed on one’s ”soul” which reads: died wealthy … was flush… loaded.. well off, was well known important person therefore remembered by many…. Therefore he had value.. a treasured being he was…[Shit]… had it all- everything… did more than the average Jo, controlled more, had others at his back and call,  Made others do what he wanted to do, controlled uniformed slaves…. as are SO. Sign them up for billion years to be servant to MEST, to remain in that position, walled into MEST through his will his command his control..

To have control to such an extent to affect beings –beings for billion years….. Bloody Hell… in the name of Clearing  the Planet, to make others free, and meanwhile the “self” to be wedged into MEST by a promise and by a gained ” Pleasure moments?

Since signing for such an extended time period ’Billion years”[ the numbers alone meant to impress]that signed document given being a value-importance=pleasure moment “in  pride”. And that PROMISE alone will hold that being captured enslaved in MEST as a servant, unless has that deed confronted in session and those item and earlier similar ones audited out. 
 Hell… Agreements- pacts, are un-cut invisible strings which hold the being to the promised forever and a day…that is not a Spiritual Path one should walk in order to attain the infinite State and it has nothing to do with spirituality…[ LRH even controlled through making others to promise… What was that? His bank has demanded such … he needed the glorification of what he could do] Those were his pleasure moments to bend the will of others and that given him his power…

His reality went only so far, that height that level… I would call his level his reality on spirituality none existent… He has trapped beings In Hell by their believing in ” spirituality” because those souls believed that is an only way out… LRH committed offense of the highest magnitude.. …. he was trusted and he used that trust to trap, and to benefit from trust of others..

He built his church, his “corporation” on the formula of a ” Implant stations” the Membered are totally re-stimulated in that environment… can’t think for them self…

He has ignored the vulnerability of every being, that their stimulation was enhanced there, he has known the Banks power yet use that power to control, to gain wealth for him self.

He counted – calculated on the power of ONE Word and on its magical draw-quality “SPIRITUALITY” through that concept ability to gain, to acquire more MEST.. That was his spirituality- the pleasure moment was measured how well one was doing in the MEST universe what one could own…

LRH was admired for his skills which were related- linked in with control of MEST…He was venerated for his ability to “dazzle … amuse… charm… had huge personality, magnetism and he used that as a tool to gain and control…. I don’t see any spiritual …divine…mystical…supernatural ability there, not for one second, but pigswill…[I hope the pigs are not insulted since it is not my intention to put down their nourishment as something bad as LRH’s reality.]

Pleasure moments are the heaviest traps because their addictive nature lures the being back over and over, and the being in fact continually search out those actions- which produces by having= the experiences of pleasure…

Pleasure Moments can be handled regardless of their nature, since the pleasure moments are just doing-ness sensations, vibrations feelings desires moods wishes wants needs cravings hungers thirsts all are implanted passions, mental emotional state of some kind.

In my reality, all conditions can be audited out regardless.. Since I speak from experience gained in sessions.

Pleasure moments are highly adictive because the person wants it needs it and continually- actively looks for it: by seeking out the pleasure moment as ”good” have become on activity which is worth living for, without pleasure life has no value, has become meaningless..
What a bowl of crap… to make the humans believe that pleasure is the answer.. and what pleasure continual seeking..looking for those moment ensures that the person is trapped in the solid world of pleasure and in pleasure one will never find the infinite.. the freedom from all what having-owning experiencing provides.


happiness: the big gun, where is it on the tone scale… implant from Hell

 Basic motivator: chasinge to capture that elusive- intengible happiness…

Just imagine how much I have waded through, to get this result…. you never guess what item i run last night….” Happiness” And I have found interesting result. There is such a thing as implanted artificial Happiness… Which was given experienced as “reward” for whatever….  but that Happiness has a limitation it is like being in a box and lasts only for a short duration… since it was just a single ‘dose’ you see, one could get big amount of Happiness  as a reward or just a small dosage… interesting yes???? Also in this recall… the implanted Happiness needs a connection like being only happy if one has somebody to LOVE…. something one received….. Something one achieved….. You see here G.? This kind of Happiness is always related with MEST-energy creation…. This implanted Happiness puts one back to MEST to acquire buy obtain more MEST in order to be Happy again….  this MEST universe is put together by the person who was so bloody clever so full of shit… that even Happiness he created as reward was and is total trap??

Happiness is a pleasure moment which everybody reaches for… want it need it, ones goal is being happy in life.…

We were made to believe that happens is the highest state.. The most coveted sensation.. Without happiness life is Hell so if not present not experienced one is not successful. One is depressed, so let’s commit suicide; let’s take a bit of hemlock, let pull that trigger.

Have a good dose of drug which can elevate one to that elusive state.  Let’s get drunk… throw a party, or gut somebody in the dark allay: if that act brings happiness to wallow in blood why not… be a serial killer.. Wars are just that… bunch of trigger happy “Generals”  who are only Happy if blood is flowing in plenty but long as it is not their own… they only view the disaster of their cause  the suffering from the distance, their hands do not have blood on, but their universe is floating in the suffering of others….Hunters are hunting for “Pleasure” kill for pleasure, many do just that…. or Wipe out that nation, drop a bomb on that bloody thing which we can’t confront since their thinking is not in aligned with our reality level…. Good one… the source of unhappiness… Let kill everything which causes unhappiness if we all achieve that than we be happy, we finally all will be free…  Every sin was achieve-created  which exist can be named are in the BAD books  were in order to gain that elusive Happiness…..Cause of sin is to gain happiness for self-[ one view point, only one]  

 Just think, my friend… yourself what have you done this lifetime to gain such a elusive, vapor like concepts, which has evaporated when you thought you finally had it? Look around you: just how many objects lay about: owned by you, every one of those items was enquired including a wife, lover, plant… ring, pair of pants, a haircut…car.. house.. new dress, taking a course, to gain new knowledge, cup of hot java…  act of sex.. email from the beloved friend…. All is indication the left over from the elusive- intangible Happiness…… we do everything in order to gain that indescribable sensation… Happiness…

Last night I went into session, I wanted to know the reason I felt such a incredible indescribable happiness.. Pleasure moments = in my case: days… Well, what can I say.. on Item is a Item so I run it.  But my happiness for its existence had no reason none what so ever….my happiness is when I finally find on item to run… bloody hell I am scraping the so called bottom of the barrel Which is in my reality the top of the tone scale since pleasure moments are more additive than cocaine… one can kick cocaine,  but not reaching for Happiness=pleasure moment that one is impassible while one is locked into MEST game…woof… wooffff…. I do speak Dog….

 But the session un-earthed interesting information.. COG. in other words:    Happiness which is gained, gotten acquired  in connection with something object-subject  which has connection to MEST is Implanted. Happiness was given as a reward for something which is still in use to this days…

 There are volumes, size extent dimension – amounts to that kind of Happiness since doses were given larger or smaller for achievements… that still exist here. One archives good grades; you get from parents something which make you happy…, since it is an AMOUNT: dose a size, volume dimension “It is energy” and this was created to lead one back to MAMA.

 Happiness that sensation= experience do wear off it vanishes and  dissolves since it is in connection to item or a being, some sort of created solid existing thoughts..  The other kind of Happiness that has nothing to do with or has no connection to MEST of any kind… One is simply “happy,” feels out of this world”: you see the meaning here?  Out of this World is not in MEST…

  Finding it out that in fact that Happiness here on this Planet is like a railroad itself —- lead one back to the MEST….into the implant itself.; to get more solid items…in hope to be Happy again… vicious brutal circle.. Happiness is the carrot, to keep one reaching for more solid items, relationships. Than will be happy again….ughhhhh……where is that hamster? Running, moving the wheel of life here in Earth!

PS: please note Happiness happens, occurs, and experienced only if one  gains-get solidity – item -connection to solidity…one can’t be happy without reason… get a new girlfriend a wife I be happy again… that old shoe is too worn., that kind of happiness wont last…

  To understand that one do not need the MEST… don’t need any objects, subject a human being in connection to, to feel have experience that incredible sensation,one can  free-float, truly be self without any addition….. How I love … I can’t count the ways……

joy….. simply is….

How do I feel, what do I feel? What do I sense?

 How can one explain, the total happiness which is ones universe … just is  … now…. this fraction in timeless-ness what is… nothing can affect, change and bring  new.   there is joy so complete that I wonder how the small insignificant body bear- tolerate such flow and not vaporise …. Such a power….. the fullness,  yet unfilled- empty  not connected yet everything -all.  My silent voice soars as I sing…. the song is harmony….  joy –  affinity- infinite…