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admiration, big time… good to key out….

“Admiration” don’t dissolve things make them disappear on the contrarily we become one=, in fact it’s unite. Example: the admirers of movie stars, some people walk talk dress like the admired person. A school boy admires a pilot he to wish to become one. One admires a poet and that same person read over and over those lines and knows it verbatim: now he too can feel that creative energy…. We buy thing because we admire fall in love with those and we display them in our house, we wear the designer clothing because we admire how that style was created. We tie the admired person to our life we get a license which insures one of unity: marriage.
Our admiration do not dissolve but we merge with that admired somebody or something by experiencing that the new-ness we become closer in fact that closeness gives on illusion of not being there anymore. Admiration is unifying, combining one with the admired that is the reason not being re-stimulated, have reaction to, accepted, allowed, we can have it in our space, in other words can live with it because the continual love-admiration.
Admiration, flowing admiration is the best way to key-out from stimulation but it will not as-is those admired items- objects- subjects- issues.

. Cognition continues…..
To create continuum, a new game condition, one wants to separate self from the admired subject since already newly created admired existing. To separate self from the admired one needs distance in order to continue with the different game….. The separating items are: I don’t want it any more finished with it, I don’t like it.
Later: I dislike, hate, aversion, loathing, distaste, disgust,[ indicating, going down tone because still having] and with revulsion one feel, thinks of the same once admired subject [wife, marriage etc..] After that come the actual act of wanting to destroy that once admired: divorce, selling the item[ bored with, lost its value] kill the baggers, pull down the building , burn it chop it, slice it, move out of its space, burry it under ground, deep six it with weights tied to, blow it to up in order to get it out of one’s universe. The being has invented myriad ways, concepts to push away the unwanted now value-less being, object, and subject. But cant. Impassible. Nothing will erase but confrontation as in session one can as-is.
The largest lies exist when one say all is forgotten, don’t have it, all gone, I don’t remember it, I don’t think about it, can’t recall, these are the vain attempts to “not- is” to nullify, abolish, eliminate, reverse that creation.
I believe the strongest creation which hold the being in place anchor one to that admired whatever, whoever, is I don’t want it, I don’t have it any more. That gives only on” illusion” nothing more than that…

This was posted in Geir Isene’s and Silvia Kusada’s blob too, but  it is my cognition, my reality. Thanks and Happy Holidays!



let’s look at Humor, what is…..

I know LRH has talked about it since I have a vogue recall reading that.

Plus we all know laughter in session is on indicator of energy release. Good stuff.

Over the past two years I have had sessions on the subjects since I have
noticed, some people have more others less and some people none at all. I know somebody who have a very good one but after a while listening to it and to other considerations she have, just did not add up, the senses of humor and the rest of her considerations.    They clashed. For nothing better to do i have had a session on HUMOR.
[Not only on one word but regular way of doing things. Do you have on
ARC B-K? Naturally! If i don’t understand something, have no reality
than I do have one or more!!! ARC B-K that is! ]

I have found a beautiful long band like the Milky Way, way out in the Universe.

That band of energy I loved instantly. It was mocked up from substances like ground diamonds all flashing reflecting each other in myriad of color. And they not flowed but swirled and bubbled like the bubbles in champagne, effervescence!!!

HUMOR, What a delightful Mock Up!! I loved it. I could see that beings have personality based on such beautiful muck up. That was the end of that session.
But what happens over the eons to such a beings?

Well, same as any other beings. Gets a past, in the form of collected stuff which he holds very valuable the so-called havingness, track filled with incredible amount of agreed upon considerations, huge amount of false data, like: life and death, living, learning, love, hate, solidity on all levels, [very valuable shit] lots of loss, since on loss we really can agree that we are small, helpless and lonely, all the consideration, those thoughts are a wonderful commodity which all beings hold so dear to heart etc….etc. so over the eons the lies piles up high= we must make solidity. Magic need to be out lawed.

So I had another solo session on “Humor’. Well in this one new reality come to light in form of cog.

Being who use the mock up “being very funny” they do it in order to push away, repel, divert, deflect, drive away, resists, reject the incoming energy flows.””” If I make fun of something which comes into my space than I change that something into lesser in weight in seriousness and that way it won’t hurt me, if I change it than I am in control”””” So, let’s make fun of it, that way wont bite!!

 In other words the beings confront is so low [lower than the frog’s bottom] and have to change everything, no matter what comes in. [ of course we too, who listen to the change being made to that concept we laugh too, since we too can see the difference of the two flows and the comedians representation is definitely much
better much lighter in weight of the communication and we definitely feel better having that thought, that changed, altered, concept in our space. Wonderful.

That being, the comedian, the person with great sense of humor have so much fear the only way can handle the so called “living”, in  the MEST universe by constantly make “fun” out of everything and everybody. So there are many comedian out there and the comedy, the level of they produce to entertain is depends on the level of tone scale they are at. According to that level they pull in the listeners who are on the same tone level too.

Today I had another go on the same subject. HUMOR. But I also put in the withhold button. Who would ever thing there is a “withhold” on such a matter as humor? But there was one, so was the instant cognition.

 Humans and other members of the Universe for the ones who have great need of solidity do not or cannot have a sense of humor, because in that band ” HUMOR” nothing can stay solid.     Effervescence in the form of bubbling brilliant light where nothing will gel!     Look out we can’t have humor, life need to be taken very seriously, so, the beings who have great fear, to lose, things will disappeared on them or even self in some way, don’t have or can’t have a sense of humor.  Just can’t. BECAUSE_ Humor melts away ones worries, ones problems, when one have humor: one thinks positive.

To a serious person who is overwhelmed by fear, Humor is a very dangerous commodity, only the frivolous can be like that who don’t have a care in the world! Good God we must be very correct, serious, keep to the agreed rules, we must keep things as they are, tradition, formality, strong principles, keep things under control at all times, never change, we can’t let our hair down. We need to be solid citizens,  or MEST universe will fall apart… Heavens forbid!

An apple a day, well OK, but The best remedy still remains the same Have a good belly laugh! That will loosen up the solidity of the MEST.!!!

And what happens when solidity is gone, good heavens we cant let that happen because again there will be magic in the Universe!




The most difficult sassion i had as a solo auditor, the tech works,

The most difficult sassion i had as a solo auditor, the tech works,

Maria. … The auditor’s code…. This was posted in Geir Isenes blog too.

It has great importance and it should be in place at all times. That code will allow the PC to continue and not being left stuck in the incident. That code beside the Rudiments allowed me to continue and erase the bank. Here it is how it has worked for me. In the solo course at ST Hill we really had to know all the words and do the demo, than drill and drill with a partner first than under very watchful eyes of Bert Griswold.

When I started the solo sessions that was in, the ack, too the complete communication cycle between the auditor and the PC. Worked very well.
Being a PC and the auditor was not easy, I had in the first 10 years of soloing auditing huge obstacles to confront and overcome.
Some of the auditing questions put me into coma like state which could last for hour or two,  those times I could come out for s second or two just enough to repeat the auditing question “ I repeat the question etc….” than I would sink back into that incredible un-conscious state…. This could go on and on. But the question was there to ask, the code was kept the TR’s in, the way I have learned in the solo course: what is the difference between the auditor and the PC.

I would like to share the most difficult sessions I ever had out of the tens of thousands.  The topic was HELL but I won’t repeat the auditing question which triggered off such a huge mass which lasted for three days.   That concept whatever it was held me twisted bunched up in agony and nearly un-conscious.

The session started early afternoon, yet I could not get out of it by late evening, I was exhausted hungry, felt panic since I could not see pictures but felt that twisting agony.

It never happened before to have 8 hour session in one sitting, but I had to end it. Fallowing morning I went to work I was in the zombie state all day and driving was very difficult since I was not conscious. At home back to session I went, same all over, occasionally I could surface enough to repeat the auditing question. Again I could not get out. This time I stopped to eat than back to unconscious state. The session was almost 11 hours long. In the morning back to work same state continued, but by being having some thoughts surfacing I realized I was in trouble and felt panic what if I can’t pull myself out?  big time heavy panic set in…

At home eat, than back into session, with the same auditing question. The most difficult part of the session just started, because realization has come I must look beyond the unconsciousness, I must find my way out in order to see what I was in. I must find a tread, a picture which will give me something to continue with something to fallow. It worked, very slowly; I pounded the walls of Hell at first with just a smidgen of returning energy, since my thoughts were less than whiff of smoke in the autumn evening

But the auditing questions continued, the ack.’s were there to. The pictures started to roll and I have come out of the depth of Hell. The cognitions rolled in for days and I could not go into session for a month. Auditor’s code well learned and being kept can take any PC out of any incident. That session was 6 hours.  Wins galore,   Hell as=ised,  the universe rejoiced…………

endless string of pearls

The cognition’s are like pearls. Each one is born out of pain and suffering,
out of mystery, secrets, and darkness.
Yet how beautiful they are!
They can vary in momentarily importance before they vanish.
Yet they remain yours for ever in the form of invisible knowledge.
The basics are the rarest of all pearls, since only few exist!!!
They value buy your freedom out of the MEST Universe.
For your future you have my  best, my postulate,
On endless string of pearls of great beauty.