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Big item, aging the why, years the why…….the need for solidity…..

Well, new revelation. I have been curious, about age, aging same as anyone else out there and I had many sessions on the subject and have found great many things about age the reasons for aging.  What has puzzled me is birthdays, why one is so happy chalking up the years and knowing that with each number the end is closer to the day when one fold ones wings?

 I had no understanding of that reasoning, that desire which has twofold edge.

The happiness grows with the higher number, there is some kind of satisfaction goes with that, celebration of achievement?

 On the other hand there is knowledge that one will be going the body will give in, give up, keel over, the dust to dust bit with each passing year.

 So why the celebration OH WOW I am 100 years old!! Let’s bang the pots together make a big noise, Hip Hip-hurray!!!

The same time the person lives in total fear of death, knowing the clock is ticking just about its last tic and the great reaper with the sickle standing by the easy chair.  This did not add up to me. So I have searched the track for answers that is not easy since I don’t have time any more, lost that concept long way back since TIME is earthly creation.

  I have seen also in session that the aged body with wrinkles white hair represent: wisdom and commands respect. You may lough here.  But of course the wisdom which has come with the wrinkled face and silver hair was not here on this Planet.  I also seen different devices in the body to control its existence which is called here  DNA.

 Today I had another though about: years and age.

 Well, blow me to Bermuda [movie, Walt Disney:; Sword in the stone, the Wizard said that] I have found something intriguing which makes lots of sense.

 PERMENENCY, age is permanency. More years one chalks up that indicates ones permanency, one’s ability to have staying power in the MEST be- cause in MEST. WOW, what on invention in thinking evolution!!!!!!!

SO HERE IS A BIT OF NEWS. Cry people-cry!!!!!!!!!

 Some smart arse way back figured it out by accident of course, if one identifies with a solid object sticks to that solid object  than could become anything: boulder, three, machine, planet, any old- object he anchors himself too, therefore become permanently existing in time and space. Long as that objects exists of course [ownership here], we get a label: I am a rock etc… lovely idea that idea is and it is working, beautifully!!!!!!!!

 I AM, I AM we shout with joy, I AM something, somebody….. Gross……….enormous lie…….. Big enough to cause transformation of the universe………… from spiritual to solid…. And it has…………

 So evolutions continues, it has to since rocks don’t move much unless there is a land slide or earthquake so let’s get into something which can move, walk about, or fly, so we can be in other places too. Distance is born.

 Brilliant, simply brilliant, evolution in its height. So the being can be mobile and be permanent too………… Love this stuff…………….

 Sooner or later the formed bodies evolved  mobility of solid forms were invented with limbs which could move things, legs which can carry that body, now wonders of all wonders the being has achieved its height of their ignorance become solidly anchored into the body.

 OH, have permanency, years, now have time to become part of all solid.  Let’s create a calendar and we can have a game who is here longer who can stay with the body longer who is more solid, you or I.

 I can out live you I am older than you!!!!!!!!!!!  Pride, importance, value, WOW, I have more candles on my cake!!! And we give presents=revards for the birthday person in celebration of permanency in solidity. And we mourn the departure, the death of the body. This is all backward thinking, acting.

 Separation from the body should be celebrated in jubilation from the slave state: the solidity!!!!

 Love it, just love it.  The drama!!!

 Darwin was right, there was evolution in formation of the bodies but that has not started here on this Planet. [Nothing ever started here this planet “here” things are re-invented are just a re-stimulations, nothing more, illusion, figment of one’s imagination, living memory]

 Even if LRH was right of the age of this planet that is nothing, those miserable millions of years are nothing in comparison to other planetary systems existence. The evolution of ”different bodies in design” goes much longer than this planets existence.

  Over the eons bodies evolved  and were re-invented over and over.[  you know better mouse trap bit and the implanters moved into act offering their wears too]  Of course the new kind of bodies become in vogue every time and every being wanted new model. [ Being a dog is much lower in value than the human meat body now, yes?] So if the body would last let say 1000 years[ good quality material] or more than that,  than planet would be covered with bodies: overpopulation.= no good.

 Now if the body was invented which had a clock inside with a timer like we have one for boiling eggs,  [ hehehe, no sophistication from me!] than there can be lots of bodies because they won’t last too long. When the time is up the body dissolves.[ made of cheap material, plus designed to reproduce it self now, that is a plus, since bodies this meat kind were used for feed, harvested for other species to eat,  cow’s and bulls these bodies are]

 So let’s get back to the Cognition, The being is occupying the body that means, solidity, means permanency=age: huge achievement, spiritual being now has solidity.

 No wonder after the so called DEATH of the body the being jumps into a new body so fast  with speed mind boggling, since the being associate self with solidity therefore that solidity gives the false believes he is existing because the body is existing.  So body is a must have in order to be, good one! Around, around we go.

 No wonder the words are coined: ‘Idiotic, idiot, stupid, ill-informed, ignorant, oblivious, unwise, unconscious, unaware, un-knowing, naïve, innocent, etc…etc…

 So the birthdays are celebrated with the firecrackers going off.

 Care to know the reason for the candles on the top of the cake? Candles have significance which is the spiritual side of the being. Light is part of creation. Candles= light is the celebration of the life-force existence. Somehow the being celebrates his solidity with the body “his continuum” yet unconsciously he knows he is the infinite, the creator: the life-force. Lights a light in celebration that one is and existing, and we all gather around confirm, agree that is so. Solidity continues with celebration.

So what is missing: to be educated, knowing the tech is good enough? That is only is, only is and remains only second hand information, which will not free the being from the bank, no matter what even if the beings know it verbatim.  One must get education through auditing, through cognitions since the cognitions melts, dissolves the false data.

 In sessions one finds out “who”  real one is, the we, the self and how has the I, the self-created  unknown: the great trap.


 The greatest sin the only sin the spiritual being have that he has forgotten the he is the creator of the solid forms, and not the solid form itself.


Ghostly state, in fact is more real than this since that is the natural state.

 There is a state after the being loses the body but still wanting to communicate with words with others who stayed behind.  But of course words no longer are there since the being don’t have the body-machine, a mouth, lungs etc…, ability to form the sounds- the words.

 Many believe these beings are ghosts; of course that is a very good label for that state.

 Ghostly beings are just that regular beings [same as you or I ]who partially still attached to the MEST universe and they still believe they belong there.[ have not keyed out yet] These beings looking for the way back to here, to the family, the so called loved ones.

 Some not really looking for that but wish to make wrong go right or just to get even, the revenged, hate can be very strong, also unfinished business has great pulling power.[ there are many reasons one wants to come back, many as the thoughts one has existing]

 But not to worry this is the state which sooner or later will dissolve, [spiritual being too get keyed-out] that happens when some strong energy, happening will pull the beings attention away from here from MEST etc… and any cases, most cases they realize that they are free[ don’t have the restriction of the body] and the “wow” happens the realization hits the being like a ton of brick WOW and more WOW! , after that one can have choices again come back here or trot off to some other World. .

 On the long run it is a state which has the beginning and its end same as any other state.

 There is a very well-known saying which is going back to long time, some other place and other time when everybody knew about the state where one could not talk. That state was of course” the ghostly state where ONE was lost for words.”

 We have that here when we just can’t say what we want; our thoughts sits in remains in silence inside our universe we want to speak we want to express our thoughts with words but nothing happens. We are in the ghostly state[ keyed in to it in that moment] where we were ” lost for words” .

 I thought this was fun to see, have reality on, since the Ghostly state usually not well remembered since it don’t have solidity.



The life-force in action how it looks like the” fizz of life” in our daily life. How we create.

 The life-force in action how it looks like the” fizz of life” in our daily life. How we create.

 Inspired by David St Lawrence.

 Again my reality how I see creation in the Universe.

Effervescent =happiness: the bubbles are dancing in the colors of the rainbow

Tranquil=the bubbles are light golden- silver in colour and move so gently like the sea on the quiet windless summer day

Anger= the bubbles are huge and colorless and after they rising burst into gray mass and splatter.

Old age= very quiet, not much movement, over the smooth surface of the water occasional wave action, than quietness moves under into different level.

Sharing, exchange= two different coloration of fizz from different direction meet and intermingle, very colorful lots of fizz action.

 Philosophy= it lost its fizz since it has been chewed over too many times.

Disappointment=the fizz is withdrawn inflows, [this I see as happens]fantastic. One pulls the fizz back from different terminals, cutting the connection.

Reaching out [wanting to know ]= sending gentle waves in segments out , like little tentacles, the colours are translucent green,

Dancing with a partner= the fizz is like the gathering of tornado like funnel the color is purple.- lilac with a occasional burst of fiery spark, simply beautiful.

Suffering; has no fizz, no life-force, the darkest clouds imaginable rolling out and coming back to the creator. Boiling like action, turmoil.

Love-making the act itself= molten gold heavy lava like movements flows , swirls, fizzes and falls rises – continues. One is stronger than the other, the stronger fizz-flow is the dominant flow. Interesting to observe.

Gardening, working with soil=the fizz is most incredible, the fizz is shooting out of the soil all around the color is silver-gold the fizz is like geysers bursting up. My heart nearly stops, seeing this incredible movement, incredible phenomenon. I am in awe of nature; I am totally experiencing this magical creative energy.

Falling in love= I see two sources moving toward to the center pink-silver fiery sparkles move meet and the movement become one and becomes  swirling column. Beautiful.

 Death= mine= irruption of incredible force, like volcano, fiery, force finally released from its prison. Not bad at all.

Boredom=no fizz looks black-gray and flat.

Friendship= gentle wave action, the color of the fizz is muted, but the waves moves like ocean purples, greens, violets oh, rose there is lot of rose in the creation of friendship.

David, I hope you enjoy reading this as I have written since it is you who have given this opportunity to see how we create the fizz. Thank you for the heavenly gift.

I have found the reason for the existence of solidity.

   I have found the reason for the existence of solidity.  Looking for magic, looking for miracles?

  How to be the cause over  the MEST, the solidity the daily grind  the daily burdens, which become so heavy since they  do happen every day since these every day happenings are the most difficult things to deal with because the fizz the delight of creation has been as-ised long time back.

It is this  has hit me: if the fizz, the delight of creation no longer exists, but only the thoughts remains since those thoughts no longer have the original energy the meaning it is now dead weight, just sits there.

The daily grind becomes a burden heavy, persistent, overpowering since it is solid now, the fizz, the delight, the happiness of creation is gone. It seems that energy is the creative energy, brings something into existence but do not remain with that item=thoughts.  It is only the creative energy, what makes something remaining is the additions: the alterations.

 By solid I mean: the thoughts don’t have the moving energy the sparkle the life force which has created it at the first place. Because of this they don’t move; have on effervescent stimulating affect as the first creation have been.

To be stimulated daily  the being must add other stimulants continually, [old ones won’t do]This can be anything, alcohol, new love affair, illness, new creation, doing something, learning something, new activities,  new way of dressing, combing ones hair different way, having sex with differently, getting drunk, take a vacation.

These added activities give the illusion the stimulation the being needs in order to overcome, to be able to tolerate the daily, heavy burdens of solidity.

 In fact these activities are the cover up, since the daily routine still need to be done.

 If one looking for, wants to live the magic have the daily miracles, than one must live the old behind the MEST universe, which was all ended, re-done, completed  over and over again millions of time.

No wonder it has become solid, unbearable heavy: since no longer hold the creative energy.

One, without the MEST can be free and each new creation has that magical quality which is life force itself to enjoy have as IS now.

 PS: home, what is home? The many splendorous beginnings the many wondrous creations….. which have nothing to do with MEST……………….

 PS, PS: Now you can see why relationships which contain sex fizzes out. The Fizz, is the only at the beginnings of the meeting, mating [[ but it was not the body which created the fizz first place but the new communication, new experiences of each other’s energies’]  and after that is gone , the communication thoughts got known as-ised since that is only alive while it is new,  the semi dead  body remains which holds very little stimulation on its own, now if one do not put continually new thoughts into that sexual act, than there is nothing there. Any relationship can be created continually. But again this is my reality.

PS PS PS:   What adds  too, to make the solidity is one continually wants that stimulation with that continually goes back to the original  item but the item can only brought back to life in new unit of time by re-creating, wanting to recreate the original by doing this one in fact ADD to a new layer which seems like the old creation the first, but in fact is totally new, now new item piled up on the original.


what you own, will sink you, it’s up to you : to swim or sink.

GEIR: I have revised this so if you care to post it go head.

I have finished the largest cycle I ever soloed on since it covers every aspect of life. Love that is, it has taken month and a half to as-is. When I say as-is I really mean it. Nothing left, not one molecule. I just don’t write this in my blog. Who would believe it and have reality on it?

While I have taken all the bloody considerations on love apart I have found the only key which holds the MEST in place. Again this I can’t write of it who would believe it, not only that no one could comprehend the simplicity of it. I have found it when looking for the reason for jealousy [jealousy, not included only in love relationships but encompass everything what the person believes owns therefore the fear of loss existing], and when I have found the word “Ownership” when whole bloody thing has as-ised including the sensation of love-affinity. Ownership=Fear they go hand in hand, they can’t be separated.  One does not exist without the other.

While I run it in session what is “ownership” what we own new reality cognition come in.

COG: What we mock-up we own and have of course instant attachment to it,[instant attachment means: we experience]  so we hold it, since that mock-up is ours we feel very protective toward it and we don’t like it touched=interfered with  so evaluation invalidation  is a no-no.

While “in love” a person believes in ownership toward the “loved person”  since there is a feeling of ownership there than there is a fear existing of losing that person so there is the “Jealousness” comes into play,[[ not the person one fears of losing but the mock-up which is connected to that person the  “Love”  the person becomes so powerfully protective toward the ownership of that mock-up loved subject, could kill etc… history is full of recording of such incident. Killing out of passion,  The persons FEAR IS , the loved person will withdraw the Love and will give it to somebody else, stupid I know, but there is no rationality exist. Because there is no reality exits on jealousy the why.]]

 As you know that kind of love is not real and not love in the first place just protection ones mocked-up property. On illusion, Hell people, just how irrational games can be?  

If you care to look at ownership what you believe you own when it comes to your own believes, you could blow huge amount of energy a major case gain can be head.

 If one could give up all the ownership one believes one owns the mock-ups the thoughts agreement the bank would simply vanish.

 The whole track existing because ownership, nothing else holds it in place, ownership is permanency, What we own we keep, very simple, Mine, mine, mine, don’t touch!!!!

Fear existing because losing what one own, have value if there is no ownership than there is no value.

 As you know fear exists because one holds something valuable like: believing one lives, [have a life] so must not die because than one no longer exists.   Huge MU.  Not only huge but the most idiotic concepts ever created to have a game. The stupidity of it is because by agreeing one trapped self into that condition.

The question should be , what is ownership,  till totally understood,[till totally understood what is]   than what others think ownership is, next question should be what consideration I have about owning=whatever  this should be run on every flows  YOU CAN THROW IN THE RUNDIMENTS   the O/S’s every place it applies. Must not forget there are secrets and one can own secretly something hehe, many things in fact.

 Secret ownership means FANTASISES one has about sex outside of marriage, or owning the world, having money or simply killing the neighbor’s dog who’s bark keeping you wake at night, anything outside of the law, the not “normal”. Not agreed by others or others do not know about it.

 Who believes in ownership,    what ownership do,   what ownership hold intact, holds in place, what makes ownership valuable, having value . Of course who needs to own anything?  Who need to own =what?

 Of course “possessions” is including in this category.   

PS: I know I have found this item on my very end of my journey , by understanding this, it’s true meaning,  I have accomplished my dream what I have worked for, to become free, become separated from the MEST universe.  

SEPARATIONS MEANS: one is no longer being the part of, don’t share the agreements.

But I have also realised: I now as-ised the spiritual universe the theta universe where only mock ups existing. They are there very simply because of the ownership, of the spirit believe in, identify with and hold embraces.

 The fear is there because the being believes he is nothing without those mock ups. Therefore the value is created.

 So blow the ownership the fear will disappear too. My best to you all, Elizabeth

from:David St Lawrence oldauditor@possiblyhelpfuladvice.com to me

Thank you!
That fills in some missing pieces for me.
Life will become much simpler!

David St Lawrence